What
is he playing at?
Kurogane wondered to himself as he glared across the playground where
the group had come to rest at, Fai had stirred up Sakura and Makona
into having a picnic. The blonde was currently laughing inanely as he
was pretending to be a monster and chased Makona and Sakura around
the swings and slides. Kurogane snorted at him, for the past week Fai
had been giving him the cold shoulder and Kurogane wasn't sure why,
he had been pretty sure he hadn't said or done anything different
from usual.
"Kurogane-san?" Sayoran said his name tentatively,
the ninja's face making the boy feel more uneasy than normal.
Kurogane grunted in response, Sayoran had learnt enough to know that
something on the tanned adult man mind when he refused to form a
syllable.
"Is something wrong?" Kurogane looked at Sayoran.
"Tch" he stood up "this is just a waste of time" he
turned and left the park heading back towards the apartment they had
rented in this world, Sayoran looked confused he thought that he
heard a hint of disappointment in his elders voice. He turned to gaze
at his princes and her 'monster' they were running towards
him"
"Save me Sayoran-kun!" she laughed as she hid behind
him Makona leaping to his shoulder, Sayoran made a dramatic pretence
to defend Sakura pretending to hold a stick and slaying Fai, who
dramatically fell to the ground feigning death. The children and
Makona missed it but Fai face clouded for a second when he saw that
Kurogane had walked off.
"I
push and pull you!?" Fai snapped at Kurogane across the lounge
room, Sakura and Sayoran had enrolled in a local school because they
had been lead to believe that the 'haunted' school had a feather
hidden in its legends. So at 10am Kurogane and Fai were the only ones
in the apartment, the argument had been going for 10 minutes.
"Humph, you're acting like I'm making this up. Teasing me and
using those stupid-arse nicknames on me one second, then doing your
best to ignore me the next. If that's not pushing and pulling at me
then what is?" Kurogane sat at the kitchen table with his arms
crossed refusing to look at the blonde whose icy blue eyes trying to
stab at him.
"You're one to talk you sad excuse for an
imperial guardian!" Kurogane shot him a dangerous look "You stand
around ignoring me! I might give you nice names, you don't even use
MY name… you act like you own me yelling at me like you do!" Fed
up with their argument Fai threw a remote control at Kurogane's
head, and then ran to the door opening it to walk out of it
defiantly, he could hear Kurogane stand up and put the remote on the
table. He waited a moment to see if Kurogane would stop him, but he
only felt his red eyes watching Fai's back so Fai squeezed his eyes
shut holding his pride firm and walked out of the door and closed it
behind him and walked towards the stairwell where he stood for five
minutes when no one came he slid down against the wall wiping at a
tear.
Does
he love me?
Fai had asked himself this question many times on many worlds, ever
since Yama his relationship with the tall dark and imposing ninja had
been a tentative case of off again on again. Since first meeting
Kurogane Fai had sworn to himself not to get involved with his
brooding companion, but in the end…maybe this was hitsuzen, he was
sure if he asked the Dimension Witch about it she would probably give
a vague answer that wouldn't answer anything; he had nothing left
to give her to get a straight answer. Fai rolled over in the bed,
glancing at the door wondering if Kurogane was planning on staying on
the couch till he remembered that they were in the middle of the
fight, Fai would be alone tonight, and he sighed and let himself fall
to sleep remembering moments of bliss shared between two
people.
Kurogane was also remembering intimate times, and not so
intimate times; he knew that there were times that Fai put Kurogane's
honour on the line which he couldn't stand, nor could he stand the
constant mind games. He did care about Fai, not that he'd ever say
it but he was starting to realise the way he was treating the mage
wasn't working, he'd have to modify his plans on how to treat
people… otherwise Fai would leave him, he knew that much at least.
You couldn't contain Fai if he didn't want you too.
Their fight had soon petered out they had found the feather and moved on to the next world, both of them still being stubborn about the other but to reluctant to really do anything more than yell at each other then make up again.
Two
worlds after that lead to a fresh argument with harsher words all of
them from Fai. Kurogane's domineering nature was getting to him,
reminding him of the King he ran from.
"You keep acting like
you own me! Always bossing me around, I'm not some animal that
needs to be controlled!" Kurogane sat there saying nothing his face
impassive which only fuelled the thin man further.
"You keep
claiming how you don't like me, you hate being around me, that you
never want me back!" Fai faltered for a second at his own words; he
ran his fingers through his hair as if at a loss "well that part
might be a fact… but Kuro-sama you need to think about what is
going on here" Kurogane's face continued to be impassive till
took a large hand and covered his eyes to rub at them, he ran the
hand down his face and held his chin.
"You aren't innocent in
all this either" Kurogane's voice rumbled trying hard not to lose
his fragile temper, Fai's face darkened for a moment then he looked
away slightly.
"And. What may I ask is that supposed to mean?"
venom dripped from his words
"Exactly what it sounds like. You
wear your smiles like a mask, I never know what you're doing, and I
know that the waves are more predictable than you are" Kurogane's
temper was slowly tearing "Ever time I think I've actually found
you behind all of your god damned walls I find out that there is yet
another friggen wall! I want you
with me Fai" Kurogane slammed his hands on the table Fai tensed
slightly.
"Well maybe I don't want you finding your way past
my walls." Fai was fighting back tears he was so angry, his voice
was as loud as he could currently make it "Maybe I don't want to
be with you, maybe I want you gone!" Kurogane stood up suddenly,
Fai took a step back, the look on the face before him was quite
readable, Fai just realised he had gone too far.
"Well maybe…
I'm sick of holding on Fai" His eyes were shadowed over and he
left the house with out another word. On the other side of the door
were Sayoran, Sakura and Makona. They had heard the argument on their
way to the door after they had gone out shopping for dinner, none of
them had dared to enter the house till the fight ended. Sakura and
Makona jumped as Kurogane gently closed the door with him on the
other side of it, Sayoran was about to say something to Kurogane but
stopped, he glanced at them all and walked off breathing a pained
sigh. The three watched him till he was out of sight the looked on
his face worried them, but if he was like that, then Fai…
They
entered the house quietly; they heard the scuffing of feet and the
banging about with pans, Sakura was the first to enter the kitchen
followed closely by Sayoran and Makona.
"U-Um…Fai-san?" She
asked timidly, He turned around and beamed at her.
"Yes
Sakura-chan?" The corners of his eyes were damp and pink.
"Is…Is
everything okay? You and Kurogane-san seemed awfully angry at each
other"
"No, no, no! Kuro-puppy and I were just teasing each
other" he paused for a fraction of a moment "Oh! You brought the
groceries! Fantastic now I can start cooking, right you three scoot
and get cleaned up I'll have dinner ready in an hour" he smiled
reassuringly at them and ushered them out of the kitchen closing the
door behind them. He turned and lent on the door hugging him self to
guard against the cold that wasn't real.
"You… Fool" He
slid down the door crying in silence.
