AN: I don't own any of the bands in here unfortunately. Although I do own Spencer, Adam, and Kaiden.
I was writing this story on another site so this is what I've got so far, afteer this updates will be just
regular chapters. 3
I'll be taking the codes out later. Hope you like, tell me what you think pretty please, and where you think
it should go!! I'm getting a llittle stuckk.... ,
"Alex wake up!" Jack whined jumping onto my bunk.
"What the fuck Jack! I'm awake." I yelled "Get the fuck off me."
"What's your problem?" He asked accusingly.
"Nothing dude, just get the fuck off." I yelled pushing him down to the floor.
"You're lying." Jack exclaimed following me to the front of our bus. "And you're really bad at it Alex. Tell me please?" He begged giving me puppy dog eyes.
"That's not fair Jack!" I exclaimed.
"Just tell me. You know you want to" he said batting his eyelashes.
"Fine, so after yesterdays show, I met this girl.
I was standing against our bus talking to my mom, because I get absolutely no service on the bus, when she walked past. I didn't really see here, I just smelt her, as weird as that sounds. She smelt like mosh mixed with something sweet and fruity. She was very short maybe 5'3'' at the most. Her short skirt stopped right above her knees giving a perfect show of her legs. They were perfectly toned. Not the anorexic legs that most girls sported these days.
For some reason, I had to meet her.
I hung up on my mom and ran towards her. Under the street lamp I could see her light brown hair, it was wavy but not too curly. She had it up in one of those ponytails that only part of the hair is in and the other half just hangs down.
As I got closer I could hear that she was crying, "Excuse me?" I tapped her shoulder, "are you okay?" She flinched under my touch and muttered a simple, 'm'fine'.
"I don't mean to be rude, but it sure doesn't sound like you're ok."
"Well, not to be rude but, it's none of your business! You don't even know me!" Her face was red with anger but her deep green eyes portrayed the hurt perfectly. "For all you know this is normal." She rambled angrily.
"Well, if this is normal for you, I'd hate to see how you act when you're sad." I said chuckling. "I'm Alex."
"I know." She said quietly, sniffling. "I'm fine really, I just need to get home."
"Please wait." I said desperately.
"Why?" she demanded, her anger returning.
"What's your name?"
"What? Why?"
"Well it's not everyday you see a girl fleeing from a concert she probably paid a good deal of money to go to. And it's really not any day that a girl has made me hang up on my mom. And it's really never that I've seen a girl and noticed her clothes for any other reason than to figure out how I'd be taking them off. I mean I know it's soon, but there's something about you." I rambled.
"It's Spencer." She said with little emotion.
"Now Spencer, why were you crying?"
"I do not want to talk about it with you." She said bluntly.
"Chick's got a temper!" Jack exclaimed getting up to poor himself some cereal.
"Just listen to the story." I said defensively.
"Sorry dude, keep going." Jack said between bites
"Come on, you know you want to. I'm Alex Gaskarth! How can you resist this?" I said smiling.
"It's not that easy. I mean I want you to be this sweet guy, but I know you're not. I want you to actually care but I know you don't. I don't want to just be another lay to you. I want to trust you but I know I can't!"
"Well that's a breakthrough…" I said as we leaned against her car.
"No, it's not." She exclaimed, starting to cry again.
"Calm down babe, it's all good. I'm here, it'll all be fine."
"No! God, you're an ass." She said pushing me away. I just stood there shocked. "Sorry, sorry. It's just not a good time for your ego and I to get acquainted."
I laughed, "I'll try to keep it at bay."
"Thank you." She whispered.
"Please tell me?"
"Not right now." She whispered resting her head on my shoulder as we sat down on the curb.
"Only if you promise to tell me later." I said sternly.
"Fine." She smiled, lighting up her whole face. As I looked into her eyes they, once again, gave away her real emotions. The pain I saw crushed me. I gently whipped away the few tears that had fallen and pulled her close. She finally let me without putting up a fight.
"Can we go back inside?" I asked, she glared at me. "Come on, you bought your ticket, you should at least see Fall Out Boy." Her puffy red eyes looked up at me, she looked so small and innocent. "Please?" I gave her the puppy dog eyes.
"Alright fine." She said smiling a little. I grabbed her hand and led her into the back door. Where the security guard gave us a hard time.
