Disclaimer: I don't own twilight sadly but god blesses her soul for twilight and its characters which I am currently borrowing for the moment...
Prologue
I think back and replay everything I ever said, done or sent. Why? That was the question. Why did I do this? Why did I fall so deeply in love with him? Why couldn't I just have ended it when it began? Would he even love me after this? No...Will he even forgive me after this? I don't know what I was thinking when did this, but now im terrifed of what may happen after this phone call. I need to do this though. It's evitable. I can't run away from this anymore.
Looking down at my phone, I sighed. How could such a little device cause so much…chaos? I now wish I never had a phone. Ugh this was going to be hard for me. I picked it up from the hard, cold hardwood floor and slid down in my chair. God this was the worst thing I've ever done.
'Hey'I typed on the touch screen keyboard suddenly regretting sending the message. I put my phone under my thigh and placed my head in my hands.
5 minutes later my phone vibrated from under me. I jumped. Being too deep into my thoughts I had forgotten I sent the message.
'Hello beautiful'the message read. I sighed once more. If only he knew I thought he wouldn't think I'm so beautiful anymore.
'Call me? It's important… I need to tell you something' I replied hesitantly. As I sat my phone on the nightstand beside me I thought about how I was going to explain this to my love, my everything, the only thing I ever really wanted in this world. He'll be crushed. Devastated. He'll hate me. I just know he will. He'll think I'm insane. He'll never trust me again. He'll- My thoughts were cut off by the sound of my ringtone. I gulped. I couldn't back out now. I could lie. No I've done enough of that. Lying is what got me in this mess in the first place.
"Hello?" I rolled my eyes listening to my voice crack when I answered.
"Hey babe. What's up?" I could hear the grin spread across his face when he called me 'babe' he loved calling me that.
"Um…I- I mean um…" I was scared. I couldn't talk. My throat was dry.
"What's wrong love?" he replied concerned.
My mouth was open but nothing was coming out. What the hell Bella? I thought.
"Sindi? Sindi what's wrong? Tell me." he said after a few silent seconds from my end.
"That's not my name…"I answered with my eyes squeezed shut.
"What? What do you mean?" he said with a little giggle. I could tell he didn't think I was serious.
"My name is..." my heart jumped and a shiver went down my spine. I took a deep breath and continued... "Promise me, you'll love me the same after this..."
"Honey ill always love you. I love you unconditionally" he replied. Unconditionally… the way he said that word scared me. How long was his unconditionally exactly?
You can do this Bella, don't be a coward.
"My name is Bella swan. I live in forks, Washington and I'm not who you think I am…"
There was a long silence after I said that and I knew, in that moment, I had just lost everything I ever wanted...