Disclaimer: Yuu Yuu Hakusho don't belong to me, it belong to its creator. I'm just a middle school student who is totally broke so don't sue me!
Lonely Thoughts
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It's strange, all my life I believed that I didn't need anything or anyone.
I closed myself in an unbreakable shield, a shell made of ice. I didn't need love, happiness, sorrow or grief.
I didn't need emotions.
I was fine being the cold assassin, unfeeling, no weakness and no mercy.
I was perfectly fine, it didn't matter to me that I was hollow, it didn't matter to me that a void of emptiness has occupied my heart ages ago, it didn't matter to me that a icy numbness has been following me as long as I can remember, it didn't matter to me that I was forever cold despite the fact that I am a fire demon.
I didn't need anyone. Why should I?
No one ever cared about me, no one ever loved me.
To the whole world I was just the Forbidden Child, a mistake that should have never been made, the koorimes and my mother tossed me away like a useless and disgusting object, just a few hours before I was born, hoping that would die.
But I have survived. I am a survivor. And I am a loner, always by myself, an outsider.
I didn't need anything or anyone. At least that was what I believed until I met you.
Every time I look in to your liquid emerald eyes, a knot will form in my stomach.
Every time you smile that sweet and expressive smile at me I melt, like a small block of ice under the warm rays of the sun.
Every time you touch me, whether it's a small pat on the shoulder or an encouraging squeeze of my hand, I shiver.
Every time I hear your soft soothing voice, I quaver.
Each time I see you or come near you, I yearn to thread I fingers through your crimson locks, to kiss your soft lips till you are breathless, to touch you and feel until you moan with ecstasy.
Before you came in to my life, I distrusted everyone and I still do, except for you.
Somehow you have melted my icy shield, and worm your way in to the dark void that was once my heart.
And I want to tell you.
I love you.
I love you so much.
Kurama,
Fox
I realize that you don't return my feelings, how could you.
No one can love the Forbidden Child.
But still, I yearn to tell you the truth that I, Hiei, love you more than I have ever dreamed of.
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So what do you think? If you wish, please email me at luna_star28@hotmail.com and please be easy on me since this is my first fan fiction on Yuu Yuu Hakusho. Ja ne!