"Dude, she's with me." I protested.
"Sorry, I can't let her in without a pass." He said sternly.
"Fuck, Spencer just wait here for a minute." I said heading toward the venue's back door. I turned towards the her. "Don't move I'll be right back. I promise." She smiled as I turned to the security guard. "Watch her. Make sure she's okay. She's special man." He agreed. "Stay, I'm coming right back for you."
"Fine, you have my word. Just go already!" She said actually laughing.
"Good." I said smiling as I turned to run up the stairs back to the venue to find Al.
"Hey Alex! How's it going?" he said slapping my hand.
"Hey Al, I really need a back stage pass, like ASAP. We didn't use any for fans or bring any extra people with us tonight." I rushed out.
"Uh, sure. Why…?" he asked curiously.
"I met this girl. But security wouldn't let me bring her in without one. So I really need a pass."
"Sure. Here you go." He said handing me a shiny pass.
"Thanks man." I said as I ran towards the door again. Back outside I saw her sitting on the curb gazing up at the stars.
"Dude, you sound like a fucking fag! 'Gazing up at the stars." Jack said mocking me ending in a fit of laughter.
"Hey! Speak for yourself. Now do you want to hear the rest of it or can I go back to laying in my bunk?" I asked impatiently.
"Chill dude," Jack said getting up to put his bowl in the sink. "Continue."
"Jaaaaack!" Zack yelled onto the bus. "Is Alex up yet?"
"Yeah, but he's telling me a story." Jack called back.
"I want to hear!" Zack said hurrying to get a spot on the couch.
"Fine, but no interruptions" I said pointedly.
"Aye, aye captain." Zack said saluting me.
"Thinking about me?" I said as I walked over to her.
"Not exactly." She replied
"What does that mean?" I asked sitting next to her.
"Well, I was thinking about the fact that I should be having the time of my life. I'm apparently getting back stage passes, I'm with you, I'll be seeing the concert I've been waiting to see for months, but I'm just...not. I'm just kind of numb." She said, her voice reeking with pain and sorrow.
"Come on babe, I'll make it a night you'll never forget." She sighed giving me a polite smile. I grabbed her hand and she laced our fingers together. "Oh don't forget about this." I said letting go of her hand to give her the pass. She clipped it onto her belt loop and grabbed my hand again.
"Alex!" Patrick yelled excitedly, when we were inside. "Dude, who's the chick?"
"Pat, Spencer. Spencer, Patrick" I said holding her hand a bit tighter to me.
"Spencer baby, you're gorgeous." He commented extending his arms for a hug. "Dude, are you going to fuck her?" He asked pointedly while she was still in his arms.
"Pat, not cool. Lay off the beer. Go get some water or coffee or something. You have a show soon." I said angrily before noticing the crushed look that returned to her face. "Besides I thought I heard Al say he needed to talk to you and the guys."
"This was a bad idea." Spencer whispered as I pulled her into my arms.
"No, it wasn't. He's just drunk, he doesn't know what he's talking about." She mustered up a smile. "Is there something else wrong?" I asked worried.
"He's drinking beer. We drank beer; he made me drink it with him when we didn't have any other alcohol. He always thought it was funny," She said burying her head into my shoulder.
"It's going to be ok. Tonight will be amazing. I already promised that to you. You're with me." She scoffed, I laughed. "Come on, do you like Cobra?"
"Yeah" she said as we walked towards the stage.
"Well, it's not in the pit, but it's closer than any of them will get." Her eyes got huge.
"Alex, where exactly are you taking me." She said stopping in her tracks.
"Well I was thinking we could stand in front of the rail for a little bit and take some pictures and then we could go head up to the stage so you could watch the rest." She looked at me confused, "The photographers don't appreciate when people get in the way of their shots. Sound ok?"
"Sounds perfect." She said sounding genuinely happy." I grabbed her hand and we sat down on the steps leading down to the front of the stage. "How're you feeling Alex?"
"Wait what?" I asked being caught off guard.
"Well, you got sick during the set so I was just wondering if you were ok, or if I'd have to keep my distance." She giggled making me recall one of the worse memories of the night. "So how are you feeling?"
