I sighed, resting my head against the wall. We were at a party, we being me and Dan, he had left me promising to come back and just now I saw him coming onto a girl. I sighed again. I knew I was gay, Dan knew I was gay, Dan wasn't gay, and it took me this long to realise that I wish he was. I wish he wanted me as much as I wanted him, not in a sexual way despite the shippers but in a love way, where you cuddle on the sofa until you fall asleep and share tiny kisses but never want to go any further to early. But Dan wasn't gay.
"Dan isn't gay." I said firmly to myself before standing up properly and heading through the crowds and onto the balcony.
It was a clear night and the sky was full of stars and a bright, full moon. I stared in awe for a while, until my thoughts eventually landed on Dan.
"Dan is not gay!" I reminded myself again.
"No, I'm not." I jumped at the sudden voice behind me. I turned and saw Dan, grinning, holding a half empty can of beer. He had brought his own with him and had been very protective over it, not letting anyone touch it. I found that weird but didn't question it.
"So, why are you telling yourself that I'm not gay?" His voice was slurred and his eyes were unfocused. I knew he wasn't going to remember this conversation in the morning so I figured why not tell him? If he won't remember this and it will help me get my feelings off my chest then go for it! So I took a deep breath and began.
"Dan, I love you. Ever since the day we met. I probably would have told you earlier but it took me so long to figure it out and I'm only telling you now because your drunk and won't remember this conversation in morning." I finish and look away, even in his drunken state, I don't want to see Dan's reaction to my sudden outburst of emotions. The response I get is quite different to what I was expecting.
He grabbed my shoulder, spun me around and kissed me, lightly but passionately, on the lips. And I kissed back for a second before realising what was happening and pulled away. As much as I wanted this, I didn't want it to be like this, when Dan wasn't in his right state of mind. He looked confused, he obviously thought he had done something wrong when in actual fact he had done everything right, it was just the wrong moment at the wrong time.
"You're drunk." I answered his inquisitive look before carrying on. "You shouldn't be doing this, you don't want me. You're straight, remember?!" I looked at him pleadingly, willing him to understand how I did want this but I didn't at the same time. But he just laughed, he literally threw his head back and laughed. It was my turn for the inquisitive look, staring at him as if he lost his mind.
"Phil!" He said, wiping his eyes while trying to hold back laughter. "I've never told you I'm straight! I've never once mentioned my sexuality! Don't just assume things!" It hit me then, he was bi! That was why he liked girls and why he kissed me. But he was still drunk. He still shouldn't have been doing this.
"You're drunk though! Just go back to the party, I want to be alone." I said to him, sighing and putting my head in my hands. Instead of leaving he pressed on.
"Have you not seen my video! You know, the one about the five kinds of drunk people?! I know how to act drunk because I've seen it happen right in front of my eyes! And believe or not, I actually paid attention in drama at school. No matter how hot the teacher was!" I looked at him before seeing a flaw in his almost completely believable story.
"You've drank like, 5 cans of beer so far! How can you not be drunk?!" Instead of replying he turned, grabbed his can and pushed it towards my mouth. I felt the fizzy liquid run down my throat when I realised beer isn't fizzy! I tasted it a bit more and realised it's fizzy apple juice! Dan had been drinking fizzy apple juice the entire night! No wonder he didn't let anyone touch his stash! It wasn't beer at all! But that meant…
"Wait… Does that mean-" I couldn't finish, Dan understood and winked at me before standing up and walking towards the party. But he turned back quickly.
"Oh and Phil." I looked up from where I was sitting, smiling my head of and blushing like there was no tomorrow.
"Yeah Dan?"
"You've told me you loved me before, at other parties when you were drunk." Shit! Even drunk me knew more about my feelings than sober me did! "Oh and for the record…" He continued. "I was never drunk at any of those parties either." He grinned at me triumphantly and deliberately strutted out, trying to make himself look sexy. Funny that he already was.

Haha! Oh god this is terrible! It's a one shot and unless I get enough prompts telling me to carry it on, I probably won't… I've got two more stories that I'm currently writing (They're both inspired by Tumblr. One of them I have the writers permission to steal her story and I have the link to that story in the author's notes bit and the other one is inspired by a post about a timer on your wrist counting down the days until you meet your soul mate, still going to be a Phan ship but a little different) I will be updating my other story soon, it's just taking a little longer than I thought
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