*** a dream so real ***

i was running behind my sister yuki and her demon lover Luka

i could hear them a distance behind us, the Duras howling for our blood.

i heard my sister cry out. i quickly caught up to them " What happened yuki?" i asked frantically as i looked her over. " i think i tripped over something and hurt my ankle" she said in a pained voice as she slowly drew her injured leg to her. we froze as we heard another howl drawing closer ,i wrapped my arms around my stomach. i looked at my sister and then at Lukas as i stood " Luka you promised me that you wouldn't betray her and that you would protect her " i said looking into his silver eyes before turning my back on them " i am holding you to that promise " don't let her come after me"

i held back tears as my sister spoke " Sakura what are you doing?" she said i could tell that she was holding back tears." i am doing what i am supposed to do Yu-chan" i said as tears slid down my face " i am going to protect you from him no matter what the cost it" i walked a few paces a head " even if that cost is my life and the life of my child. i must do what my destiny leads me to ".

" NO! You can't!" she cried out in a child like voice " you and your baby can''t die for me! Luka PLEASE Stop her, she is pregnant!" i balled my fist holding back tears luka knelt by her " i am sorry my love i wish i could but i cannot , i made her a promise " he said in a gentle voice that he used only for her.

i herd my sister burst into tears " yu don't worry about us right now" i said as i threw off my cloak "you live for us now. i love you dear sister " and with that i took off ad let my hair fly out behind me in the wind. The howling grew closer; the leader of the pack saw me and changed his course upon seeing his pray running , his pack following him as he raced towards me. Reiga following close behind

i slowed my running deliberately. looking back, "Yes! it's working He's following me instead!" i thought as my heart raced ,i heard their howling it was directly behind me now

SAKURA!" i heard my sister scream, tears stung my eyes as i thought about how i would never see her face or Takashiros ever again and that my baby would never get a chance to live.

i stopped and i knew it was all over for me "goodbye " i thought as they pounced on me carefully holding me down. "You should have chosen ME Yuki not that Thing, i could have given you everything!" His voice whispered in my ear "i... Could…. Never love a MONSTER like You Reiga " i said screaming, i felt the teeth rip into me and felt some satisfaction that Reiga had not yet realized that i was not Yuki. And i thanked Kami that i was her twin as i felt the darkness surround me

***End Flashback**

i screamed as i shot up in bed and gasped for breath. Footsteps pounded in the hall stopping right outside my door, it flew open as my friend Toru ran in 'Jen!" he yelled running over to my bed and pulled me into his arms as tears cascaded down my face. "Shh" he murmured softly "did u have another nightmare?" he asked gently. i nodded as i leaned into his embrace crying, He kissed my forehead gently and whispered in my ear "its ok, it's over now, it was just a dream, go back to sleep "

When i woke up and went downstairs there was a note from toru on the kitchen counter

"jen

I'm sorry that i am not here when u wake up

i had to leave and be back in bed before my parents woke up; i hope slept peacefully last night

P.s here is your birthday present.

i gasped right under the note was a season pass to the beach just outside of town i smiled "typical Toru" i thought as i got up and showered. i called dad after i changed and explained the beach pass and asked if i could go. He said it was fine as long as i went by myself. i rolled my eyes as i hung up and packed a beach bag and walked outside.

i found Toru in front of my house waiting for me with his car .he took my bag and loaded it into the trunk of his car i giggled "U are full of surprises" i said, he smiled. "i am aren't i?" He said with a goofy grin on his face "We better get going if we want to get there before noon, "i said as i got into the car "ur right" toru said." otherwise we will have to deal with traffic" i laughed the one thing Toru hated was getting stuck in traffic

For the next hour we drove in silence till we got to the bath house and i met him on his side of the car and we hugged again."i'm gona miss hugging u," Toru said as i laughed, "Toru i'm only gona be gone for the day," i said smiling at him "Ok i'll see u later on tonight" he said giving me another hug, i waved until i could not see his car anymore. i walked onto the beach showing the lifeguard my summer pass

i saw a man in black swim trunks and froze it was the guy from my dreams! Though he looked hot in a bathing suit, "what was him name again " i thought as i began to walk towards him. The man that looked so familiar, as i reached him