"Much better, thank you." I said glancing at her, once again being taken aback by her true beauty. She defiantly wasn't one of the usual girls I'd go for. I had to chase her, which never happened, I'd rather just sit and talk with her, which never ever happened.
"Okay, good, I don't want to get puked on." She said laughing.
"Well in that case…" I said turning my body to completely face you.
"Alex! No, that's not funny!" she yelled, playfully pushing me back.
"Fine, fine." I said throwing my hands up in defeat.
"Wait, why are we hearing a story about Alex and some chick? We all know how it's going to end." Zack said laughing.
"Because if it had ended like that, the whole story would've been about the sex and Alex would not look so fucking depressed." Jack said mater-o-factly.
"That's true…" Zack said still not convinced.
"And because I asked him what was wrong and he said he'd have to tell me the whole story to get it." Jack continued.
"Guys, do we look like kindergartners?" Rian asked making everyone jump.
"Where the fuck did you come from?" Zack asked laughing.
"Dude, ask about the birds and the bees later. Why are we having story time?"
"Dude, you just missed the whole run down of why." Zack stated.
"Basically Alex is depressed and he's telling us why." Jack said as he cleared room on the couch. "Alex is she really that pretty?"
"Jack, it's an understatement when I talk about her. She's really short, but that just makes her look adorable somehow. She's thin, but healthy thin, none of that anorexic shit. Her hair was this golden color brown, short and wavy. She had the most gorgeous smile I've ever seen; it was sweet and warm and it lit up her whole face. But her eyes, man they were this spectacular color green. They were this almost grass green color with blue flakes in it. As cliché as it sounds, they were the perfect window into what she was thinking and feeling." I still couldn't exactly describe how beautiful she was. She was unique and gorgeous; I've never seen a girl as beautiful as her.
"Who is this mystery girl?" Rian asked.
"Spencer." Jack, Zack, and I all said simultaneously.
We messed around, while we waited for Cobra's set to start, just talking about each other.
"Who have you seen here?" I asked, looking around.
"Well, I've seen Boys Like Girls with Good Charlotte, Panic At The Disco" Her face dropped with the mention of this. I didn't understand it but figured I'd have to wait to find out. "You guys with Mayday Parade, The AP tour with 3Oh!3, We the Kings, Stereo Skyline, Cartel, Jesse McCartney—"
"Are you serious?" I asked interrupting her.
"Yeah, actually, I don't mind him and I really went for Metro Station."
"Fair enough." I said ignoring the band I very much do not like. "That's quite a list though." I commented.
"Oh, it's not over. "I've seen Sing it Loud, Never Shout Never, All-American Rejects, and Secondhand Serenade here. But I've seen other people other places."
"Really? Like who?" I asked leaning in, interested.
"Is it really that interesting Alex?" She said giggling self-consciously.
"It really is."
"Well, I saw All-American Rejects up at home and Owl City up there. I've seen Panic in Chicago, Green Day in Minnesota, Attack! Attack!, BrokeNCYDE, Forever the Sickest Kids, Reel Big Fish, Boys Like Girls, All Time Low...oh you guys, Never Shout Never, Motley Crue, Josh Turner, The Jonas Brothers, Brittney Spears, Aaron Carter, Backstreet Boys and 311 all at the Summer Fest grounds."
"God girl, you don't like concerts at all do you?" I said laughing.
"That's an understatement. Music's literally my life. I mean I know how cliché that is, but it's true. I'd really die without it. I'll listen to absolutely anything. It's just like the perfect way to escape, I guess. Gah, I don't think I could ever come close to describing it." Spencer rambled, "If I had any talent, at anything, I would be doing it." I smiled at her; she got everything I'd ever felt. The only difference was that I was apparently the lucky one that had the ability to accomplish what we both dreamed of. She looked out onto the crowd, I couldn't help stealing glances at her. I eventually gave up, successfully making myself feel like a stalker, and watched the crowd. "Alex, who's Al?" She asked randomly breaking our silence.
I chuckled, "He's the manager of this place."
"Oh, was he really looking for Patrick?" She asked hiding behind what little hair she could manage to get in front of her face.
"No, I was just worried about you. I didn't want to make it uncomfortable for you."
"Oh." She said back quietly. I wanted to say something more, but the screaming that started drowned out anything I would've attempted to say. The lights were out and Cobra mounted the stage waiting for the bright stage lights to light up.
