A.N- my first attempt of writing C.M. fanfiction. Constructive critasisum welcome.
Chapter one- J.J's pov
As soon as we entered the woods I knew it wasn't going to be good, they looked exactly like the ones I used to live by as a kid, where it happened. Come on J.J. snap out of it, Spence needs you and you can do is think of yourself the voice inside my head spoke. If I wanted to help Spence I, had to forget the past and overcome this stupid phobia.
The whole group made their way cautiously through the woods; I was trailing behind them my minds racing through all of the possibilities of how the night was going to end, none of them good. I carried on walking behind them, my eyes fixed to the floor. Everything of this place reminds me of before, the trees grinned wickedly as if mocking me, the moon shone silver faintly through the thick cloud and the air tasted sickly sweet as if this weren't real, but some twisted nightmare.
I quickly became separated from the group. I could feel the anxiety forming in the pit of my stomach. Come on JJ not the time to get panicky... think of a happy time like when you were at the redskins game. I closed my eyes and took in a couple of breaths before opening them again hoping to get rid of the fear... crap. I opened my eyes and took in the surroundings but I was no longer in Georgia or 28 year old Special agent Jennifer Jaraeu but 8 year old Jennie in Pennsylvania. Thoughts and images of what happened before, what I thought I had forgotten started to flash repeatedly through my minds, tarring through old wounds. I felt a sharp pain in the back of my head and a Childs scream followed by a manic laughter of him... but the nightmare was fully in my head.
I fell to the floor dropping my gun, it landed with a soft thud against the cold November floor, I could feel my eyes starting to swell, tears started to stream from them falling gracefully to the floor. Quickly my head was beginning to hurt, my eyes were burning and my chest was getting tighter and tighter making it hard for me to breathe. "Spence... help me," I whispered "Spence I need me more than ever." I whispered again, though my words seem to absorb into the darkness as if they had fallen in tar. J.J. listen to me like you always do, what is it Spence always told you; You're strong and overcome anything, unfortunalty he's in trouble and he's the one who needs help... so you be the brave one and go save him.
I spotted a small light in the distance, I quickly grabbed my gun, got up and backed up behind a tree, not sure if I wanted to be found or not. I saw the outcast of someone in the distance; I quickly raised my gun for protection and saw that it was Emily. "J.J. where have you been?" she asked, she saw the state I was in, the look I gave told her that she didn't want to ask and further questions , "I just got a little lost," I said, a little out of spite, I knew Emily meant no harm but she should be looking for Reid not me. We carried on quickly looking for the others in awkward silence.
My breath caught and my heart sank when the sound of a gunshot rang through my ears. I didn't know weather I should be brave and face the truth or if I should run and assure myself that everything will be okay. I was going to be brave; if he was hurt then I wanted to see him for myself. I sped up a little to join up with the others and discretely fell over the root of a tree. I cursed silently as I got up, from the pain I felt when I put my weight on it told me that I had twisted it but I didn't care, for him I would run forever in agony. With the thought of Reid I couldn't feel any pain, just as long as I got to see him, hear him, feeling him but more than anything tell him
Hearing Morgan call his name and him responding made my heart pound, after all no I know he's safe. I started to run but it felt like forever before I could finally reach him. I stopped when I got to him and joined everyone, Emily following shortly. I could feel tears forming and streaming down my face again, I was so happy that the nightmare had ended and that he was safe, angry that this whole event had to take place and sad because it took me this long for me to find my true feelings.
He looked over to me and saw me crying, me eyes immediately dropped to the floor, after all this had been my own fault. If I'd told him not to separate, we wouldn't have gotten into this mess. He limped over to me and with his thumb and index finger lifted up my chin, so we were staring into each others eyes. "J.J. I'm so sorry, this is my entire fault," he whispered, I felt like crying even harder by my eyes were already stinging in agony but I didn't care.
I wrapped my arms around him and hugged as tight and I could, he gave a grunt in pain and I backed off a little bit. "I thought I would never see you again," I whispered into his ear. I knew it wasn't the best time ever but I needed to say it. "I love you." I whispered and began to sob into his chest. I wasn't expecting him to say anything more likely for him to push me away or something else but defiantly not; "I love you too J.J." he whispered into my ear, I looked up to him and he was smiling.
A.N2- read review make me happy. Gonna post chapter two tonight or tomorrow.