Past

Chapter One

Bella's POV

Why was I feeling so much pain? Why couldn't it stop? What had I ever done to deserve this? These questions were running through my mind as I felt a burning within myself. I didn't know what to do but I wanted it to end. I didn't know how to stop it though. I just wanted someone to stop the fire that I was feeling so that I could finally die peacefully.

I wondered why this was happening to me. I don't ever remember been mean to anyone, not my parents, grandparents, strangers, or friends. Sure there was that one time where I wanted the girl that went to my school to fall off her chair, of course that didn't happen, but I was just so lucky that I tripped in front of her. She laughed her ass off and the other kids at school too.

I only remember being nasty to her and I had a really good reason. Okay maybe my reason wasn't so... how could I put this...reasonable...I guess, I mean she did steal my cookie my first day of first grade. I was so mad but then I just ignored her and never thought anything bad about her because it all just backfired. Was this maybe the reason why I was feeling this because no one has to have a bad thought about someone no matter what the person has done?

Could god possibly hate me this much, to make me go through such pain? Was there something that he wanted me to do that I didn't? Was it because of that? I always followed my parent's orders and never complained. I had good grades in school I was even nice to people. I always helped those in need by donating old clothes to them or food.

Why did I deserve this, why? I wanted to scream my lungs out even though I knew it wasn't going to get rid of the pain. I felt that even if I did try to scream I couldn't because it was as if my lips were sealed together. I was also afraid that if I screamed it would just hurt more.

I don't know if any time had gone by but god I sure hope it had. I wanted to know how much more time I would have so that I could finally stop feeling this fire. I wondered if anybody had noticed the fire already. I'm sure that if they had they would've already put it out, right? Or did someone really hate me this much that they wouldn't even let me die in peace?

Why couldn't someone just throw a bucket of ice cold water on me? Just to see if the fire would go away for a few minutes. I heard myself groan as I felt another wave of fire.

"Don't worry, it's almost over." Someone whispered oh so gently in my ear. Over the whole burning I could feel something cold against my cheek. It was like relief from the fiery pits of hell I was going through. I heard some light footsteps and then someone slamming the door.

"What the hell is your problem?! I thought we had agreed that you wouldn't do this!" Someone else yelled. I could easily assume this was a girl from her tone of voice.

"Calm down sweetheart." This voice was different from the other two that I had just heard.

"How do you expect me to calm down when this idiot did this? She didn't deserve it no matter how much in love he was with her." The girl said as she tried to lower her voice. I didn't get what she was talking about but I could kind of sense that she was referring to me. I whimpered softly as I felt more fire spreading through my whole body.

"How much longer Nathan?"

"One more hour before the change is complete." I heard someone sigh frustrated and then some footsteps growing fainter.

I wished time could go by faster but it seemed that the faster I wanted time to go the slower it went. I started to count in my head trying to see if I could get my mind off the burning. Counting helped me a little but not enough to put the pain at the back of my head.

I felt my heart rate and breathing increase all at once. There was tingling all over my body as the heat intensified inside me. It was getting worse and worse but then suddenly it all stopped. My breathing, my heart, the tingling… it all just banished. I kept my eyes closed as I took it all in. I was finally able to escape from the burning inside me. I felt someone stroking my cheek lovingly.

"Open your eyes love." Someone said as I felt lips against mine. I took a deep breath and opened my eyes to a beautiful face. He had black hair and sharp features but what caught my attention the most was his eyes. They were crimson red. I gasped and then in a matter of seconds I was against a wall in a crouch waiting to attack as soon as he made a move towards me.

"Who are you?" I asked as I noticed the other two figures by him. As soon as the words left my mouth I stood up and put a hand to my mouth. That voice was not mine, it just couldn't be. The shock quickly wore off and I tried to remember how the hell I had gotten here. I tried to come up with pictures in my mind but it was like the pictures were disappearing. I tried to hold them there but it was as if something or someone was going inside my head and trying to stop me.

I felt like something was pulling in my mind trying to block my memories out. I tried hard to keep a hold on the memories but they soon banished. I didn't know anything; I didn't know why I was standing in the room with three other people that I didn't know. I didn't even know why I had a hand up to my mouth. I knew I had been trying to figure something out though.

"Isabella, love, are you okay?" I looked up to a face that I had never seen before. The guy was muscular yet lean, with short black hair, sharp striking features and a beautiful face. I moved my eyes to a girl who was the most beautiful girl that I had ever seen, she was petite, had blonde short hair, and a perfect body. Then I looked towards the guy who had an arm around her. He was lean with brown short hair, and of a too well built.

"Who are you?" I asked.

"I'm Nathan, Isabella, your fiancée." The one with the black hair said and smiled at me. I was suddenly filled with images of us together hand in hand, kissing, hugging and having a fun time.

"Nathan?" I repeated. His smile became more pronounced as he stepped towards me. Unconsciously I stepped back and my back was met with the wall.

"Don't worry love, I promise I won't hurt you." He stepped closer to me and then when he was close enough he grabbed my face and crushed our lips together. I was filled with so much love and passion that I couldn't help but kiss him back.