"Come on!" I yelled grabbing her hand. We ran up to the front of the stage. She quickly started snapping pictures as the lights came on and Cobra launched into 'The City is at War'. I laughed as she took pictures and jumped and sang along with the crowd behind her. I stood there watching her trying to keep out of the way of the security and other photographers.
"Alexander Gaskarth what the fuck are you doing down there dude?!" Gabe yelled into the microphone. I hadn't even realized the song was over; I was too busy watching her.
I laughed at him and all the screaming girls that just noticed I'd been standing in front of them the entire time. "Dude, way to blow my cover." I said as I hopped on stage. "I'm brought this girl down here to take some pictures of you guys."
"Oo, where is she Alex?" Vicky asked scanning the small space in front of the stage. I pointed down towards her, noticing her face beat red by being in the spotlight. "Come on up here girlie! There's way too much testosterone up here." She said causing everyone to laugh. I pulled her up and we sat on the edge of the stage dancing like fools and singing along to their hit 'Bring It', more commonly known as 'Snakes on a Plane'. Her eyes were lit up and she looked like she was on cloud nine.
During the chorus, Gabe came up behind us and had us sing the chorus together with him and Vicky. We all sang along having a blast.
After we said goodnight to everyone we went back out to the side stage to watch the rest of the concert.
"Well what did you think? How was your first time singing on stage with major super stars?"
"Haha, you are no major super star." She said giggling, I pouted. "But maybe, a damn good rockstar?"
"That's more like it babe." I said slinging my arm around her and kissing her cheek. "So, what'd you think?"
"That was, oh my god, amazing!" She said happy, "Thank you, Alex, so much."
I smiled, "It was really nothing, I'm glad you enjoyed yourself." She pulled me into a hug, catching me off guard. I pulled her close. We stood close to each other singing and dancing and messing around.
"Alex, dude, do you think you can watch Bronx for us for a little bit?" Pete asked appearing out of nowhere.
"Shit dude where did you come from?" I said, a tad scared. "I thought you didn't trust me with the little guy."
"Well out of all the people left that are available, we trust you the most."
"Aw, didn't want to leave Bronx with Jack or Zack?" I said laughing.
"Haha, you're hilarious dude."
"Where's Rian?" I asked confused.
"Drinking."
"Well, I'm glad to know I was the first in line for being the last resort." I said cheerfully.
"So will you do it man?"
"Yeah, I will. As long as you don't mind that I bring a friend."
"Is it that chick over there?" I nodded. "She's hot. Are you going to fuck her?" he asked laughing.
"What?" Spencer asked, angrily, spinning around to face us. "So that's all this is about? Just another conquest for Alex? Just another girl to try to get in bed to fuck? Well guess what, I'm not fucking falling for it. I can't believe you." She was yelling her face angry.
"No. Spencer, please, it's not like that at all."
"Sure Alex, and you actually like me. And you actually care about me and don't want anyone else anymore. Yeah right. I'm not the same as all the other dumb little girls you lure into bed." She started walking away. I grabbed onto her arm. "No, I'm leaving."
"Just wait. Let me talk to you? Please?"
"Just let go of me Alex." She said her tears returning.
"No! You're different. I swear, I'd never fight for a girl ever. It's not worth it to me when I can just find another girl. You're different. I actually want to be with you. Please just give me a minute to explain?"
"Fine you have three minutes." She responded coldly no longer looking me in the eyes.
"Pete only asked because the only time I really hang around with girls, it's to fuck them. But when I do that I don't fight to get them to come with me. I don't care about them. When they're emotional I just leave. But you're different. I care about you. I know I don't know you that well but it doesn't matter. Please you have to understand." I begged.
"Time's up Alex, I'm sorry. I don't want to be just another notch in your bed post." She said through tears. "You wont miss me, you can get anyone, remember?" She ripped her arm out of my grasp and ran out.
"But I like you…" I whispered, now alone.
"Dude, I hate to say anything, especially after that but can you please watch the little guy
for a little bit?"
"Yeah, it's fine." I left and headed out to Pete's and Ashley's bus. "I'll take over" I said smiling at the small pudgy boy that was smiling up at me. She handed him over and raced out mumbling her 'thank you'. "Hello little man." He smiled up at me.
"Makes sense now man." Jack said looking sad.
