Hi, erm, so it's not like I'm here really often, but I really felt like I need to get rid of this things in my mind, sort of. OK I know it's crap just let it be, Ok?
This are just things about me and my life, but you can think of them any shipper way you want, really. I wrote some HA stuff so let's pretend this are Helga's. Let's pretend I'm Helga.
It resembles her situation pretty much actually.
I don't own anything apart from this words, these are all mine.
#1
To have a cupboard box
With holes for eyes
Would be nice
As I don't seem to fit your world
It would be fair
To lock me there
To hide my whole sucker world
Erase my face
My trembling disgrace
To hide this shame of ugly mind
My glory of defeat
Pride of a nitwit
Because even if I do see beauty
I can't become the part of it
Like spring and autumn can not meet
A Teddy bear
Like a teddy bear, teddy bear
I won't tell anyone, I swear
Whisper to me what you feel
Little aches you want me to heal
Tiny little moments we'd share
I won't let anyone in, I swear
Trust is the only medicine I'd take
Make a vow of silence I won't ever break
Little plushy friend
Who will always understand
Never changing it's expression
Whether you hug it or tear apart in frustration
I watch you growing up
Something I have no power to stop
Just like I can't make myself grow
Or have some other face to show
One day every kid leaves me under his bed
And today is the day that I dread
You take my paw and throw me away
To lonely and cold one-more-century stay
A painted flower on a wallpaper
No one gives you a hand
Or asks what you feel
And you just keep staring
They pass by, holding hands
You hear stories, see things
and you just keep staring
Who would've known that all you wish is a hug?
Who would've known that someone like you has a heart?
A painted flower on a wallpaper
And they know summer, they know lust
While you feel made of dust
and you keep staring
You hate to hear it but still you listen
To what they do and how they love
It slices your heart
Who would've known that all you wish is a hug?
Who would've known that someone like you has a heart?
A painted flower on a wallpaper
Who would have known?
Who would not reject?
You're standing there alone
and
all you are is a painted flower
on a wallpaper
issued
Can't talk to you
Can't speak without mentioning your name
Can't do what I'm supposed to
Can't be mad at you, we're not the same
Can't be fun still can't be sad
When you want me to smile I shall force it
Oblivious, you're killing me, and yet
Can't push you away cos you don't deserve that
Can't live while you stand right next to me
Typing to someone you're obsessing with
Now you turn your back cos I'm no good
But what turns we into beast is you
Tonnes of unspoken burden my shoulders
How can I have fun when my will smothers?
Can't go ahead and speak my mind
I know for sure I'd be denied
Don't want to spoil what I have
Though feelings drive me close to death
#2
Im not a girl half naked on the floor
Not the one to cuddle when her wounds are sore
Have no whit, no stunning way to go
Down than road like a cat that has no home
And with my words all cliche little nothings
I stumble over every word I say it comes out muffled
It is a pretty big deal if you ask me
To know there's no white-dress happy ending til my last will
With all my pride I say to you today
I'm not that cool one with her soul-strings on display
My heart and hard-work make me who I am
And if I"m damned for that-so come that may
A little nerd and tiny freak
Not clearly a lollipop to lick
If this is all that I can get-fine, I accept
When no one cares - no one counts all the tears I've wept