Disclaimer: I don't own Ouran KouKou. And I also don't own the song 'Foolish Games' by Jewel which partially inspired this fic.
Title: A Patchy Existence - Chapter One - Shocking, Isn't It?
Author: Frigid-chan. For questions, comments, and suggestions please mail rainecloud46 at yahoo. Emails are preferred over comments.
Rating: M, for future chapters.
Notes: I appreciate constructive criticism, no flames.

"It's difficult isn't it?" Luna asked calmly, folding one of her hands over the other. It was after school on Friday, and she sat contently in Ouran's Host Club. All of the boys were dressed as some type of Santa Claus, except they weren't fat and they were wearing quiet a bit of tight clothing. The room was all snowy, and even the coffee had whip cream on top of it to it make it look like snow. She had the twins to herself that day.

The two looked at her with confused eyes. Hikaru shifted, pulling one of his knees to his chest. "What?" he asked.

"Being at the club – it's difficult to pretend to love someone, that you really love. Am I right?" she smiled slightly, taking a sip of her coffee. She could tell that even they sometimes doubted if incest was really okay. Their eyes would sometimes wander from each others during brotherly moments, and when they thought they weren't being watched, they hardly touched one another at all.

"Not really…" they said slowly, obviously searching for an answer. Their amber eyes fleeted to give each other a look. They hadn't a clue what to do.

"Well, do you two really love each other?" Luna pushed, brushing her short, black bangs to the side. Just as she had expected, they answered with thinking about it.

"Yes," and then they laughed.

"But, what kind of question is that? Of course we do. He is my brother," Kaoru said almost sharply. He blushed slightly when Hikaru gave him a curious look. He wasn't acting, his twin could tell that.

"We've known each other since the beginning of time!" Hikaru came to his twin's rescue, just like he always did. He stood and moved so that he was standing behind his mirror image. "We've slept side by side from the beginning," he said warmly, placing his hands on Kaoru's shoulders.

"Hikaru…Don't…" Kaoru whined, placing his own hands over Hikaru's.

"On cold winter nights we keep each other warm."

"Hikaru…You promised that was a secret," the younger twin blushed, turning his head away slightly. "You promised…You know how easily I'm embarrassed."

"Sorry, sorry, I forgot," Hikaru replied gently, running his fingers down his brother's cheek. "I'll make it up to you, I promise," he pressed his forehead to his twin's. Luna was watching them intently now, her icy blue eyes focused completely.

"Hikaru…" this time, the voice sounded different. Kaoru was unsure of himself."There," Luna said, pointing to Kaoru. "That voice of doubt," she took another sip of her coffee, as if what she had just said meant absolutely nothing.

"We were ignoring you," Kaoru broke the awkward tension and took a seat next to Luna "You weren't annoyed by that, were you?" he asked softly, his voice as if it was about to break. Hikaru took a seat between the two.

"Do forgive us," he apologized. He knew he needn't do so. That was what women liked.

"My brother is a bit of a fool…" Kaoru said as he appeared on Luna's other side, placing a hand on her shoulder.

"Oh…Don't be so harsh," the older twin said, turning to face him.

It was rare for the pair to face each other so soon. That day, they had both wanted to. They had both felt the need. Luna looked back and forth between them, interest clearly pasted on to her features. They'd never grow up. They were still putting on these acts and playing pranks and cruel jokes. It wasn't a surprise. If they did love each other, they'd have to hide it. Twins their age holding hands was…Looked down upon.

"You don't know how your brother feels, do you, Kaoru?" she asked, finishing her coffee with a smile.

The twins looked at her and then to each other again. That was rare. Their customers never singled one of them out. Their lips parted, but neither said anything. Luna smiled, and stood, gently touching Kaoru's shoulder as she walked away. "Tamaki-senpai, may I speak with you for a second?"

Tamaki's sparkling eyes met hers immediately. After excusing himself from his princesses, he walked over to her. He placed his hands in his pants pockets, leaning his weight onto one leg casually. "Yes, princess? Are the twins being troublesome?" he asked with his princely smile.

"No, no, they're being great. It's just…I was wondering if I could have a few minutes alone with them…" she asked sweetly, clasping her hands in front of her. "It'll only be a moment or so, I promise."

He looked doubtful at first, as if he didn't really trust her. An adorable look of confusion crossed his features and he called Kyoya over. After discussing it, they finally agreed and managed to get all of the girls out of the room and out into the gardens. On his way out, Kyoya gave her a look of warning.

Returning to the twins, she smiled. "Shall we move to a couch?" They exchanged doubtful looks, but they followed her. Kaoru sat next to Luna, his fingers lacing and then unwinding nervously. "She's wants us to…"

"I know," Hikaru cut him off, feeling no need for him to finish the sentence. "I don't know what to say," he sighed, crossing his arms. He took a deep breath and let it out, shaking his head.

"I don't know either." Out of habit, Kaoru took his twin's hand and held it tight. Luna moved so that she was sitting on the arm of the chair.

"Do I love you?" Hikaru finally asked, breaking the silence.

"How am I supposed to know?!" the younger twin squeaked, obviously finding the question unfair.

"Do you love me?" he looked at his mirror image, his eyes reflecting everything Kaoru felt perfectly. "If you love me, then I know I love you."

"But what if I don't kn…" he didn't have the chance to finish. Hikaru's lips met his quickly and quietly, as if he knew that Kaoru would answer that way. Luna fell off the couch with a loud crash. Shortly, two sets of amber eyes appeared over the arm of the couch. They laughed then, pointing at her.

She frowned. "Yeah, ha, you would have done the same thing," she shot back. When her phone began to ring, she sat up and removed her phone form where she kept it strapped to her thigh. "Hello," she answered cheerfully with a smile, even though her eyes were locked in a glare on the twins. Her smile disappeared shortly after and she jumped to her feet. "What?!" she squeaked. "I…I understand…I'll be there in a few minutes." She hung up her phone with a sigh.

"What's up?" Hikaru asked, wrapping his arms around his brother's neck casually. They smiled, still finding it amusing that she had fallen.

"That was…My house just burnt down…" she trailed off. She crossed her arms. Her thoughts were swirling incoherently around in her head, and she placed a hand on the couch to steady herself.

"So? Your parents can buy another one," Hikaru said matter-of-factly, shrugging.

"No…You don't understand," she said softly, looking at them with emotionless eyes. "My house burnt down with my parents inside."