He looked at me his silver eyes narrowing as i grew closer. i saw Yuki Giou who was in the same year and in the same class as me. "Luka is something wrong?" he asked when he reached us he looked at Luka and then noticed me "hay Jennifer how's summer going?" he asked in a kind voice " it's going great Yuki i was gonna ask your friend Luka something" i sad with a small smile "he just reminded me of someone i knew it's no biggie" i faked a it's unimportant look

"She's OK she made it" a voice from my dream said sounding relieved. "Who said that?" i asked looking around." Who said what Jennifer?'' Yuki asked with a confused look on his face, "Well this may sound weird but when i saw u… a voice in my head said "she is OK she made it" i told him "but you're a…" i trailed off " a boy?" he said laughing." ya and when i saw u just then i felt as if we were siblings or something ,but it's just a crazy thought " i said dismissing the words with a wave of my hand . He looked at me and then at Luka.

"Jen!" i a familiar voice yelled. i whirled around "Toko" i shouted gleefully as i ran and hugged my best friend . "Hay, where have u been? U haven't been in school for the past 2 weeks!" i said letting worry slip into my voice "Everything's OK i just had some family issues to take care of "she said smiling at me reassuringly "did something happen to Tskumo?" i asked in a i can't believe he did it again brother was Always defending people from bully' smiled at me "Tskumo is fine Jen, our uncle was sick" she said with small smile

"Oh. How is your uncle doing now?" i asked, "He's fine just a summer cold " she replied, "So what are you doing at the beach?i thought you couldn't go any were because your dad wasn't home," she asked curious. "Toru got me a pass for my birthday .and i called dad this morning to ask if i could go and he said i could as long as no boys came with." She sighed, she knew how weird my dad was "figures, do you want to join us?" she asked motioning to the group behind her "sounds like fun" i said smiling as we walked to the changing area when i paused "um Luka" i said a little nervous "Does the name Sakura mean anything to you?.'

His eyes narrowed again "where did u hear that name? how do you know my name?' he asked , i quickly looked away and hurried into the girls changing area. Then we all met under a huge beach umbrella. and Toko introduced me to her family " Jen these are my cousins senshiro, Kotarou,Hotsuma, Shuesei, Luka and you know Tskumo and Yuki from school" she said gesturing to each person in turn

i said hello and sighed. and looked at Luka, who was quietly watching me "Luka you asked me how i knew your name and the name Sakura . it is because i keep having these dreams, but there more like memories. all of them involving a girl named Sakura and woman named Yuki and you," i said . Luka and the others looked at me in surprise "and what happens in these dreams " Luka asked as if he already knew the story i was going to tell. i described everything i remembered about the different dreams . Luka's eyes narrowed as i told the dream.

a thought dawned on me "Yuki!" i said " you look like her! the woman in my dreams, but why do you look like her and why does Luka Look EXACTLY like the man in my dreams? " Luka looked at me " there is only one possibility that i know of" he said " it may sound weird but it explains why these dreams are so realistic" everyone looked at him "Luka have you had the same dreams as Jennifer?" yuki asked , Luka turned his head and looked at yuki " no. something entirely different" he said in a soft voice " the dreams are not dreams at all, they are Memories and i Lived those memories yuki". toko and the others gasped, he looked down " in your past life Sakura was your younger sister . She was your twin; identical to you except that her hair was a tinge darker " everyone remained silent waiting for him to continue so that they could hear more.

He looked up at me " She died saving Yuki " he paused "yuki had tripped over something in the field behind the palace we had come form, Raiga and a hoard of low level Duras were after us and they were closing in. i had knelt by her to help her up when sakura caught up and looked her over ,she then reminded me of a promise i had made to her and took her hood off" he looked up at me sadly "she let the Duras catch her " i said in realization "She knew that Yuki's soul would be reborn in the future" . toko suggested that we change and then meet back up at the car that they drove,we changed back into our normal cloths and meet back up at the big SUV that they rode in.

i looked at yuki sadly "Yuki if i am Sakura's reincarnation and that seems likely, then that means we're siblings this time around to, and you have to admit it makes sense, we Do look identical." i said slowly as i walked over to him, i noticed that he was crying and decided to gave him a hug "please stop crying Yuki." i said softly as i pulled back to look at him. "Why would she risk her life for me" he said softly , At that moment, it felt like my heart was being torn to pieces. i pulled him into a hug again "she died because she wanted you to live and have a chance at a happy and normal life. More importantly she loved you' i said gently "and i know i would do the same thing " i said smiling at him "Big bro"

He looked at me with a mixture of emotions in his eyes. "Big Bro?" he said, "well' i said "i can't exactly call you big sis can i?" laughing he smiled at me. i paused as i studied his features they were familiar "dad" i whispered softly now i knew for sure Yuki was my brother the one my father claimed died at the age of 2 .

