Title :: Suicide Note

Genre :: Angst, Romance

Rating :: M or T

Pairings :: Gaara x Sakura, and a little Sasuke x Sakura

Warning :: character death, suicide

Summary :: "Gaara…I need to tell you something…something, very important," she sighed. "Yes? Sakura?" Gaara started running. "I love you, Sabaku No Gaara."

Authors note :: my best friend just killed himself…he was my best friend…and I was in love with him…im sorry Jamie…*cries*…im so sorry…

Pictures flashed through her head, all of old memories of her and her friends.

Her and Ino making a mess while baking a cake when they were twelve. Her and Shino catching fire flies when they were young. Finding Akamaru and giving him to Kiba as a gift for his birthday. Helping Itachi, Sasori, Deidara, Kisame, Hidan, Pein, and Konan with a celebration for the winning of their school in football. Helping Choji with grocery shopping. Making poison daggers for Haku. Giving Kakashi a porn book for his birthday. Helping Sasuke, Karin, Suigetsu, and Juugo with homework. Her, Hinata, and Temari trying on dresses for Homecoming. Her and Neji spying on Naruto and Hinata on their first date. Her drawing a picture of Kakashi for Anko. Helping Shikamaru land a date with Temari. Helping Lee find his soul mate, Rin. Helping Kurenia make Asuma notice her. Helping Shizune with her science test in college. Tenten and her looking for vampire fangs to scare Neji and Naruto with. Helping Tsunade with her drinking problem. Buying Kabuto Pokémon cards for his collection. Helping Naruto get a date with Hinata. Helping Kankuro with his training in martial arts to beat his sensei.

And helping her best friend, Gaara, get over the loss of his mother and father.

He was so strong, she noticed, when he lost his parents. Even though he grew distant…he still had hope. Sakura on the other hand, couldn't take the pain any longer. Then, she started writing.

"Dear World;

I'm sorry.
Sorry; for not living up to the social acceptance weight.
Sorry; for not being thin.
Sorry; for not being pretty."

She stopped for a moment and looked at the picture of her and Sasuke, on her desk. He is such an ass, she sighed, he makes me sick.

"Dear Love;

I'm sorry for; at times; not believing in you.
And, ironically enough; hating you.
But all in all you've proved yourself to be a worthless piece of shit,
that no one takes seriously, anymore."

Sakura's lips curved into a small smile, then a frown. How she hated Sasuke for everything he did to her. He taught her how to show no emotion, how to show no care for anyone…how not learn to hate.

"Dear Hate;

You were my only hope for survival.
You've taken me under your wing;
and shown me a place;
that looks quite promising.
But I do not want to par-take;
In that lifestyle."

And, oh, how she hated the lifestyle that she was living now, away from her friends…her family. A tear dropped as she looked at the gun on her bed.

"Dear Gun;

Take to my head;
your barrel of steel,
and break my sorrow."

Sakura got up, taking the note with her, and a picture, folding the note in two, with the picture inside, and placing it on her pillow. She looked down at the gun and picked it up, and made sure it was loaded, with only one bullet. She brought the gun up to her head, about to pull the trigger, when her cell phone rang. More tears escaped as she saw who it was.

Gaara.

She collected herself, wiping the tears away, and picking up the phone.

"He-Hello?" her voice cracked. "Hey Sakura. I was curious if you had the homework that Tsunade gave us?" Sakura sighed, "No, Gaara. I-I'm sorry." There was some noise on the other end of Sakura's phone. "Are you alright, Sakura?" Sakura cleared her throat and wiped some more tears away, "Ye-Yes. I'm fi-fine, Gaara." Gaara could tell that Sakura was lying, "I'm coming over to your dorm-"

"No! I-I mean, Gaara, it isn't needed." Sakura heard a door close on the other line. "Sakura, something is wrong…either you tell me, or I'm coming over there." Sakura walked over to her door and locked it, "Gaara…I need to tell you something…something, very important," she sighed. "Yes? Sakura?" Gaara started running.

"I love you, Sabaku No Gaara." He heard a gunshot and the line went dead.