Shadow of Nothing
Chapter One: Emptiness
Disclaimer: I do not own Naruto
"Bakamono…"
"Dead-last…"
"Freak of nature…"
Those were some of the names they called me.
"Monster…"
"Dobe…"
"Demon child…"
My existence…
It leads to the villagers glaring at me coldly. They children wouldn't play with me because they love and obey their parents.
"Get away from the animal or I'll hate you forever." A mother says to her son. I'll always be an out-cast.
Superfluous…
Shunned…
Unwanted…
Those were Haku's words. Accepting the cruelty of fate of being hated and feared. His bloodeline limit was despised…mine was the demon fox inside me. The nine-tails kitsune feared by all, Kyuubi no Kitsune.
My dreams…
It's being the next Hokage. Why…because that will make me a human. Humans have dreams and feelings right? When I'm finally the Hokage, the villagers will just have to accept me and see that I'm strong…not. Throughout the years, I began to realize that they hate me so much that when I do become the one I dreamed of, they will rather kill themselves than to have me as 'leader of their village'.
My life…
It is more like an empty shell…it doesn't have any existence anymore. My teammates despise me. They really hate my guts. The other Genins, they just ignore me or tells me to shut up. The adults, they know the thing…the monster that dwells within me, making me a burden. Sandaime, Iruka-sensei, Kakashi-sensei, and Tsunade-baba, they all pity me and know that they're just helping another lowlife.
My actions…
They were so used to be loud and hyper, perfectly masking my loneliness and vanish it. No one would notice how lonely I really am. My tears would also be kept within me so none will see me as weak. Now my body, it moves like a puppet…a machine…a vessel that is nothing but emptiness. My emotions…
They are consisted of loneliness and sadness, sometimes anger and madness at myself of being hated and a failure. I have little happy memories and many 'unholy' ones. I feel unimportant, unwanted, and yet I have nothing to cling onto life. Maybe I want to prove myself one more time. No…it's hopeless…hopeless, just like myself.
My soul…
It has shadows dancing with pain and burden. No one cares. I'm an abandon orphan with a demon inside me. I have no friends, no family, and no life within me. My happiest time…is to end everything about me. A favor to all…for everyone and everything. I can't believe I didn't think of this before…