In a made up World : Fuck this Reality
Warnings: Mucho angst to follow and EdVy, bad language, bad English skillz
Note: Al has his body back, no automail, no Winry and the story is written by me, Shion
Inspiration: Linkin Park – Breaking the habit and a weird dream...(I dreamt almost the WHOLE chapter)
If you want someone to check any german sentences, ask me and I'll help you (I'm living in Germany so YAY!! +cough+ sorry I'm coffee-high right now)
Disclaimer: Dun own the shit but I do own the dream-story-FF-whatever-thingy
Chapter 1: About pointlessness and confused Chibis
Ed and Al were sent to some random lab for a mission. All they had to do was checking the building for anything weird, because some people reported screams, sounding suspiciously similar to someone being tortured. "Probably just some chimeras... but we need to know for sure, so go and see if you can find anything" were the instructions they had gotten from Roy earlier that day.
'That bastard!', Ed thought. He was in the building, while Al was outside to call for help, if things would run out of control. 'Like we'd need help! We never needed any kinds of reinforcements. And we never will...'
Inside, it kinda reminded him of Lab 5. The walls were pitch black, the floor dark gray, but not so dark to call it black. There were no windows and the dull red light, which shone gloomy from the ceiling, didn't really help to see either. He walked down the empty hallways, but didn't see anything.
He continued walking until he reached a staircase and went downstairs. Ed found himself in a passage, from which he could see into the room on it's end. The room was separated by something like a small canal of water, which was flowing through the room, like a river, dividing it in the middle. There was also a change of the light's color noticeable; no longer red but dull white.
The alchemist turned around so he was facing a wall and punched it, while screaming "That's stupid! Here is absolutely nothing!"
"I don't think so." a voice behind Edo said. His eyes widened in horror. Turning around he faced the person he hoped not to meet.
"Oh, no.." he muttered. Envy wrapped a hand around the others throat and pushed him backwards into the wall. As he leaned forward he whispered "Oi, chibi-san, long time no seen." into the blonde's left ear. A crazy, sadistic grin appeared, on the sins features and vanished as fast as it came, leaving his face emotionless.
The alchemist didn't see any sense at the homunculus' sudden and unusual actions. 'What the heck is he doing?'
"That's pointless!" he let go of Ed's throat.
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I don't want to be the one
The battles always choose
Cuz inside I realize
That I'm the one confused
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"W-What?" asked the confused blond, stunned by the sins sudden outburst.
"You heard me! Killing you is pointless! Killing itself is pointless! There's no reason for me to do that! Nobody will ever appreciate what I've been doing!No one care about my existence!...It's a pity a can't commit suicide. I just keep coming back to life. That's a fate a have to face..."
He sat down on opposite wall, hugging his legs and burying his head in his knees.
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I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or what I have to scream
I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean
I don't know how I got this way
I know it's not alright
So I'm breaking the habit...
I'm breaking the habit tonight
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"Why would you want to commit suicide?"
"Because I have nothing worth living for." Ed had never seen a such desperate person, willing to kill theirself without hesitation. It kinda reminded him of himself.
"There has to be something." Envy looked up.
"Like what?? You know nothing..Do you think you'd be able to help me? Why would you want to do that? We're enemies. That's ridiculous. Do you want your self killed? Risking your life for a monster like me..." his voice trailed off as he stared into empty space.
"You're not a monster! Even though, you're not human, you're very human like."
"Why do you even care?"
Good question. Why did he stay and tried to help his worst enemy? Was he insane? Or was it just plain pity? He just couldn't watch the homunculus acting so un- Envy-ish.
"I don't know. I just don't want you to throw your life away like an empty milk bag." mentally, he slapped himself for the milk-bag-comment-thing. ‚Eww..milk..'
He sat down next to Envy.
"Why did you come in here in the first place?" the sin asked changing the topic.
"Some people said they heard weird screams.."
"Just some caged chimeras.." 'HA! I knew it! Stupid Colonel..'
"Well that should satisfy that bastard Mustang.."
"You know what? Thanks for hearing me out. That really helped." Envy pulled Ed into a hug. The shrimp blinked in confusion and before he knew what exactly he was doing, hugged back.
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I'll paint it on the walls
Cuz I'm the one at fault
I'll never fight again
And this is how it ends
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Was that some kind of sick joke? Was that a trap the alchemist stepped into? Did he really mean those things he said? The whole situation was just plain weird...
After a few moments of reminding silence Ed finally said something:
" What now? Are we friends or something?"
"If you want to ...Sure!" Edward was stunned by his companions sudden mood swings.
"Uhh...Ok. So you won't kill me?"
"Nope. But I'll call you chibi."
"I can deal with that..."
" But what if the military finds out?"
"Screw the military! I don't give a fuck!"
...Silence...
"Do you plan on staying like this forever?"
"..Umm...NO!" Ed blushed. Of course he knew he'd had to pull away...sometime...But actually he didn't want to. He felt comfortable this way. Even though if he wouldn't admit it, he enjoyed it. It was exactly what he'd needed. He felt lonely, empty. The routine was killing him. It was wake up, eat something, meet Mustang, endure insults about his height, shout like hell, get a mission, travail to Even-god-doesn't-know-where, accomplish the mission and head back to do the same the next day again.
But enough is enough, so he finally pulled away.
"I'd never thought I would hug you or see you as some kind of friend. Sorry, but I've gotta go now."said the sin and stood up.
"Wait!" Ed shot up as well.
"Don't worry, we'll meet again."
"How will I'm be able to find you?"
"You'll know. Bye, Chibi!" He disappeared into the dark.
"Wow...that was kinda relieving...and very weird..."
Somehow, the alchemist managed to walk out of the building, whilst thinking about the past few hours. Then it hit him :' AL!Should I tell him? Most likely...NO. He would just freak out and worry to death..'
"Did you find anything, Brother?" Al asked Ed, who was totally oblivious to his surroundings.
"Huh?" was the only response Al received.
"I said: Did you find anything?"
"..Umm...No...just some caged chimeras. That's all.."
"I think we should get going now..." Al looked suspiciously at his Brother.
"Yeah. Let's go ,Al."
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So I'm breaking the habit...
I'm breaking the habit...
I'm breaking the habit...tonight
Song is Breaking the habit