WARNING – This happens to me my first a:tlab fanfiction. I won't promise quik updates. Heck, I can't even promise more chapters. Whenever I feel like writing I'll be moving on with it. This is like many other- A post war fic. And if you dislike shipping, or even spite the word 'shipping' I advice you to click on your 'back' button. I even don't have the whole story planned. I just write something random things down and think about something later up with it. I am sure to put Kataang and Maiko in this story. But I am battling whenever I shall put in A touch of Sukka or Tokka. So frustrating!

I myself am A HUDGE tokka fanatic- But I don't think Suki's dead. Tortured maybe. But death…Nah.

DISCLEAMER – Yeah…People should sense this coming. I don't avatar. I'm dealing Ya know…Cause in my deepest fantasy I imagine Zuko getting healed from his scar by A miracle ever so forgiving water bender- and slashing A fire whip in Azula's face to give her the same scar, but THIS one will never be able to heal. MUAHAHAHA! But I don't own the show so I can't possibly do that. (I won't even be allowed in script writing team with my super-ideas…)

Chapter One: Thoughts

Mai had found Zuko. She smiled when she catched him asleep sitting by his desk, head hanging from the edge. She kissed him softly awake, first on his neck, and later his dry lips. She carefully massaged his shoulder and neck until he began to stir.

''You slept so well, I thought I might as well let you for A while.'' She answered before he could question, A caring smile gracing her lips. He groaned, feeling with his hands to find out where he was.

''Did I seriously sleep all day in this position?'' He asked himself more then to his fiancé. Mai chuckled ''You haven't been sleeping for days, Zuko. Whenever you're so tired you are even able to sleep in A bulldozing machine.'' She breathed in his hair, while turning from her standing position to sit on his lap.

The soon-to-be fire lord winced from the sudden weight on his legs. But didn't protest. Instead he rubbed the back of his beloved one gently. Sighing contently.

''It's been only eighty-four hours and I still miss him so much.'' He murmured. Mai stroked his hair comforting.

''Zuko, you don't get over A loss of A loved one that quick. Of course you still miss him. But Iroh passed away peacefully.''

''But I don't understand…'' The once banished prince weakly uttered. ''The day therefore he seemed so strong as he always was. And even if he was on the old side, he was still way to underage to die-''

Mai patted Zuko's back gently when she noticed him trembling. She shushed him with soft whispers.

''He died without feeling weak or vulnerable. He didn't even have cramps which he usually had. He died while he was feeling restful and clear. It's A better way of drawing your last breath then feeling pain from his old and restless body.''

Zuko's upper lip quivered. Mai kissed him on his nose.

''Thank you, Mai.'' Zuko smiled weakly. Mai, also smiling, nodded her head.

''You're very much welcome,'' Her smile turned more cheeky, and she slowly ran her arms around his broad shoulders. ''My lord.'' She whispered, kissing him by the base of his ear.

Zuko chuckled lowly ''Wow. You're surprisingly in A pleasant mood today.'' Zuko slapped A hand towards his own mouth, feeling A idiot by saying it. He hoped he didn't insult her. But Mai only rewarded him with A kiss on the corner of his mouth.

''That because I know I love you, you love me…And were getting 'bonded' very soon.'' Zuko knew what she met with 'bonding'. She meant with the word 'bonding' getting to the next level together. She met with 'bonding' They would promise each other to stay sides forever. She meant with 'bonding' they would soon be standing in front of an altar, becoming the fire lord and fire lady the fire nation just needed after the long running war.

''Mai, am I good enough?''

Eyeing her confused glance. Zuko corrected himself forcefully.

''Am I truly good enough for all this? This nation? This home- I mean; do I even deserve such happiness after everything I've done?''

Mai sighed for at least the tenth time that day. ''Zuko.'' She sternly began, raising her head which previously lay on his shoulder. Looking him straight in the face. ''You are A good person. Believe it or not. We were both good enough. We first thought we were good. But you were the first to realise we were doing wrong. That makes you so much better then just good…'' Mai got lost in affection again, hugging Zuko. ''And Spirits…I love you so much.''

Zuko was only half convinced. But went with it anyway. He had Mai's utter respect and sweet words, and he didn't lack Ty Lee's kind encouragements and cheery attitude.

Then he remembered the avatar's last words since he last saw him. After the war was finally over and victory brightened even in the rainy day.

''Give me A signal whenever you need me.'' Aang had friendly said to him. Zuko told him he couldn't just barge A call on him whenever he pleased. Aang laughed airily, putting his hand on the prince his shoulder. ''That's why I'm the avatar after all.'' Zuko hardly believed this was the twelve year old who had denied his role of avatar before. At least, that what was Sokka told him whenever the ater tribe warrior got his trust. Now, the kids offer to help him out amazed him. He would have A full planner later on. And everybody knew it.

Katara especially rubbed that fact in. ''But Aang-'' She protested, hands clasped together in A worrying gesture. ''I'm sure Zuko can handle this nation on his own. You'll be busy already by making peace every place.''

''It's okay Katara,'' Aang smiled, slightly blusing. Then his face frowned sadly and his arms folded over each other. ''That's the least I owe for this world by disappearing for hundreds of years time.''

''Aang, aren't you still over that?'' Sokka asked surprised. Aang grinned again, shaking his head briefly. ''Off course not! Heavens no, I'm just suggesting Zuko my help because it's my duty,'' He looked from his water-tribe friends to the prince and smiled, correcting himself; ''No, not because it's just my duty. It's my pleasure to help you out, Zuko…''

Its been four years since he offered that. Zuko sometimes wondered if this promise he made was still open. He probably should let the Avatar and his friends know, and ESPECIALLY Toph of the unfortunate death of Iroh.

His racing images where interrupted by Mai, who tenderly and carefully kissed all her love on his cheek. Zuko swallowed.

''Mai…I don't think...''

''You're so tense lately.'' Mai didn't even bother to let him speak up. ''You're mine tonight. I love you and I'm going to show you how much.'' She unbound the noble knot and his hair tumbled to his shoulder. ''I would prepare if I were you…'' She bit her bottom lip, gripping his collar and forcefully kissed him hard on the mouth.

Don't tell me how much I suck because I know I do! Review if you like, and if you flame I won't mind either. It very useful to warm my hot chocolate with…(whips mushroom from sack) I think the next chapter will be called 'consoling' But that chapter will only come if people don't think this as A waste…

P.S I apologize for Grammar mistakes. I'll try to Beta- everything later…