"um yuki " i said hesitantly " i have an older brother . My dad said he died when he was 2 years old but now seeing you, i do not believe him. i never really did since i saw you when we started grade school and u seemed familiar i just didn't realize it till i saw u smile earlier it looked like his but mostly you look like your mom " i said tears coming to my eyes as i mentioned his mom.

He gasped, "no one ever told me i had a sibling' he said shock in his voice "i was found abandoned in a bush near the orphanage with my name on the blanket, But now that i think about it we do look similar. Almost identical actually save for the fact Ur a girl" he said a teasing grin. "Well no one ever knew about me because i was adopted by a different mom. She died in august."i said as i explained what my mother had told me about how i was adopted and about me being her best friend sakuras daughter and that my twin brother had not died at the age of 2

"i don't expect you to accept me as your sister right away" i said seeing him smile and then look at me and Luka "Why wouldn't i accept you as my twin sister?" he said as i stared at him in shock "He said he accepts me!" i shouted in my head as a smile plastered itself on my face "Big Bro!' i said Aloud as i hugged him. i saw Luka smile softly at the scene unfolding before him.

"Everyone is there a party happening without me knowing?". We broke the hug as we heard a voice call out. We all turned 'Takashiro!" the voice in my head said fondly as i stared at the man walking towards us "God he is gorgeous!" i thought "idiot he is way older than you " i mentally smacked myself

"Who is this Yuki?" the man asked giving me a smile. "Takashiro-San. This is Jennifer, i recently found out she is my twin sister "Yuki said. Takashiro looked at Yuki then back at me "is she... ?'' he said in a soft voice looking at Luka . he nodded in reply "dear god" he whispered as a tear fell down his face. i walked over to him and wiped it away with my thumb resting my palm against his face,everyone watched quietly to see what would happen. He closed his eyes as i smiled at him as another memory came to me

*** return of a memory ***

"i'll be fine love." i said reassuringly "i have to go with them it's the only way the baby will be safe " he looked at me " i wish there was another way, i don't want to lose you " he said sadly cupping my face in his hands. A sound of anguish escaped his lips " the baby is not even ready, and yet you still must go with them?" he said looking at me pain evident in his amber eyes at the idea of losing his wife and unborn child .i nodded as tears filled my eyes as he crushed me to him and wept freely into my hair. i wrapped my arms around his waist and buried my face into his chest

*** End of memory ***

i stared into his eyes as a tear ran down the side of my face. i covered my mouth in horror and realization "she was your wife," i said as tears began to pour down the side of my face. i turned slightly to Luka "Why didn't you tell me about this, when you were explaining things " i said my voice shaking "Takashiro didn't want Reiga to know about the child. Because he feared that he would try to harm both her and the baby if he knew " he said in a solemn voice."Reiga and takashiro both courted Sakura, she fell in love with takashiro and Reiga was jealous thought he hid it well"

At that moment i felt her soul meld with mine and all of her past emotions mixed with mine "I'm so sorry. i did not know that "i said crying "i did not know any…" the word was cut off as i held back a sob. He put a hand on my shoulder as he wiped away my tears with a gentle hand "it's alright "he said "the past is over and done you like us to give you a ride home" he smiled softly as i nodded.

We loaded our things into the trunk of the car after about half an hour we saw a wreck, my heart stopped as i recognized Toru's car in the wreckage. "Stop The Car!" i screamed and as soon as the car stopped i launched myself out the door and towards the wreck. A firefighter stopped me "miss you can't go over there" he said "that's my Best friend!" i screamed, ducking past him and running over to the wreck .i froze when i saw them begin to zip up a body bag. i ran over and screamed when i saw whose body it was. i stared in disbelief. it was Toru.

i screamed as i collapsed to my knees sobbing "No! No, he can't be…he can't be dead." i cried as i felt strong arms pull me to my feet. i looked up through bleary eyes it was Takashiro. he started to pull me away ,stopping when i began to fight "No! No! i can't leave him! He needs me!' i shouted.

