"I hate you!" I shouted at him, tears flowing down my face.
"No you don't." He whispered, a few of his own tears falling.
"I should. I should hate you. But I can't." I said barely above a whisper, feeling my knees give out, but before I could hit the ground, Dean pulled me to him letting me sob into chest. I try with every muscle in my body to push him away, feeling so much pain, he only held me tighter, in an almost painful grip. Finally giving in, I collapse into his chest bawling my eyes out, feeling the pain he caused me. How could I let this man have such a hold over me he could break me completely given the chance.
"Baby, you know i would never say anything like that to you. it was an accident, I'm so sorry, baby." Deans voice was shaking with unshed tears, a few escaping, sliding down his cheeks. I didn't know what to think. could I forgive him for saying that? easily. should I forgive him? no.
"Dean I-I think I need some time.." I say to him with little strength. I felt his grip loosen, almost in defeat. I start to slide out of his arms, that's when he gets down on his knee. I stop breathing for a second, "Dean what are you-" he cuts me off "Baby, you know I would never say any of that and mean it. I love you, with every fiber of my being. Saying what I said to you, and seeing how much it hurt you, it hurt me more that being tortured in hell, hunted down in purgatory, seeing my own brother killed in front of me. I can't imagine living in this miserable dark world without you. would you, my love, my world, my universe, do the honor of marrying me?" I stopped breathing in the middle of his proposal. I couldn't believe what was happening. I am suddenly filled a weird(but good) type of warmth. thinking about it, I realize it's joy, love, and overall adoration. this man, this beautiful green eyed man, was asking me to marry him. I didn't realize I was crying until I felt his warm hands wiping them off my face. I start crying harder when I see he had a heartbroken expression.
"Yes." I finally whisper.
His head shot up and his eyes were full of surprise and happiness. he pulls me tightly to him, hugging me.
"I love you. I love you so much it hurts." he tells me, tears of joy streaming down his face.
"I love you so much, dean."