"Well what're you going to do?" Zack asked getting up.
"If I knew, do you think I'd be sitting on this bus wallowing like a fucking pussy? I don't fucking know, I can't get her off my mind." I went to the back and started writing.
The guys all got off the bus leaving me to cope with my problems.
"Dude, if you need help we're all here for you." Rian said, he was always looking out for us.
"Thanks man. I don't know what I'm going to do though…"
"Well when you think of it let me know." He said as he left me alone again to write.
Spencer's POV
"Hey Spencer." Adam trilled. "Good morning! Rise and shine. All that bull shit. What's up?"
"Adam, damn it, cut the fucking happy gay man bullshit. I'm not in the fucking mood."
"Someone's pissed."
"Fuck you. Today's the day, like you should know. I'm fucking awake, I'm showered andeverything. I just don't have a single thing to wear."
"Little girl I know for fact you have massive amounts of black clothing. You have to have something to wear; I'll be there in a five minutes. We'll get you ready to go in no time."
"M'kay." I said sniffling. "The door's already unlocked."
"Alright. Go freshen up. I don't work with red puffy eyes."
"Bitch." I muttered walking into the somewhat large bathroom set off from my bedroom.
"You know it." He laughed hanging up.
"Spencer Leigh!" Adam called walking into the house not even five minutes later. I had barley moved from my spot at the sink.
"Lock the door." I called, finally moving to turn on my Boys Like Girls CD.
"Here." Adam thrust a drink in my hand. "It's my secret mix." He winked at me at me. In other words, lots of vodka. "Leave me to your closet. Finish washing your make up off." He instructed not looking up.
"Why?" I asked getting defensive.
"We'll do it later, after you're dressed." I went to wash all the makeup off as instructed, finally able to relax for a few moments. I flopped on my bed, nursing my drink as I ignored the pictures that cluttered my walls and anything else that would remind me of how alone I was now. It all mocked me of what was and never would be again. It all screamed out for me to have a break down. Like it was begging to finally see me totally crack.
"Honey, here take this, it's simple, classy, and comfy. Plus you really like it." Adam said handing me my gray slacks and black sweater.
"Alright." I couldn't conjure up any other words.
"Put your hair in a bun." Adam then instructed taking my drink from my hands.
"Hey!" I exclaimed pissed. "That's mine."
"I'm not letting you get drunk before this." He replied calmly.
"Fine." I said sulking as I walked towards the mirror. I did what he told me to do. "What about my make up Adam?"
"Do something, light. Just enough to be there, but not too much to make a statement." He said chuckling. I just starred back at the empty girl in the mirror and applied the light black eyeliner and a little bit of silver eye shadow.
When I finished Adam gasped, "You look beautiful." He then added a small heart necklace that had been given to me so long ago.
"No, Adam I can't wear that." I protested. "He gave it to me."
"It's fine. You can remember him, you just have to learn to move on."
"I guess you're right…" I said reaching for my small purse. "Lets just get this over with."
Two hours later and all my responsibilities for the day had been completed.
"Adam, I want to drink." I complained as he drove us back to my house.
"You have stuff at the house." He said flatly.
"Are you mad at me?" I asked sheepishly.
"No no no," He said covering my hand with his "It's just…I can't believe it's over. Just the other day we were all laughing and having fun and now…no more. I just can't believe it. Ya' know?"
"Yeah, I know." I whispered turning to the window a tear escaping down my cheek. "God do I know."
We drove the rest of the way in silence. The windows down in the summer heat blowing my, now let down, hair back.
Back at home we sat on my small couch drinking. We had taken to drinking straight vodka.
"God girl that's rough, how do you suck it down so quick?" Adam said giggling. He was far gone.
"Not sure." I said emotionless. I know it's not fair to ruin his good mood, but I couldn't let this go, at least not yet. I grabbed another shot and tipped my head back, " I can't feel anything anymore Adam." I said crying.
"Oh, Spencer," He said pulling me into a tight embrace. "We'll make it through this."
I'm not entirely sure how long we sat like that. My tears just kept coming.
My heart was officially broken.
No, not even, it was shattered.
When I finally stopped crying he gave me a quick hug and whiped my eyes.
"Adam, you're my best friend. God I don't know what I'd do without you. Don't go anywhere, I couldn't handle losing you."