Takashiro pulled me into a hug." He is gone Jennifer i'm sorry "he said sadly as i began to pound on his chest as hard as i could "Your Lying! Toru would never leave me! He promised me!" i screamed at him. "He Promised Me" i said in a softer tone as i collapsed against his chest crying after a few minutes i fainted. i felt him pick me up cradling me in his arms as he carried me to the car. When i woke up, i was in a unfamiliar bed "where am i?" i said sitting up and looking around.

"You're at the Giou clan's twilight mansion "said a voice i recognized. Takashiro. He was sitting in the chair that was on the left side of the bed. "What happened l…" i cut off the words as it came flooding back to me "it's true isn't it" i said, "Toru is really gone" i chocked back tears. Takashiro came over and sat beside me on the bed and put his arms around me "I'm afraid so" he said as i leaned into him and began to cry. He murmured softly to me, assuring me that everything was going to be fine. i did not know why but his words comforted me greatly "i have to go see Toru's mom," i said getting out of the bed.

"She's downstairs in the lobby. We called her last night while you were asleep, she arrived a few minutes ago" he said gently. i ran from the room and flew down the stairs in a loaned nightgown. i froze when i saw her stand up and move over to the carpet in front of the stairs "Misato!" i cried running over to her "i'm so sorry Misato" i said crying.

She hugged me tightly as we stood there crying into each others shoulders. We stood there for a while then she told me that his funereal was in week and that after-wards they were having a reception in the churches reception hall. She asked me if i would sing a few songs, i quickly agreed and said that i would be glad to. She hugged me tightly one last time and left. i turned and went upstairs to the room i woke up in. i saw takashiro staring out the window "takashiro" i whispered softly and walked towards him until i stood beside him staring out the window

" thank you for letting me stay here" i said softly and smiled as he turned to face me " you can stay here as long as you like" he said " you're a giou after all" he smiled at me .My heart swelled at those words, he patted me on the back. "Ouch!' i said wincing, he patted my bruised shoulder "idiot" i mentally slapped myself i didn't want anyone to know what my father had done last time he was home.

"what's wrong Jennifer?" he asked concerned "it's nothing just a small bruise" i said laughing hoping to through him off. He gently pressed that area again and then another area on my lower back "Ow!" i said wincing again. Before i could protest, Takashiro quickly moved the sleeves of my nightgown down to my elbows. i heard him gasp at what he saw "Jennifer this is not just one small bruise' he said angrily. in truth, it was a small bruise but it was not the only one. Many of them covered my whole back; it was evidence of the abuse i endured when my dad was home.

"it's fine Takashiro, it's nothing," i said lying. "Jennifer Who did this to you?' he asked his voice was stern, yet he was looking at me with pleading eyes. "Please don't make me tell you he'll hurt you if he knew that you or anyone else had found out" i said softly "He who" takashiro prodded gently "please don't make me tell you" i begged again "Jennifer tell me who did this to you" he pleaded again "My dad" i whispered as i turned and looked into takashiros eyes. Anger blazed in his eyes "Your Father did this to you?" he asked his voice coated with anger.

i nodded slightly and winced waiting for him to yell at me. instead of the yelling that i had expected he pulled me into a hug, holding me tightly against his chest " i'll make sure he gets tried for this" he said rasing my chin so that our eyes meet "don't worry about it anymore, your safe here."

i didn't want to do anything but stand there and stay wrapped safely in his strong arms. "takashiro" i murmured as i buried my face into his chest. The feeling of being wrapped in his arms surrounded with his warmth was pure bliss to me and then i started to cry. Why were these feelings of love welling up inside me? Why did i feel this way about a man i barely knew .i hugged him tighter, as if i could not stand the thought of being taken away from him.

"Why does this feel so familiar " i whispered as i looked up into his eyes. He bent his head slowly and lowered it towards mine. "i think you know why" he whispered , My breath caught in my throat as i thought about it, he pulled back looking at me and slowly leaned forward, he hesitated his face just inches from mine. His seemed to question me "is this alright?' he said softly

i answered his question by closing the short distance between us by pressing my lips to his. He smiled against my lips and deepened the kiss. i felt desire build up inside me as i wound my hands into his hair. i gave a low moan as much as i was enjoying this, i did not want this to end.

