Disclaimer:I don't own anything.

Chapter 1: Confusion

Dear Diary,

I had just gotten you, and this is my first time ever writing down what I'm all about. The reason for writing everything is because my therapist said that If I wrote everything down in my past, it wouldn't come out to haunt me anymore. Hopefully this is true.

All throughout my childhood I was taught to uphold my families business. To keep the museum that had all of Japan's finest memories under control. To keep watch of it, make sure everything was right. She saw all her ancestors in that museum, her family never moved away from their homelands. Even when it was destroyed, and most of the villagers either died or fled, there was still one villager who stayed. Remaking the whole entire village, though her name, and body was never discovered, her virtue is still carried on.

I was always the child who stayed away from all the other kids. Always avoiding everyone and trying to make nice to the ones who would come up to me. My mother had died when I was six, and from then on, I was pretty much a mute till I turned 11. My brother asked me why I never talked, and I answered him. From then on, he kept me smiling and talking. He became my world.

I then started junior high. I still was the awkward child, the one with the smarts, wasn't good looking, and enjoyed myself with my own thoughts. Always succeeding in whatever I was trying to overcome. Being student body president even back then was a wonderful accomplishment to my father and brother. That's all I wanted to do, was make them happy.

Then high school started, and my father passed away. It was a devastating process for me to go through. Kohaku couldn't remember our mother, so It didn't affect him, but for both of my parents to have passed away. I thought I was just about to pretty much die. He had died in a car accident, due to another drunk driver. I have made a vow to myself, never to drink. That's a vow I shall never break.

My brother and I were in an orphanage for two years. Before any adults wanted to choose us, for we didn't want to be separated. A very nice, decent couple adopted us, and I thought for once in the last two years that things might come out to be decent. We hadn't even lived there a week and my foster father started to molest me. Doing some very sick and unnatural things to me, as well as starting to beat my brother.

Six months later, my brother was in intensive care. My foster father had pushed out of a window on the second floor, and my brother had hit his head. He was in a comma for three and a half months, and during those months, it was hell. I had to deal with the molestation and abuse. Then my brother died, he had a blood clot in his brain, and that's when I knew everything needed to stop. One night my foster father decided to touch me once again and I came at him with a knife. Calling the cops, and they showed up. I told the cops everything I possibly could. Showing them the bruises on my body.

My foster mother never knew the entire time, and I never blamed anything upon her. Now my foster is in jail for the next fifteen years. After that I was sixteen, the cops said if I was able to find a stable job, and find an affordable place I would be able to live on my own without having to go back into an orphanage.

It took me three weeks before I had a stable job, and not even a few days later a girl who worked with me asked me if I needed a place to stay. I gladly accepted the offer. I stayed in school, becoming more open, I had gotten myself two best friends and a boyfriend named Miroku. Me and him spent the rest of our high school days together.

Going to homecoming, prom, having to take exams, so many memories that included us three. My best friend that was a girl was Kagome, a very smart, girl who made me forget about all my worries. Reminded me a lot of my mother sometimes, and I love spending all my time with her. Actually we have been friends now for six years, same as my other best friend. His name is Inuyasha, I met him by bumping into him, me and his cursing each other at the top of our lungs and then when we both looked at one another we stopped. And then we said our apologies and things went great from there. And for the lecherous boyfriend, well he randomly came up to me on his first day of school. Grabbing my butt and asking if we could go out, I smacked him across the face. Then weeks later he said he was sorry and would like to introduce himself with more manners. After that I said I would give him a chance, but if he screwed it up, it would be the end of everything.

The girl who I had been living with decided that she needed to get out of Japan and moved to America leaving everything behind. At first I didn't know how I was going to be able to afford the place, and all the utility bills upon that, but she left enough money for me to be able to last a year by myself, without me having to pay for anything. So all the money I had, I went out and bought me a cheap old car that could get me places that I needed to be.

I graduated high school with honors, with the three most important people I could ever imagine. We all went out separate ways, but all keeping contact with one another. I graduated college, and so did Inuyasha. For Miroku, he is upholding his families temple, same as Kagome. I have became cultural anthropologist, I've pretty much have traveled to almost every country in the last year, writing books about the kind of people I see.

Kagome and I still keep in contact quite often. Writing e-mails back and forth. Telling about the excitement in each others life. Right now she is married to Koga, and they have a little one on the way. Just heard the good news 2 weeks ago.

As for Inuyasha, we call each other frequently. He's some vice president of some big shot company that I can never remember the name to. He has a girlfriend, some hot super model, but it seems like he has a new girlfriend every week. I guess he's just scared of commitment.

As for Miroku, well he's my fiancé. I never thought that I could uphold a relationship so long. Me and him have been together for so long, it seems like I have known him forever, well it pretty much has been.

Though I'm engaged, I don't want to be with him. I fell in love with him a long time ago, but he's still just as flirtatious as he was back when I met him in high school. But at the same time, I had a crush back then, the same one I have till this day. Actually it has developed more then just a crush, Im in love with somebody else then Miroku. Me and Miroku's flame burnt out about six months ago, him trying to regain himself, he decided to propose to me then, hoping matters would get better. It hasn't though. Just makes every night sleeping next to him even more awkward. You can tell that he's still madly in love with me, and that's why I seem to not be able to leave him.

I want to make things work between me and him, because he's the only person that I've ever been with. He's the only person…no, Inuyasha has shown me a lot as well.

Matter of a fact, Inuyasha is the guy that I'm in love with.

"Sango?"

Sango quickly closed her diary, and putting it inside her drawer, with her pen. Deciding to get up and see what Miroku wanted, she walked out of her bedroom, into the living room.

"Close your eyes before you come in here!" Miroku exclaimed, he could hear her footsteps.

Sango obeyed his wished, and closed her eyes. She could feel him behind her, enclosing his hands over her eyes, making sure she wouldn't be able to peak. He then guided her into the next room.

"Look," he said while taking his hands away.

Sango then saw a cute little golden retriever on the floor. It was only a puppy, and it was running around in circles trying to bite its own tale. Sango smiled a little, trying to act happy. Why had he done this for her?

"So what do you think?" Miroku asked, coming over towards sango, putting his hands around her waist.

"Well, I think its cute. Thank you." She said while tugging away and giving him a quick kiss on the cheek.

She was actually truly upset. She didn't want a puppy, she didn't want anything from him. She just wanted to be alone. She just needed to get away.

Hoped you enjoyed it

pleas review!