"I'm not going anywhere Spencer, we have too much history together. Don't you worry about it though Hon, you've been through all my shit with me when I came out. It's my turn to be here for you, no matter how long it takes, I promise."
"Thank you Adam." I said leaning into him. "I just feel so weak. I don't do this. I deal with things and get over them. I don't act like this."
"You just found out like three days ago Spence, give yourself time."
"I'm impatient." I whined.
"We all know you are. How bout we watch a movie and get some sleep?" Adam suggested hopping off the couch in search for one.
Alex's POV
It was a full week later, I still hadn't moved on. She haunted my thoughts. No matter what I did, no matter how drunk I got all I could think of was Spencer.
"Alex, we're cutting you off." Rian stated with Jack and Zack flanking him. "You've had way too much to drink. Tomorrow's going to be hell for you."
"No. I can control myself." I said angrily.
"No, you can't you're a mess." He said clearly, trying not to anger me any farther. "I can't stand to see you like this. You barely get any better before you go onstage so you can actually play. Then once we're off you're back with the bottle. It's not healthy."
"Dude, just leave me alone. I can take care of myself, I'm not affecting anything with what I'm doing."
"Yes you are." Jack said quietly.
"Who then Jack? Who the fuck am I affecting?" I yelled at him.
"Dude, calm yourself down. You don't have to yell at him." Zack said protectively.
"Sorry." I grumbled.
"It's fine." Jack responded sadly.
"Well, who am I affecting exactly?" I said my anger returning. "I play every song just as we wrote them, I don't mess them up or play my parts wrong. Then I come in here and leave everyone else to their fun. How can I be affecting anyone?" I stopped myself as I realized I started yelling.
"Alex, it's just…you're not yourself anymore. All of our fans have noticed. You don't joke around much anymore. You barely smile. You don't go out to see our fans. You don't post any new anything for them to read. And they see you moping around." Rian said pointedly.
"It's like you're there but you're not." Zack offered.
"What does that mean?"
"It means you show up. But you're not really there. There's just your body, no more actual Alex." Rian explained.
"Well how can I stop? No matter what I do I feel pain, but I feel the least like this. I can't go a moment without thinking of her. I don't fucking know why either! I knew her for less than a day, less than an hour, and we were less than close. She was just different. I need her back."
"Well then that's what we're going to do. For you, for us, for our fans." Jack said empowered.
"If it was that easy don't you think I would've already done it Jack-o?" I said softly.
"Well before now, you've only been thinking as one, as a drunken mess." Zack said laughing.
"Yeah, maybe we can help dude." Rian said squeezing my shoulder.
"But how? We don't know anything about her except her name Spencer. And where she's from." I said depressed.
"Well how it's a start, there can't be very many girl Spencer's up in Wisconsin that look just like her." Zack pointed out.
"Don't you think I've already tried that?"
"Well, we're going to start there."
Two hours later and we still had nothing.
"What if you put up a video looking for her?" Jack suggested.
"How would she see it?" I asked a tad annoyed.
"Uh, with her eyes maybe?" Zack said.
"Ha, you're funny. I mean how would she know to look at it? If we can't find her or anything…"
"It's the magic of Youtube and the internet my friend." Rian said.
"Alright fine, I'll do it. But give me like, two days." I said taking my last sip of my vodka bottle that had found itself permanently attached to me the last few days.
"Why are you waiting?" Rian asked coming to sit on the couch next to me.
"Well, right now I'm drunk as fuck, and that probably wouldn't really look good. And tomorrow I'll have a massive hangover. So in two days I should be good enough to at least make a video." I said as Rian and Zack came to sit on the floor in front of us.
"Alex, we have a show tomorrow." Jack said hitting my leg.
"I've played with a hangover before…" I said trying to remember if this was true.
"When have you ever played with a hangover Alex?" Zack said laughing.
"I don't know." I said laughing with him.
We spent the rest of the night together messing around like old times. Somehow allowing Jack to convince us to play Sorry and eventually Uno as our bus headed to one of our last shows of this tour.
Spencer's POV
"Adam!" I yelled as I jumped on his bed. "Guess what!" He groaned as he opened his eyes, only to slam them shut due to the bright morning sun. "I figured out what we're going to do today."
