I was beginning to wonder is coming to Mewni was ever a good idea. I mean cmon, I had a life on Earth. I had school, which I excelled in despite the horrible school average, and I had my parents and friends. I threw all that away to be shoved aside, but for some strange reason, I can't bring myself to leave mewni.

I have thought about the reasons why I can't seem to pull myself to leave. It could be one or multiple of three things: The thought of Earth being too... uh, normal?, being on Mewni gets me away from the normal issues in Earth, and finally Star. I mean she is probably the main reason, but I can't bring myself to admit that because that would mean I gave away my life to a girl who is unavailable. Not to mention that I'm practically living with her and she used to have a crush on me.

At first my decisions to stay were to have fun with Star, like how it used to be before all the drama and Toffee. She has gotten better at it, but something still isn't right. She treats me like I'm her personal servant more than her friend. But, I guess she is stressed from all the pressure of being queen soon. I keep telling myself this, but I'm starting to not believe it myself.

Tom has seriously changed. He is more of a gentleman every day and I think that I helped him along with that. He is achieving what I have striven to be. He helps Star more than he lets on, meanwhile he is balancing the underworld and being a role model for all the young demons. I found out on one of my travels during my off time, and he seemed slightly embarrassed that someone found out. I was told to keep that side of him a secret because he didn't want Star to know of the problems in the Underworld because of how much work she already puts in to the Universal rights for Mewni and stopping the ever increasing protests threatening the throne and the government. He really has become selfless and I am surprised how much he has changed. During my interaction with him in the underworld he told me, "It's because of YOU, Marco. You have made me realize that Star has changed and that the people around me were afraid. I decided to change that when I saw how devoted you were to being her squire. You were always working with her and planning her schedule. You really showed the world the loving and caring Star that we know. I honestly don't understand how or why you do it, but it really showed me that I could do it for my kingdom too, as it was starting to fall apart from the outside of town."

This may be the reason I have ever wondered why I haven't left. People rely on me daily. Just a human. From a magicless dimension no less, but I just seem to help without trying. I want to be there for Star, but she is growing up and becoming the queen in some time. People might have caught on by now, but I've been in love with Star for a long time and it's tearing me apart. I remember the day it began to show.

We had the party Star and I have planned for months. Yes, I helped plan a PARTY. The ol 'Safe Kid' planned one of the biggest parties of the year. Star changed me, but for the better. Still maybe the safe kid people call me, but I have gotten stonger and more popular just being around her. In fact, most people have from dealing with her string magic and wild ways. I like to think that I changed her too. I was her shoulder to lean on for the longest time because whenever we dealt with things, we did it together and conquered.

This party was going to be huge. I was to prepare the snacks while Star decorates. We had things strung over the railings and around windows. I set up tables and had all sorts of food. I made at least 10 full plates of nachos. (Which turned out to not be enough). I then opened the barbecue and started roasting all sorts of meats, but my dad took over and told me to have fun because people showed up.

All sorts of people showed up, I was surprised. It was an open invite so anyone that went to echo creek could come. We opted not to invite anyone from Mewni because they probably wouldn't fit in and would be bombarded with questions, but Ponyhead was invited because she would probably have my head if we didn't. It was nice. Jackie came too, at the time being my girlfriend, and we started partying.

About halfway into the party I looked around for Star to bring her along for a game, but she wasn't to be found anywhere. We had upstairs off limits due to just having our bedrooms up there, so my final spot to check was there. Sure enough I found her there.

She was different tho. Her usually bright blond hair was now shades darker and her usually vibrant pinkish-red hearts were dull. She looked at me and I realized she was crying. I was beyond shocked. She rarely cried and when she did, she never dulled. I went to her and all I could think of to do was to try and embrace her. Jackie showed up at the door, then left after showing a shocked face of surprise, but before I could try to explain to her what was going on, Star spoke up.

"Marco..."

I looked back and noticed she was staring at her mirror phone and I put two and two together. Something must of happened in Mewni. She started to speak but it all came out jumbled between sobs. I gave here a few minutes to collect herself, but I had no clue what could cause this. She pulled away from me and looked collected, besides her shaky breath.

"Marco, I'm sorry for all this. We had fun times and everything. We grew up and matured. You have a girlfriend and I am now experienced in magic. I have loved everything about Earth and how you and your family accepted me right away and never tried to control me. Truly I am sorry for this."

I was confused and felt my heart tighten I she grew quieter.

She then pulled out the scissors Ponyhead used and cut I portal. Before she entered the portal she spoke. "I have enjoyed my stay and will probably never come back, but I need to say one more thing. I... I had a crush on you Marco and became jealous. I am truly sorry."

And with that, she walked in. My heart felt like it just ripped into many pieces and this is when I realized I loved her. This heartbreak wasn't from losing a close friend, it was so much more. It showed my hidden and true emotion. I ran downstairs and screamed at everyone to leave. Janna, Jackie, and Ponyhead stayed, but everyone else left. Their expressions was all I could remember before fainting. Confusion and concern.

Hey y'all, sorry about discontinuing my other story "the butterfly's light". I had lost my plot and my unfinished chapters when I upgraded my computer and haven't found the Motivation to redo it. If you want to take its idea, you can. Just PM me when you release a story about it or such if you do. Anyway I want feedback on this and I will finish the backstory in the next chapter, but I feel like this is already long and I want to see if people like it. This will eventually be Kellco and Tomco, but this is necessary setup. Look forward to writing this. :)