After a few minutes we broke the kiss, my breath coming in short gasps. "We can't," i said breathlessly " i can't not so soon after…" takashiro nodded and hugged me tightly to him "i'll wait as long as you want " he whispered into my ear. i shivered at the words and stood there a bit longer,and then pulled away from him 'Takashiro there's something else you need to see," i said turning my back to him.

i dropped the nightgown to my waist, and exposed my back and the rest of the bruises band the belt marks that ran across my back. He gasped upon seeing the slightly angry welts that was on my back "dear god" he breathed as he gently placed a hand on my bare skin and lightly ran his hand over the mark. i shuddered at the warmth of his hand. He wrapped his arms around me his hands covered mine "he won't ever hurt you again" he whispered into my ear placing a kiss on my bare shoulder and then he left the room as i put the nightgown back on.

He came back in with yuki. i turned "takashiro…" i trailed off when i saw yuki come in. "Jennifer" Takashiro said coming over to me "show Yuki what you showed me." i held back tears as i turned around and dropped the nightgown to my waist covering my front. i heard Yuki gasp as he placed his hand gently on my back i pulled away. Takashiro gently put his hands on my shoulders gently rubbing them.

"Your safe here Jennifer "he said gently "please let Yuki help you" he pleaded softly. i shook my head "No' my voice shook "won't you need to show evidence when you take my dad to trial" i said, turning to Takashiro and watched as yuki left the room "Where is Your father at Anyway?" Takashiro asked softly as wrapped his arms around me and tightened them.

"He's in England at the moment he is supposed to be back the day before Toru's funeral. i can guarantee he will find out about it and show up." i said as he came back over and wrapped his arms around me, "C'mon lets go get you some lunch " he said gently as he turned and waited for me to change, when i was finished he lead me downstairs.

When we got down stairs Toko-Chan ran over to me, i could tell she had been crying "Toko-Chan what's wrong? i asked, "i didn't know,is that hat's why you always wore a t-shirt all the time when u went swiming wasn't it ?" she asked. i nodded "everything's fine now, takashiro is taking care of it " i said pulling back and giving her a smile.

She looked at me then at takashiro who just nodded. We all ate lunch together. while we ate i learned from Takashiro that the zweilts are the guardians of "Gods Light who was yuki, and that Toko-Chan and Tskumo-kun are Zweilt gaurdians , "no wonder they always hang out with Yuki" i thought i then noticed that their were other pairs there to "Hotsuma and Shuesei are a pair, Kotaro and Senshiro are a pair,Tskumo and Toko are a pair and well Luka protects Yuki and Sodom is Lukas pet but is extremely attached to Yuki" i thought aloud they all looked at me.

"How did u figure that out?" Takashiro asked me wiht a smile "well they all revolve around each other. Hotsuma is always near Shuesei and the same is for the others" i said "and also by their behavior. i can guess that most of them like me have not had a good childhood. Their parents know who they are and are afraid of their power and shunned them most of the time as my father did to me. So they get extremely attached to their partner because they know that their partner will understand their feelings so they place complete trust in their partner."

i smiled at them and finished eating and after excusing myself, i went upstairs and sat on the window sill and looked out into the garden when i saw something on the lawn surrounded by Hotsuma and the others. it looked oddly familiar, like the creature in my dream

i ran out of the room and flew downstairs and out the back door "Stop!" i screamed throwing myself between the animal and everyone else. "No fighting its just scared" i said softly as i turned to the animal "it looks like Sodom "i though then changed my mind because the creature was white and had a blue jewel in the middle of its forehead. i knelt holding my hand out palm straight up for it to sniff "hello little beauty" i said gently smiling at it. it stepped forward and sniffed my hand cautiously i inched it foreword and to my surprise it liked my hand then pressed its head into my palm.

it was the same size as Sodom but was all white." see you guys its friendly " i said gently picking it up and cradling it in my arms as everyone stared at me " Kayo kyu!" it said nuzzling me. "Luka where's Sodom at?" i asked." he's with Yuki" he replied "can you go get them please" . he nodded and went inside .after a few minutes he came back Yuki and Sodom following behind him. As they came over the creature in my arms perked up 'Pu-yo Puuuh Pah!" it said to Sodom who had flown onto my shoulder when he came outside "Ryukyu kyu ouhoy" he replied.

