Prompt for Hogwarts Online: Honesty.
Notes: This is set just after Hermione has come out of the shrieking shack with Harry and Ron, her relationship with Severus was a secret so that's why she couldn't go back and save him, she is still hoping that he will live. He doesn't, but again she doesn't know that for the purposes of this drabble.
Hermione's POV.
You know when your heart stops from the sudden fear that you may never see a person again ... I had haven't stopped having that feeling since we left – and I'm still having that reaction every time I hear the same piece of news, every time I go looking for more news. It doesn't get any easier. It gets harder.
Knowing he is out there after it happening makes my stomach clench and my heart throb. How is he? Is he hurt? Was he scared? What actually happened? Will he be okay? All these questions run through my mind, and I can do nothing to quell them. They come relentlessly, until they leave me sobbing, unable to breath from the shear intensity of the emotions the questions bring. The answers mock me as I will never know them until I talk to him, until he talks to me, until he's able to talk to me.
We used to say the three little words everyday … until we didn't. I don't know what happened, all I know is I regret every day that has gone by in which I never told him how I felt. I should have been honest with him every day, told him what was on my mind – well maybe not every day – but most days, days which we will never get back. Days which were spent on nothingness.
Today was our first anniversary as a couple.