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A/N: More songfic! The song is Sorrow, by Flyleaf. Instead of making people guess the character(s), I'm revealing them this time – Bella is the narrator.
Sometimes life seems too quiet into paralyzing silence
Like the moonless dark meant to make me strong
Familiar breath of my old lies
Changed the color in my eyes
Soon he will perforate the fabric of the peaceful by and by
I can't believe I ended up here. Why did he choose me, of the countless girls he's met before? And why did I, without knowing anything about him, decide that I wanted to spend forever with him? Right now, I don't care about the cost of it. I don't want to be with him; I need to be with him.
Sorrow lasts through this night
I'll take this piece of you
And hope for all eternity
For just one second I felt whole
As you flew right through me
I could have been ordinary, I guess, but I never got the chance. Everyone knew who I was before I came here. Then I saw him, and I asked another girl what she knew about him. He didn't date, she told me, and I thought my hopes were shattered. But they weren't. I somehow ended up being the thing he wanted most in the world, and in multiple ways.
Left alone with only reflections of the memory
To face the ugly girl that's smothering me
Sitting closer than my pain
He knew each tear before it came
Soon he will perforate the fabric of the peaceful by and by
If there is one word to describe us, it is bittersweet. Our relationship is a test of his restraint in every way there is. I'm tempting in every way to him, and yet I'm not afraid of what would happen if he lost control. At least it would be better than the uneasy avoidance that he used when he first saw me.
Sorrow last through this night
I'll take this piece of you
And hope for all eternity
For just one second I felt whole
As you flew right through me
This is what true love is. It's not caring about the risks even when they stare you straight in the eyes. It's not minding what other people think, even your own family. And it's this beautiful, bittersweet feeling that I will remember for the rest of my life, however long that ends up being.
And we kiss each other one more time
And sing this lie that's halfway mine
The sword is slicing through the question
So I won't be fooled by his angel light
I don't think I'd be able to live without him. When he had to leave me, it was the worst thing that had ever happened to me. If it happened again, and if he didn't come back, I'd consider suicide. It would be better for me to die than to live without him.
Sorrow lasts through this night
I'll take this piece of you
And hope for all eternity
For just one second I felt whole
As you flew right through me
And up into the stars
Where is the beauty in two people with the world at their fingertips falling in love? There is none. It is almost better when they must devote themselves to control before devoting themselves to each other. This is the beauty; the bitter sweetness that I have found.
Joy will come