Episodes of Insanity
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Chapter 1: Enter! Naruto Uzumaki!
Blank paper on my desk quickly becomes filled with his essence. His rage, his madness, his hate, his intolerance. Red eyes dark as blood, pierce my face; quick and mysterious as a fox. He appears in my dreams, my heart, my soul. Kyuubi.
I crumple it up, throw it away. No more. Rage gone, I get another paper, start a blank slate. But, in the midst of all the people I draw, he's there, waiting, plotting.
Again, I crumple the paper, but his thoughts, his face, stays in my mind. Surrounding all I call sanity, all my hopes, dreams. Almost as if he's sealed within me, sharing my soul, my heart.
He influences all that I do. His rage becomes mine, his will engulfs me. I become him; all that I hate. Episodes of insanity, I become Naruto only when Kyuubi is done.
He follows me to sleep, but plays roles differently. I am the hero of my village, saving lives, winning affection. But, Kyuubi is there, stealing my spotlight, wreaking havoc, being the villain. I don't always win in my dreams. When he wins, I feel beaten, broken, numb. When I win, I feel fake, because I know I haven't won the internal fight. Very few know it's a facade.
They say I'd feel better, but I just feel worse. One day, Kyuubi took over, andhurt me. I woke up dripping. On the walls and on my hands, he leaves his mark of destruction. He feels no pain, it's all mine to bear. When I'm him, I'm the hero, when back in reality, I'm the villain.