Disclaimer- I do not own anything. Warriors is Erin Hunter's not mine.
This is from Sandstorm's point of view.
Questions
I never really knew Spottedleaf. I mean she was the medicine cat. I knew who she was and occasionally talked to her, but we won't that close.
I wonder what she thinks. If she's mad at me for being Firestar's mate. For some reason I don't think so. Still sometimes, I wonder. I wonder what it will be like when we're in Starclan. I wonder how mine and Firestar's relationship will be. Will we drift apart are grow stronger together? I wonder what Spottedleaf will say to me.
I wonder what will happen between Spottedleaf and Firestar when we're in Starclan. Sometimes I wonder what Firestar feels. I wonder about what he thinks about Spottedleaf and me. I wonder what would have happened if she hadn't died. Would she be sleeping in the leader's den with Firestar now instead of me?Would she have left her medicine cat position?What would have happened to me then? Who would I be with? If she would have survived would I sill be in love with him?
Sometimes I wish I could dream with Starclan like a medicine cat so I could talk to Spottedleaf. Would she be happy for us? Would she be mad? Will she be bitter and say that Firstar still loves her not me? I don't think she would be bitter. She didn't seem like that kinda of cat. Though I wonder if she thinks about it to. If she has the same questions about what would have happened betwen her and Firestar if she would have survived.
I love Firestar. I always will. Still I wonder what will happen and what could have happened. I want to be with him in Starclan. I don't mean to be selfish but I think Firestar and I were meant to be. I think Starclan wants us to be together.
I hope Spottedleaf isn't mad or upset or anything. I wish she could give us her blessing.