"Gah, what kind of torture do you have planned?" he said propping himself up on his elbow.
"If you don't want to do anything, you don't have to." I said my voice heavy with disappointment.
"No, I'm glad you're in such a good mood. What would you like to do today?"
"Yay!" I said excited again. "Let's go to the zoo!"
"Fuck, why so early?"
"Adam, it's almost two." I said very seriously. "I'm bored and impatient."
"Fine, just let me get—hey!" he said, actually opening his eyes "You're not dressed yet."
"I know, I don't know what to wear." I said pouting.
"Fine, let me shower." He said finally getting up.
"Yay!" I said as Adam headed towards the guest bathroom.
"When the fuck did she get so perky?" He mumbled to himself as the water began. I laughed and silently agreed with his confusion.
About an hour later we were both showered and dressed properly for the abnormally hot June weather.
"To the zoo Miss?" he said jokingly as we pulled out of the drive way.
"Yes." I said smiling as I watched out the window.
Alex's POV
"I don't mean to be a bother, but have you seen this girl? She's been running through my dreams and it's driving me crazy, it seems I'm gonna ask her to marry me" I set down my acoustic guitar, "Hey guys, so I'm making this video for two reasons; for one, I'd really like to apologize to all of you guys. Especially, those that have come out to the last few of our shows, I've been really sad and mopey lately. I can't even begin to say how sorry I am. So I'd really like to make it up to you guys, and I don't know if this will but, if you have your ticket stub from the concert send it in to the address in the side bar and I'll be signing pictures for all of you, personally. ...My hand's going to be seriously cramped, but oh well.
'Secondly, there's actually a reason to all of my recent madness, however I give no explanations for the usual chaos. Anyways, we were up playing one of our shows up in Milwaukee Wisconsin and I met this girl. She was unlike any other girl I'd ever met. She totally amazed me, and I'm not easily amazed. She was wicked different and I can't get her out of my mind, which is the reason why I was just singing Remembering Sunday. But anyways my horrible reputation and a certain member from a band on tour with us that happens to have a big mouth kind of ruined it. Ever since then, I can't get her out of my mind. I really like her I don't know why. Ever since then, I've been fucked up…
'Anyways, I made this video because if you know her, Spencer, tell me, please? Or if you're watching this, please just give me a chance. I can't get you out of mind no matter what I do. Please, I'm going crazy Spencer.
'I guess I've successfully made myself look pathetic…that's all I got for you guys today. Thanks for watching, send in your ticket stubs—my hands are dying to start signing pictures for you guys—please, Spencer. Catch ya later guys." I ended the video feeling a mix of annoyed, pathetic, lonely and, surprisingly accomplished. I hit the upload button on youtube; no turning back now, I though to myself.
A few hours later, I checked my youtube inbox. 300 New Messages.
"Now I just have to sift through all the liars…" I said, groaning, to no one in particular.
"Alex!" Jack said crashing into me.
"What?" I asked, caught off guard.
"We're going to get ice cream at that one place." He said happily.
"Wow Jack way to be specific." I said pushing him off me.
"You know that one place we always go to…"
"Oh! Fuck yeah!" I said with excitement, pushing my mac aside. Everyone else was off the bus once Jack and I made our appearance.
"Fuck, could you guys save your gay sex time for when we're not on our way to some place." Rian said as we walked off the bus.
Laughing I said, "Sorry Rian, you know I just can't say no to Jack." I wrapped my arm around Jack's waist and pulled him close making us all crack up again.
"ALEX!" he said swatting my hand away, "Not in public, you know I can't say no once we get started."
Once we were in the ice cream shop we started ordering. This place made the best ice cream, they'd take any ice cream you wanted, mix it together and then mix in any kind of topping.
"Can I have cheesecake and chocolate with Oreos and sprinkles?" Jack ordered. The girl started mixing Jack's order.
"Uh, I want mint chocolate chip and pecan with snickers, please." Rian ordered.
"Sick Rian," Zack commented "Can I get vanilla, cheesecake and coffee with hot fudge on top."
"Well, I'd love it if you could get me the cake mix with chocolate and sprinkles and whipped cream on top." I said realizing I sounded very flirty, I smiled nervously as she fumbled with the ice cream scoops.
"That'll be $22.38." The guy at the register said as I pulled out my wallet.
