I never realized how dark and scary the sky looked in the morning; then again,
it always looks gloomy to me since the accident. It's just another day for me
to just fail at getting what I want, the beautiful girl, Lucy Heartifilia. She
is so far out of my reach since the accident. We used to be close, so close
everyone at the guild said we were practically inseparable.
Actually, speaking of the guild, I'm on my way there now, Lucy's rent is due
soon so I figured I'd get to the guild extra early today so we could go on a
mission, since, that's the only way to make money here in magnolia. Hopefully,
Lucy won't kick me or yell at me like she normally does. It's like she doesn't
trust me anymore. All I want is the old Lucy back so I can finally tell her how
much I love her and want her to be by my side. I think it'll be pointless to
tell her that now considering it'll probably freak her out. Anyways, I'm here
walking into the guild and out of my luck, the first person I run into happens
to be Lucy. 'Great'
"Morning Luce!" I yell clinging to her
"Ummmm, morning…" she says pushing me off "can you not do that
to me? You do that every day….. I don't even know you that well…"
I just look at her and smile, of course the smile is faked, and I honestly want
to scream 'it's me Natsu!' But, I can't get her to remember that way. "Yeah,
I'm sorry … I guess I kind of forgot...But I was wondering if you want to go on
a mission with me today? Please? You always say no. If you want Gray and Erza
can come too, and I know your rent is due soon, and I'm pretty sure it's pretty
hard to suddenly come up with 7,000 jewels considering you haven't been going on
missions since…." I can't say it. "Anyways, Happy misses you too. What do you
say? It can be-"I didn't get to finish because a pair of warm vanilla scented
hands covered my mouth.
"You're ranting. I'll go if it'll finally
get you to calm down I know i always say no, but it's because…..I don't know… I
feel weird when you're around me... Its Natsu right? Yeah I'll go with you, Gray
and Erza, but mainly because my rent is due!"
I smile because she
finally said yes and i hug her. She laughs that beautiful musical laugh that I
love, her cheeks turning a rosy color, her golden hair drapes her shoulders, '
she's beautiful'. She probably thinks I'm a weird, It's ironic, the weirdo
thinks I'm weird
"Let's go to the quest board then Natsu, lets pick
an easy job. I don't want to struggle. I can barely remember all my keys names."
We start to walk over to the quest board, everyone in the guild is staring at us
but at the moment I prefer to ignore them.
"Don't worry Luce, even if
we were taking a hard job, I would never let anything happen to you, I lov- I
mean, you're my friend. " A friend I love and preferably want to be my
girlfriend, but, I can't tell her that.
"Yeah I know but still, Hey why don't
we take this quest it looks easy. We just need to retrieve a book from these
bandits who took them. It doesn't look that hard and the reward is 14,000
jewels. That's two months of rent!"
I smile, my Lucy, my weirdo, well
could be mine, shes so cute when she's happy. We look for Happy (my furry blue
feline who flies, don't ask we found him as an egg), Erza and Gray. " Hey Mira?
Where are Gray, Happy and Erza?" i question our white haired bar
tender.
" Gray finally said yes to going out on a date with Juvia,
Erza said she had something to do with Jellal, and Happy is spending the day
with Wendy and Carla at some new fun plex that opened up. Looks like its just
you and Lucy as usual."I didn't like the gleam in her eye nor did the creepy
smile she was giving me help out.
"umm, okay do you still want to go
Luce?" i didn't want her to be uncomfortable since its just me now. The fact
that Gray, Erza and Happy are all busy made me ecstatic , Lucy... not so much.
"Of course! i still need my rent money!" or maybe i was wrong, then
again rent is the most important thing to her. I should be the most important
thing to her not her stupid rent ,but then again if she didn't have her rent she
wouldn't have her home.
So were on our way to 252 Rosemary Drive
Magnolia, well at least that's what Lucy said the address was, and the train
ride there was horrible, my motion sickness made the ride the worst. Normally,
Lucy would let me lay my head on her lap while she rubbed her slender fingers
through my salmon locks, it would put me to sleep and by the time i knew it we
were at our stop. she didn't do that this time. she laughed... the whole ride.
At least she was smiling. We walked and stopped by a few vendors every now and
then. We had to get to the address eventually right? it felt like forever and
it was quiet,... too quiet. we passed by a street vendor who was selling
Sakura flowers and Lucy stopped. She picked up the rainbow ones and stared at
them. she looked confused or seemed to like them? i don't know girls are
confusing. she turned them over and over in her hands then smiled.
"Hey Luce you okay?" i was really starting to get worried. why is she smiling
suddenly and why isn't it because of me? Stupid flowers.
" i remember
something, these flowers..." she looks up and looks me straight in he eyes,
dark azure orbs meeting brown chocolate orbs. " when i was sick at home one time
during the magnolia Sakura festival. it was going to be my first time going but
i got sick and couldn't get out of bed. You ended up digging up the Sakura tree
in magnolia square and sending down the river on a boat so i wouldn't miss it. i
remember you dong that for me."
"You...remember?" my face feels a
little wet but i dont care at the moment. Can her memories of me actually be
coming back little by little?
"Natsu are you crying?"
"No! i have something in my eye. its probably a petal or something or a rock.
Real men don't cry" of course she doesn't believe me. she laughs and comes over
to me after having bought the flowers. She hugs me and whispers a soft thank you
then starts to walk ahead of me.
"Luce!" she stops and turns around.
" i need to tell you something! i know it might sound weird and i couldn't tell
you before, with what happened and all... but i have to tell you! ive held it in
for too long."
"I'm listening Natsu." she smiles clutching the
flowers to her chest.
" i know you don't have your memories back yet,
but i know they'll all return to you one day and I'm willing to wait until that
day because i desperately want you and need you Luce. i probably sound really
cheesy and probably like i read this somewhere but what I'm saying is the truth
so please... don't laugh... and just don't forget what I'm about to tell
you...ever. you have to remember this until you have your memory
back..." i take a deep breathe. i need to tell her. i have to tell her.
i want to tell her. " I love you Lucy Heartifilia. i have for a really long
time. i just wish id told you when you remembered everything."
" i
know Natsu. I know you do."
" wha-"
"i don't know how, i
guess its a kind of feeling, and hearing it from you... i like you too.. a
lot.. i think. i had a feeling. i may not remember you well or know you well..
but for some reason when I'm around you i feel weird. i get butterflies and all
warm inside.i guess, i just feel uncomfortable because .. i don't remember you.
I'm not saying i cant accept your feelings, but i just cant at the moment. i
just need to remember first." She looks happy, yet her eyes aren't
smiling.
"i know... and ill wait"
"what?"
"
ill wait if i have to. i just cant loose you."
"You know your a weird
guy" she says through giggles
"Says the weirdo" she pushes my
shoulder then runs up ahead.
" Did you forget i need to get my rent
money?! Hurry up Pinky!"
"its not pink its salmon!" i yell running
after her. i may not have her in my grasp yet. i may not have what i want yet,
but i have hope, because one day she'll remember, and when she does i'll finally
have the one thing i truly want.