"maybe they know each other," i said smiling at the two of them "i wonder what her name is". "Kyu!" i said happily and licked my arm. "Her name is snow.' Luka said, "i'm surprised that she's taken such a liking to a human so quickly." i smiled "snow?" i said smiling " it fits her "i said scratching the top of her head she made a sound of contentment as takashiro came out and smiled at me " so you made a new friend" he asked giving me a wink.

i laughed, "i guess so, her name is snow," i said walking over to him as snow climbed from my arms to my shoulder. "Kayo kye kayo kyu?" she said sniffing at takashiro "that's takashiro" i said to her smiling "go On he wont hurt you" takashiro held out his hand for her and she sniffed it cautiously.

Deciding she liked him, she sniffed me again then Takashiros hand again. "put-ya kyu" she said looking at me then at takashiro then she twitched her nose. i blushed getting what she was saying "ya so what if i like him" i said in a whisper "its my love life OK" .i blushed as Takashiro smiled at me again i turned my face hoping that he didn't see me blush ,pretending to yawn

He came closer "are you alright Jennifer?" he asked "ya i'm fine just tired." i said faking a yawn again. He smiled softly. "Go get some sleep" he said, "i'll come wake you up when dinners ready." i smiled "thanks takashiro" i said as i went back inside an up to my room. i lay down on my bed and turned onto my side. Snow curled up against my stomach as i fell asleep

*** dream of a memory***

i entered the room and saw takashiro sitting by the windowsill his kimono still tied around his waist. "Kashi are u trying to show off to the other women of the court or are you trying to seduce me," i said teasingly i wrapped my arms around his shoulders. He laughed, "Maybe i'm trying to do both," he said mischievously as he turned his face to grin at me. i smiled and kissed him "well its working" i mumbled against his lips as he closed the window behind him leading me to the bed.

*** End of memory***

"Jen" Takashiro said waking me up. i bolted upright in bed as i looked at takashiro blushing like mad "hay Kashi" i said sleepily "dinner time already?" he nodded and grinned "you just called me kashi" he said his smile widening "did you remember something?" i nodded and explained the dream leaving out the explicit details that i remembered. "Oh" he said blushing i guessed he remembered it as well.

We went downstairs and ate dinner. After dinner was over we all went our separate ways i went outside and sat on the rim of the fountain. Looking at the bright full moon "Might as well practice for tomorrow", i thought, remembering the reason i was going to sing "but what songs to do?" i knew i was defiantly going to do Chloë's song To Where You Are. "But what should i do for the other songs" i thought "Oh! i could do Lisa's version of "Feilds of gold" and then i could also do Alex's version of True colors, yes that would work nicely" i said and smiled, the lamps flickered on " i guess it got dark early" i thought " oh well i might as well go ahead and practice". As i sat on the rim of the fountain i noticed that the windows on multiple floors of the mansion were, open i grinned as i though 'i just may have an audience" i started to sing, to where you are.

i saw Yuki and Luka sit on the cushion by the window on one floor they leaned out, Also on the same floor, Shuesei and Hotsuma leaned out of their window and looked over at me watching silently. Soon everyone who had their window open was sitting on the cushion and leaning out the window and listening as i switched to Alex's "You'll Be in my Heart". then my heart skipped a beat when i saw Takashiro leaning out the window as i continued through the songs until i finished with Feilds of gold

i heard everyone clap i looked up grinning and waved at them.

it was getting late and they shut the windows and went into their separate rooms. i sighed looking at the moon again sighing i started to sing "The Moons a Harsh Mistress" and held back tears as i sang, when i finished i heard someone clap. i turned around quickly wiping my eyes "Kashi i didn't notice you there," i said forcing a smile for him

"You sang that song very beautifully" he said coming over and smiling at me "thanks i was practicing for tomorrow", i said looking up at him tears welling up again in my eyes. He nodded in understanding. "Why do i feel like you want to ask me something?" i said to him wiping my eyes and smiling at him.

"Because i do want to ask you something," he said grinning, "i knew you would gain your memory back soon but i didn't expect it to be so soon and well one of us…" he trailed off blushing "Oh. ya um well…." i said trailing off; wanting to tell him that i wanted the memory to happen again, "i was thinking that maybe after some time that we could maybe …" i trailed off blushing.

He blushed and smiled "are you saying you want to be with me?" he asked as i nodded "and after some time you'd be willing to join with me?" his voice was hopeful .i stepped closer and wrapped my arms around his waist " after a few dates and some alone time Defiantly" i said laying my head against his chest. "Thank you" he said softly pulling me closer to him "i couldn't ask for more under these circumstances." i looked up at his amber eyes and smiled as i pulled my arms from around his waist and cupped his face in both of my hands.

