Author's note: Hello... I am back with a yaoi fanfic of the triplets! Its not a one-shot... its a story! I have been thinking of this story for a long time and finally got the guts to write this! XD I hope you guys will like it!

Disclaimer: Brothers conflict obviously doesn't belong to me

Warning: As stated in the summary and rating... and since it is yaoi... it contains sexual intercourse so if you are not interested in a boy x boy stuffs feel free to leave~

Pairing: Tsubaki x Azusa & Natsume x Azusa

No lemons in this chapter yet

Ever since we were born… There is only 1 person who would always be beside me, supporting me whenever I'm unsure of myself, giving me the correct choices... Always giving me nothing but happiness. I forgot the number of times he had saved me from my misery, though I'm sure it's too much to count it using these fingers on 2 of my hands.

And then recently, this person… would make my heart skip a beat.

"Tsubaki," His smile and his gentle voice are the only things that can make me move forward no matter how serious of a problem I was having. Why? Why is it that I have this kind of sentiment to him? I know that what I'm feeling towards him is something that shouldn't happen. Something that must never exist… yet… this feeling… it is just too overwhelming to be erased completely from my heart.

I've fallen in love…

It took me a while to realize this since it was my first time to actually fall in love for someone. Even after realizing this I didn't talk to the said person about it. I was scared of something…

What if I got too far? What if I scared him instead?

I have always been bad at controlling my emotions and frustration. The only reason that sometimes I can hold back my feelings is because that person would always stop me before things get worse. What if I scared him? I don't want to hurt him. I don't want him to feel burdened by my own selfishness.

I have to bear this alone. I don't mind being the only one suffering.

So that he wouldn't notice this feeling deep inside me, I continued to act the way I usually do in front of him.

Then… I heard from my brothers that our mom will re-marry someone and that we will gain a new little sister who'll live together with us. At that I thought it would be a good chance to fall in love with another person… normally. Like how normal people fall in love with opposite genders.

Since me and my true crush are living in the same roof, it would be easier to pass him the message. A message that says 'I'm already seeing someone'… That way he wouldn't suspect anything if I did something abnormal in his eyes.

However it isn't only me that loves our little sister. Several of our brothers are already seeing our little sister with greed… Even our triplet, who doesn't live together with us, has started seeing her as a woman.

I'm glad about one thing though… 'he' is also starting to feel what you call 'love' for little sister. That thought alone have given me a thousand happiness. He didn't end up like me.

And thus this started our 'war'. However… I had a feeling that this girl wouldn't choose me as a lover. She saw through my eyes that I don't truly love her.

Getting rejected wasn't surprising at all, but it did make me feel more depressed. From the time when we were clearly rejected, my love for 'him' has reached its peak. I wouldn't be able to control my heartbeat when I see his face, especially at that time when we got rejected. I even thought his crying face… was adorable. Just how much of a low-life am I?

Not long ago he asked me, "Is there something wrong? You've been acting weirdly recently…"

Perceptibly I panicked, not knowing what response should I give him and what face to wear when answering. Of course I lied to him. How can I say the truth about these sinful feelings I have for him?

As time passes by I can't hold my lust anymore, especially when I began dreaming of doing it with him. That dream alone, made me want to make that dream real… made me want to…

Mess him real bad…

I won't settle down unless I tell him this properly, without doing anything unthinkable to him.

I have to tell him… that I love him…

The question now is… Will I be able to do it without hurting him?

"Hah…" Here I am… leaning towards the railing of my apartment's balcony, with a tobacco between my 2 fingers, thinking back about how I ended up in this state.

I know that I'm not really a good communicator back then when I was a child. Maybe I should rephrase that to 'when I was a child up till now'. The only person who would understand me well has got to be him… although he doesn't show it.

If I should answer "Who is it that you get along well with the most?" The answer is so obvious, however if it's in the past then the answer will be different. There were 2 people who I got along well with in the past, but one of them hates me now and I know it was entirely my fault. The other one is the one who gets along well with me up till now.

From my point of view, my brothers don't seem to be interested in whatever I do. Maybe my words are like a stab in the heart? I always have troubles in expressing my lexes. I seem to be an individual who doesn't open up to other people. Maybe this is one of the reason I decided to move… or maybe of something else… Either way I think it's for his and my own good.

What interests me is how 'he' always comes to me or calls me through the phone whenever he wants to talk about his worries. Rather than feeling irritated, I couldn't describe how happy I am. I never would've thought he would go to me instead of his closest twin. I mean… why me? Why not the eldest brother who is the wisest and experienced out of all brothers? Is it because he is taking advantage of my bluntness? I don't think that's the case…

The only problem I am always facing when I'm being his temporary consultant is the topic is always about Tsubaki or the family. Why? At first I didn't understand either. And also…

Why is it that I feel both lonely and vexed whenever I see him being caring to either Tsubaki or Ema? As time come and go and the more I talk with him, the clearer the answer gets. I also begin to realize Tsubaki is acting differently than usual, looking at 'him' with 'those' eyes. Maybe he's feeling the same thing as I am. There's no doubt about it. Even 'he' talked about it sometimes too and admitted that he didn't know what's wrong with Tsubaki which is a relief… because it'll trouble him and I am sure both me and Tsubaki don't want that to happen.

Tsubaki and my feelings…

It's gotta be…

Love…

and…

Possessiveness…

Once I figured it out, it made things worse. I know it is me who decided to live alone, but I begin to regret choosing that decision as I desperately want to see his face more often, especially his bright… smile.

Isn't it illicit to develop these feelings? Isn't it revolting? Siblings shouldn't fall in love right? Even if I thought like that I can't deny my true feelings.

I kept it hidden in my heart, not wanting to make him feel burdened, but that doesn't mean I have given up on him. That's right… there is still one person out there who shares the same feeling as I do. I mustn't lose to Tsubaki, exclusively not on this matter.

If I lose him… If he sees someone other than me… I wonder if he'll forget me. I wonder if I will be alone for the rest of my life. Does he really have the heart to do that? Who is the dependent one here actually? The answer to all these complicated questions is something for me to find out.

I exhaled the smoke that was kept inside me into the starry sky. It's so beautiful…

As beautiful as him…

When the time is right, I'll tell him… In order not to lose him, I must make him understand…

That he have become someone important in my life… No one could replace him… No one…

So... Did you guess correctly about who both these people are? I'll tell you who these two people are in the next chapter... if I remember and have the time to continue because I have another story to finish...

Reviews are always appreciated~!

Continuation condition: Depends on how many of you guys likes it