The Fading Light Inside
Title: The Fading Light Inside
Pairing: Just a tiny hint of Gingiku if you squint.
Rating: T for slight language, slight dark themes, and the slightest mentions of UA- Noncon and violence.
Disclaimer: I do not own, nor will I EVER own, Bleach. The characters and plot of Bleach belong to Tite Kubo, I'm only playing in his sandbox.
Before I met Gin, I… Had no one. I was an only child and my parents gave me up the second I was born. All the doctors said that mother was infertile, so I was simply birthed to prove a point. The other kids at school and the orphanage hated me because I was smart… I was always reading or writing something. They mercilessly teased me and played cruel jokes on me every chance they got.
Then around the 6th Grade, my breasts started to develop. People weren't picking on me as much, and I got strange looks from some of my classmates. One day after school, 2 upperclassmen cornered me. To this day, I don't know exactly what they intended to do to me, but I do know this: Gin saved my life and sanity that day. I will never forget that.
A month later, a week before my birthday, I committed suicide. Gin had died the day prior in an awful massacre. As for my parents… Well, both of them had dark hair. They both accused the other of cheating, and their marriage spiraled downward from there. They ended up killing each other in a drunken bar fight and turning into Hollows upon their death. They were taken care of by some unseated shinigami.
This is why I act like an idiot every day, why I display my breasts to keep from being made fun of. This is why I drink myself into sweet black thoughtlessness every chance I get.
Gin saved me. Gin damned me. Gin gave me hope, if only for a little while…
And now Gin has abandoned me and become my mortal enemy. That's the fucking story of my life, isn't it? Hitsugaya may call me screwed up in the head, but he has no idea. The only one who gets it is Orihime. Her parents didn't want her, her brother died when she was a child, and the one she loves is totally oblivious to her feelings because he has to save the world- and might get killed in the process.
Gin Ichimaru, I hate you. I hate you for leaving me all alone again. My taichou doesn't understand. I hate you. I will never, EVER forgive you for this.
I will never forgive you for making me love you so.