He closed his eyes as if he was committing the moment to memory. He opened his eyes as i pulled his face to mine pressing my lips to his "i love you kashi," i mumbled against his lips. We broke the kiss "i don't want you to get involved in this mess again Jennifer." He said looking me in the eyes. "i already lost you once before i can't bear to lose you again".

i smiled at him understanding what he meant and seeing the pain in his eyes "Kashi i'm already involved in this. i am with you now and since Yuki is my brother, i will not leave him. i know that Reiga will find out one way or another. We'll just have to deal with that when it comes at us." i said lowering my hands till the rested on my stomach." And maybe one day your child ... Our child will have the chance at life that he didn't get before." i smiled at him

"i hope so "he said pulling me close and giving me a hug as i yawned. He laughed "bed time, you have a long week ahead" he said as i nodded and hooked my arm through his as we went inside and upstairs to my room.

Takashiro said goodnight to me at my door .i changed into the nightgown and fell asleep hoping i would not have a nightmare and , i would dream of something peaceful for a change.
After that night, the rest of the week was a blur to me. i woke up the day of the funeral and took a bath with Toko-chan. she loaned me one of her small black dresses that fit me perfectly .though it was strapless and a bit low-cut in the front i did not mind much. However, i was worried about the half of my back that was showing. i did not want anyone to see the bruises; luckily, Toko had the same skin tone as me so she loaned me her base and helped me put it on to conceal the bruises.

After she had changed we went downstairs to eat breakfast .When we got down their all the boys were already there waiting for us. All of them including Luka were dressed in nice black tuxedo jackets, white shirts and black dress pants matching black ties.

" Why are you guys all dressed up?" i asked as i sat down knowing what the answer would be. "We're all coming with you," Yuki said as he got some strawberry cereal. "You guys don't have to come you guys know that don't you?" i said my voice shaking as i helped my self to the same cereal as my brother.

"We know that" Shuesei-kun said helping himself to some milk and giving me a smile "we want to come and besides Your Family now." i stared at him for a second then i looked at everyone else "thank you so much you guys." i said wiping the tears from my eyes. No problem Jennifer" Tskumo-Kun said patting me gently on the back. After we finished eating, we all sat in the lobby and talked until Takashiro said it was time to go. The ride to the gravesite was silent.

We got there just before the service started and by the time it was over, i was crying like a child .i still couldn't believe that he was gone. Everyone there said they were sorry for my loss and that they hoped i would be ok, i thanked them and went back to my new family and together we went to the church auditorium.

When we got there, i looked for Takashiro and i saw him sitting by the stage. i hurried over there and sat by him and kissed him on the cheek "thanks for everything Kashi" i said softly, and went over to the sound booth and gave the sound tech my CD with the music to the songs i was going to do on it.

i heard Toru's mom announce that i was going to do some songs in memory of Toru. i took a deep breath as i walked on stage and nodded to the sound tech and he started the music. i began to sing three measures after the music started "Take the wave now i know that you're free …." i sang with all the emotions i felt until the song was over.

"Hi everyone my name is Jennifer i am… was toru's best freind . There is one thing i want to say to everyone and that is don't ever forget someone you loved. Toru and i made a promise to each other, if one of us passed on that we would never forget the other. But we also promised that we would also want the other to find someone as soon as they were ready" i said and clasped my hands to my chest. i looked straight at Takashiro and smiled

"And for me i have found that person already and i want to say one more thing to Toru before i perform my other songs." i paused and looked out at the crowd "Thank you Tory" i said using the nickname, i gave him. "You gave me a reason to keep going when i felt down about myself and i will never forget that. These next three songs are all about love one is from a mans view the others are from the view of a woman. They are all about people who have a distant lover. These songs are for people we love and most importantly the people we will always keep in our hearts" i said and smiled at the crowd as i sang the three other songs that ment so much to me.

When i finished i looked at the back door and saw my dad coming towards the stage looking angry. i had expected that this would happen so i got off the stage. "He's here Kashi," i whispered as i sat next to him "what should i do" i said worried that my dad would do something stupid "don't worry Jen i won't let him touch you." He said reassuringly as he put an arm around me.

