Starsky and Hutch
Sentences between ( ) are lines used from various songs. The songs and Starsky and Hutch aren't mine.
I've only borrowed them for this story. No money is being made from this.
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Sweet Revenge Story
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Time In A Bottle
Hutch hand shook
when he touched the pale skin of his partner's face. A lonely tear escaped from
his eyes, leaving a wet trail behind. He stroked his friend's forehead and let
his fingers run through the curly hair. "Can you hear me, Starsky?"
He knew he wouldn't get an answer, but he kept on talking, because he knew that
it was possible that somewhere inside, his partner could hear him. "I hope
you can hear me, babe. Listen to me carefully, okay? It's not your time to go
yet, so don't you die on me now and leave me behind in this crappy world. Where
will I ever find a partner like you again, huh? One I trust with my life. One
who will be more than a partner. One who will be my friend? Hutch bowed his
head and rested his forehead on the bed. When he looked up again, more tears
were streaming down his face. "Damn it, Starsky, Angrily, he wiped his
face.
(It's
just not fair, to keep me here crying)
Hutch stood up
and paced the room, then walked up to the bed again and looked down on the
still form
underneath the sheets. "Oh buddy, if I only knew you could hear me."
(You've got to give me some sign)
But Starsky
remained silent. His body lay still, unmoving in the bed, unaware of Hutch's
silent wish.
"You look
so peaceful, Starsk. Why is it that we always think about 'the meaning of
life" on moments like these? Maybe because I don't know if you're ever
gonna wake up again." Hutch turned away from the bed. He couldn't fall
apart now. He didn't want to think about losing Starsky, because that wasn't
going to happen. "You're all I've got, Starsk.", were the whispered
words that came from his lips.
He turned around
again, snatched his jacket from the chair and stepped closer to the bed.
"You hang in there, buddy. I need to get something from my place. I'll be
back before you know it."
When Hutch
stepped through the hospital doors, he stood still to breathe in the fresh air
for a minute, before he got into his car. He came to a screeching halt in front
of Venice Place, jumped out of the car and entered the building where he ran up
the stairs to his apartment. He headed towards the bedroom where he opened the
closet door and took a shoe box from a shelf. "It must be in here
somewhere", Hutch mumbled to himself, emptying the contents onto the bed.
There were a few pictures lying between the many cards and letters. Hutch held
his breath before he picked one up. "Terry", he whispered and stared
at the picture. Terry and Starsky. She was Starsky's happiness, his joy and his
pleasure. She was Starsky's lady, there was no doubt about it. Hutch smiled. Terry and he became good
friends, too. She seemed to understand him and there was one other thing they
had in common: 'Starsky'. The three of
them could often be found together. Starsky's heaven on earth, until a bullet
turned it into hell.
(run
away, turn away, run away)
Hutch put the
photo back down and picked up another. One where he and Starsky had their arms
wrapped around each other.
(You're my best friend. You're in my soul)
With a finger he
stroked the picture, gently, carefully. Then he closed his eyes, and held the
picture close to his chest.
(When I need you, I just close my eyes and I'm with you)
And Hutch felt
Starsky's presence. It felt comforting.
(When
the world has got me down and I've almost lost the will to try. I may look sad
and I may frown but I still find comfort In your waiting, your hello and your
good-bye)
He rummaged
among the rest of the letters and photographs, his hand stopped and picked up a
white envelope. He stared at his name, written on the envelope: 'Hutch' . He found it. Now there was one
more thing he needed to take with him to the hospital. Hutch reached for
"Ollie", who was sitting on top of the closet. "It's time to
give you to someone else, buddy." Hutch smiled sheepishly. He felt a bit
silly talking to a stuffed animal like that. But it was not just a stuffed
animal, it was 'Ollie'. Ollie' who had belonged to Terry. 'Terry', who left
Ollie in Hutch's care. "Okay, it's time to go back to the hospital",
Hutch said to himself. With Ollie under one arm and the letter in his hand, he
left the appartment.
Starsky still
hadn't woken up when Hutch returned. He put Ollie and the letter down on the
bed, and hung his jacket over the back of the chair before he sat down. He
studied Starsky's face, he looked so much like a sleeping little boy.
"Hey, did you miss me?" Of course he didn't get an answer. Hutch
sighed "I guess not." Hutch's fingers played with the envelope that
contained Terry's letter. "I brought something with me, Starsk.
When...when I was here earlier and watched you I...I thought about Terry. I
remember how devastated you were when she died. You must have been so scared
when you knew you were gonna lose her. I mean,..if it was anything like I'm
feeling now, then I..I.." Hutch tried to swallow the lump that had formed
in his throat. ""Damn it Starsky,
I don't know if you're gonna make it, but you have to." Hutch felt his
eyes dampening again. Slowly he took the letter out of the envelope and
unfolded it. "Do you remember this letter, Starsk? The letter Terry
wrote?" Hutch's voice was filled with emotions when he read the words to
his friend:
'To dearest
Hutch,'
'To you I
entrust Ollie and Dave. Please love them
both. Don't let
either of them change.'
Hutch brushed
Starsky's jaw. "I promised it to her in a prayer, Starsk. Who am I gonna
love when you're no longer at my side? There is no one who means as much to me
as you do." His look fell on Ollie, and carefully he lifted Starsky's hand
and placed it on top of the Teddy Bear. "I also brought Ollie with me, so
when you wake up alone you'll know that I've been here." Hutch stroked the
dark curls. "I can stay a little while longer, but the nurse will kick me
out, if I stay too long. I can sing you a song if you like? One of your
favorites, okay?"
Hutch's soft
voice filled the room:
"If I could
save time in a bottle
The first thing
that I'd like to do
Is to save every
day
Till eternity
passes away
Just to spend
them with you
If I could make
days last forever
If words could
make wishes come true
I'd save every
day like a treasure and then
Again I would
spend them with you
But there never
seems to be enough time
To do the things
you want to do
Once you find
them
I've looked
around enough to know
That you're the
one I want to go through time with
If I had a box
just for wishes
And dreams
that'd never come true
The box would be
empty
Except for the
memory of how
They were
answered by you
But there never
seems to be enough time
To do the things
you want to do
Once you find
them
I've looked
around enough to know
That you're the
one I want to go through time with"
Hutch's voice
faded away. He sat with Starsky in complete silence, lost in thought. When the
nurse came in to check on her patient
she found his blonde friend asleep, with his head resting on Starsky's arm. A
smile crossed her face at the sight of the two men and a Teddy Bear.
(And
in the time of darkness we will be as one)
The end
Written by Sonja H. van Schalm
November 2000
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Songs used in
the story:
- Beachwood Blues by David Soul
- Surrender to me by David Soul
- Small Town Boy by Bronski Beat
- You're in my heart by Rod Stewart
- When I need you by Leo Sayer
-
That's enough for me by David Soul
The complete
song:
-Time in a bottle by Jim Croce
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