Okay well hi there :) I hope you guys like this chapter...I know it kinda sucks (in my opinion) I just...I dunno review tell me what you think.

Prologue

"Lily! You have to stop this!"

"Stop what Potter? I'm perfect now." I said as I took my last breath before darkness surrounded me. I could've sworn all I heard was Potter saying he loved me.

Chapter one:

"Lily!" Mum screamed as I went through the wall emerging from platform nine and three quarters. Mum ran over hugging me while Petunia only smirked glaring at me.

My home had lost that homely feeling over six year ago. Now Hogwarts was my true home. I smiled knowing with mum it was only an act at least with Petunia I knew where we stood all the time.

"Oh Lily did you gain weight again? You look so fat, maybe you should stop eating those stupid wizard treats they only go straight to your hips." Petunia said and I only sighed smiling at her.

"Nice to see you too, sister." I looked behind me seeing Potter staring obviously he'd heard my sister because he gaped in shock before turning back to his friends laughing again.

"See you next year, Evans!" Potter called and I smiled waving goodbye wondering if I'd even survive the summer.

"Bye Lily!" Beatrice screamed smiling before running over hugging me. She was great full of energy, always so happy that's what I was like at Hogwarts but it was all a façade, not real. Really I dreaded coming home I was only happy that sixth year was over and seventh would soon be upon us then I could leave.

"Come on dear, time to go." Mum said and I smiled following her to the car. I put my stuff in the trunk and took my seat beside Petunia.

"What are you doing?" Mum turned and I shrugged unsure of what she meant. "All those people they couldn't possibly be your friends, who could ever love you. You're a freak."

A freak that's all I'd ever be in my family. My father was silent but I knew soon, he'd be screaming at me and hitting me and nobody would care. Nobody ever did.

Tears filled my eyes but I only blinked them back knowing there would be time for weakness later.

The drive to the house was fast and I took my stuff up to my room. In five months I'd be able to use magic maybe then I could gain some control over my life, but I knew even then I would never threaten any family member with magic.

"Lily!" Mum called and I ran downstairs and mum stood at the bottom of the stairs hands on her hips. "I need to speak to you Lily." I nodded unsure of what to say. "Who was that boy at the train station? Are you pregnant with his child, slut?" She brought her hand up slapping me hard across the face causing me to gasp. "Answer my question!"

"No mum of course not."

"Dominic!" My father came into the room his black eyes immediately focused on me. "The slut managed to get herself pregnant." I opened my mouth about to say something but the blow to my stomach only managed to knock the breath out of me.

I collapsed to the floor holding my stomach before my dad kicked me repeatedly while my mother laughed. "Get upstairs you piece of trash." He said after what seemed like forever. I got to my feet barely managing to keep my balance. I tripped up the stairs before going to my room collapsing against the door tears pouring down my face.

None of this is James' fault, it's mine. The only person I ever told was Severus but now him and I aren't friends anymore so I truly am alone.

I went into my trunk and pulled out my razor blades. I took a new one out and slid it across my ankle where nobody would ever see.

I smiled as the blood dripped from the cut releasing every feeling of unease within me and soon I was able to fall into bed feeling peaceful.

Before sleep took over I looked out my window and wished on a star that i'd make it through the summer.

Okay well good bad? Just a little insight as to what Lily's life is like at home...mildly depressing but I dunno. So well review let me know if should even bother continuing.

-Little Miss fake it