He nodded at Hotsuma and the others who sat in all the seats behind us and a few of them namely Luka and Yuki sat in the seats beside us. "Thanks Takashiro" i said loudly as i leaned into him "i'm Glad you and the others were able to make it. i could not have done this by myself. i hope this didn't mess up any plans you guys had for today." i looked at him. "No problem at all Jennifer. Toru was close friends with all of us i'm glad we could come" he said smiling as he squeezed my shoulder as my father approached "Take you arm off my daughter!" He said angrily as he reached for Takashiros arm

"Dad leave him alone!" i said angrily standing "Takashiro and my friends have looked after me this past Week and a half while you left for England to be with your girlfriend! They were there for me and now their family" he looked at me shocked "i know all about it dad. i know who i am and i know that yuki is my twin and i am going to stay with him and my cousins," i said as i glared at my father. Everyone at the reception staring at us as my friend moved so that they stood by Takashiro and i Snow and Sodom moved so that they were on either side of me in wolf form. "if you try to hurt my family. i won't hold Snow and Sodom back," i said as i stepped forward to stand by Takashiro. "You have no right to talk to me like that young lady" he said advancing "and your in major trouble when we get home!"

Takashiro moved, placing himself in front of me "Don't u Dare try to hurt her" he said menacingly glaring at my father. "No dad i'm not going with you "i said defiance in my voice "i'm going to live with my brother" He stared at me "your brother died soon after he was born" he said trying to convince me that i was lying to myself. "You're a liar dad .i know he's alive. i've known since the beginning of last school year he still has that picture i drew him and i still have the cross necklace he gave me" i said holding it up and glaring at him "Your coming home right now young lady!" he said as his fist balled up. "No i'm not dad. i have been through enough hell with you. i'm going to live with Yuki and his family," i said stepping back as he advanced closer. Sodom growled threateningly as my father took a step foreword hate blazing in his eyes. Takashiro glared at him ready to fight if necessary i put a hand on takashiros shoulder "Kashi please don't fight him i don't want you to get hurt." i said wrapping my arms around his waist as if i could hold him back "i don't want anyone i care about to get hurt." He turned his head and smiled at me "don't worry i'll be fine" takashiro said. My father advanced again

"You will not lay hand on her!" Yuki said threateningly as he moved to stand beside takashiro glaring at my father." You have no say in how i can and cannot discipline my own daughter for her misdeeds! " My father shouted glaring back at him. " i do have a say as her brother" yuki shouted back as my father did a double take. i watched as two plain clothed detectives arrested my father, "You can do this! i'm her father!" he yelled as he was being pulled out the door and into the police car, .it was finally over no more pain to deal with. Takashiro put an arm around me and led me to the car and it was around 8 o'clock when we got home. i ran inside and up the stairs to my room and threw myself on the bed crying i heard a knock on the door "what do you want!' i yelled as i sat up and looked at the door. Takashiro stepped in shutting the door behind him i buried my face in the pillow trying to hide the tearstains on my face "Jen" he said softly as he came over and sat by me on the bed.

He put a hand on my bare back i shuddered at the warmth of his hand. Why am i getting the same warmth from Takashiro that i got from Toru i relaxed a bit at his touch and turned over staring into his eyes, "Why did this happen?" i sobbed as Takashiro took my hand in his. "i don't know love," he said softly.

i froze "he called me love but does he really love me or her soul?" i though i looked him in the eye "do u really love me for me or because i'm sakuras reincarnation" tears filled my eyes

He wiped them away with his hand 'You. For you are her heart is yours you are the same as she and she is the same as you so you are who i love." He said as he pulled me close as i leaned my head against his chest

"i… i want to…" the words cut off as i tried to calm myself, unsure that he would want to love me " what do you want to do" he asked softly as his hand rubbed small circles on my back "i want to m.." i paused looking up at him "to make l..." the words were cut off as Takashiro put a finger on my lips. He looked at me, his eyes burned with passion and love and i could feel it in his gentle touch "are you sure Jen?" he asked gently "it's only been a week and a half since…" he moved his finger as i nodded. "I've wanted to since we first kissed but i was afraid you wouldn't want me," i said looking him in the eyes as desire grew within me. He bent his head and gently kissed me on the lips as one of his hands tangled itself in my hair the other wrapped itself around my waist pulling me closer and deepening the kiss. it felt like we were dancing, as we were soon lost in the blazing passion that was love.