I have never felt such a strong feeling, as we know call "Love".
I met him when I was in 8 grades. I know you might think "what a silly girl you were so young to feel in love with someone." Our friendship started in a biology class. Each of my classmates were new, because in the end of 7 grades we have to pass an exams, such as math if you want to relate your future with a math major or English to become an interpreter and so on. It was the second week of class, believe me or not, I have not noticed him in such a long time, even if I had a class with him every day.
He came to me and asked whether we have HW or not. He said his name and I did not try to memorize. Every day he was sitting behind me and asking a question, in the gym class he was always next to me. We use to go to a cinema or having ice-cream with our friends. But holding each other's hand and kissing was inappropriate; in addition we were too young to do that ;)
On my birthday I had a party with my friends and he wrote me on a card «You opened a new chapter in my life, from now I want to open a chapter of our love". I was in the 7 heaven to hear it. But I pretended that I do not care. Meanwhile he came to me and ask have I read the Birthday card or not, I said no because I was too shy to say Yes. Since my birthday we were always together, sitting together in each class. By the end of the 8 grade something went wrong I don't want to go to details. The 9th grade was the worst for me, being all the time with him in 1 class. We were arguing a lot to each other. Our classmates were surprising how they can be like that, comparing with the 8 grades. He always tried to humble me and so did i.
After the 9th grade I was going to Japan for 1 year as an exchange student. It was a lovely day; we went with my class to the Dostoevsky museum. By the end of the day I got a message from him "Hey I just wanted to let you know that I have been missing you all this time and forgive me for what I have done. I can be your friend and if you have any problems just let me know." I was embarrassed by this message.
I wrote him back that I missed him to, but being a friend it will be hard for me because I still loved him.
I don't know what he felt but he said I will wait for you. During my exchange program we were talking to each other every day, which was the sweatiest time for me. But after coming back, nothing happened, probably the time has passed. And we did not get well. That summer he started to date with a girl, and since today they have been together for 3 years. He is a very smart guy and has been admitted to the Moscow State University. I know that the whole world can read this. I just wanted to say that I have not been in love as strongly as I was with him. If you read this, I just want you to be happy with her! Do I still love you?-NO!