Disclaimer: Gundam Wing isn't mine, I'm making no money off this, please don't sue. Thank you! ^^
A/N: SPOILER ALERT! Even though this is an alternate ending to "Blood and Tears: Reunion" - which I still haven't finished, obviously - it does give some things away. I wouldn't have written it, but as you guys know, I'm working through some issues. This is told from Kiara's pov. Thanks for your advice, Mair. *hug*
Pairings: 1x2/2x1, 3x4/4x3, 5xKiara
Warnings: AU, Angst, blood, sad, deathfic, spoilers abound for a story not yet finished. You have been warned.
"Blood and Tears: Reunion" Alternate Ending by Manic Grasshopper 2/6/03
You aren't supposed to leave me.
I sit on the cold hard ground holding you in my arms, drenched in blood, thinking that. You aren't supposed to die. But of course you are now - Kevin had said he would do it, rip your throat out, and I didn't believe him. A meaningless threat. How could I have been so foolish? Kevin never made meaningless threats. He kept his word on all of them, including this one. So I sit here, on dirt strewn with dried oak leaves, cradling you in my arms as you die. Terran is behind me, too weak himself to save you. I'm too weak to save you. Even if I weren't bleeding from my own wounds, I'd never be able to help. My blood was barely enough to save one life, nine years ago.
I can hear Quatre weeping; I know Trowa is consoling him. Heero is silent, no tears, just stone. Duo...Duo is yelling at you, but I don't think you hear him. Maybe you don't want to, or maybe it's because you're looking at me so intently as you struggle to breathe. I should have left you alone, I know that. I shouldn't have gotten involved with you. You're dying now because of me. I find it amusing, in a sad way. If you'd lived through this, I would have let you go. I'm immortal, after all. You're not. I would have stepped aside, watched you marry, raise a family, and been happy because you were happy. Now that will never happen.
Terran is telling me to lay you on the ground, let you go. I won't. I'm afraid if I lay you down, you'll leave me. It's silly - you're going to leave me anyway. Kevin did too much damage to you for you to survive this. Duo made him pay for it with his own blood. Duo's justice - or Shinigami's. One and the same, perhaps. You keep opening your mouth, moving your lips, but no words come out. I'm a vampire, I should be able to hear the faintest whisper, but at this moment I hear nothing except my own sobs. Duo has stopped yelling, and is trying to take you from me. I won't let go. I bend closer to you, putting my ear next to your lips as I take one of your hands. Your skin is so cold, but your breath is warm. You speak again, and this time, I hear. Two words. 'Love you.'
Your mouth closes, and I feel your cold hand go limp in mine. I don't feel your heartbeat anymore. I lift my head and look down at you, to see your eyes closed as if you were only sleeping. Perhaps I could convince myself that you are, but Duo is crying, and you're soaked in blood, and there are the tears in your throat where Kevin bit you. Dead, not sleeping. Because of me. Because I got too close. Heero moves over and tries to do what Duo attempted - take you from me. Terran's arms are around me - he's still strong enough to try and pull me away. I refuse to move, to lessen my grip on you. If Life had taken you from me, I gladly would have stepped aside. Instead, Death took you from me.
I'll never let go, 'Fei. I'll never let go.