We sat down at our usual table and talked about the video, our shows, girls, fans, and the usual tour gossip.
Adam's POV [twodayslater]
Gah, I hate resorting to youtube for company. I thought to myself as I surfed through the endless videos.
I was just watching some of Shane Dawson's videos when my email pinged signaling that I had received a new email.
Really?
Andy, my mistake of an ex boyfriend, was the sender.
This should be good. I thought as I opened the email.
Some song I vaguely recognized, followed by Alex (I assumed) rambling on about fucking up.
"I met this girl out in Milwaukee, Spencer."
I stopped listening and grabbed my phone.
"Hello?" Spencer answered hushed.
"you met Alex?!" I asked surprised, happy, confused and slightly pissed.
"Uhm…I know many Alex's." She said avoiding the question.
"No, you know who I'm referring to." I said annoyed.
"I don't have time for this right now Adam." She said annoyed. "I'm at work."
"Fine, when you get home we're talking about this."
"Fine." She hissed.
Spencer's POV
Fuck, how'd he find out? I just wanted to forget that night. Like it never happened. I'd like Alex a lot. When he wasn't an ass…He was sweet and funny. But…what about him? That was all too soon. It happened that night for fuck's sake. I must have just clung to Alex because I needed someone…right?
"Spencer! Order's up." Jim yelled. His chubby fingers pushed table 5's plates towards me. His greasy hair shined in the florescent lights of the kitchen.
"On it." I mumbled grabbing the food and rushing out, fake smile in check.
People are so easy to please, smile, show interest, joke, come frequently, big tip.
So far, two hours into my shift, I had made a good 63 dollars in tips. Gotta love Saturdays, crap loads of people.
My phone vibrated in my little apron, Spence, when's your shift over?
He should know better than to text me at work
I shoved my phone back into my apron.
I made my way towards the back of the small restaurant, checking on my customers as I reached the kitchen.
"Hey sweet thang." Jim said, his voice think with smoke.
"Not in the mood Jim." I said flatly.
"I can change that." he state rubbing his hands over his beer belly, on the verge of pregnant-looking, stomach heading south.
"The only thing you can do to me is make me puke." I said grabbing another round of plates and some refills sodas.
I finished my last few tables and headed out dreading home.
Alex's POV
"This is horrible. Every girl in fucking Wisconsin thinks she can trick me." I said angry. "I'm really not that stupid!" I was complaining again.
"Alex, calm down." Rian begged, interrupted on the phone again. "You'll find her."
I shut up, and began again;
Hey Alex!
'Sorry I was so horrible' delete.
'Alex, Hey I had fun that' delete
Alex, I know Spencer. I'll prove it.
"Now that's more like it." I said out loud
Adam's POV
"…all he wanted was sex Adam. I was in no position for that." Spencer finished her long story, exhausted from work.
"If what he said was true, and we both know it is, he'd want you to move on. You've been blah around here ever other day--"
"I was happy at the zoo." She interrupted.
"Yes you were. Come on give this dude a chance. He's hot and I really don't think it was all about the sex Spence."
"Yes it was. I was just another name to be forgotten."
"Let me show you something." I said pulling up the youtube page.
Alex's POV
Hey Adam,
You've caught my attention. How can you prove it?
Alex
"Dude why do you look like a little kid on Christmas?" Zack asked.
"I think I found someone who knows her."
"How do you know?" He asked skeptically.
"I don't know, I just have a feeling." I offered lamely.
"You and your feelings man." Rian said getting up to leave, phone already pressed to his ear.
"What's that supposed to mean?" I asked, a bit offended.
"When I get back." he said slamming the door shut.
"Fine." I muttered turning back to the computer screen.
One new message
What'd you do to her first. She's my very best friend, and you're one of her favorite bands. I know nothing of you two even meeting…?
ADAM.
Fuck this could be bad.
I decided to tell the truth, it was always the best way. I wrote down all the details as, I remembered them, from that night.
"Alex." Jack called, "We're playing life with Gabe, Pete and Patrick!"
"I call the blue car." I said closing my mac book, thankful for a distraction.
Adam's POV
"How could he want me now?" She asked confused after watching the video. "I mean, I made a total fool out of myself that night."
"Because, maybe, he actually cares?" I offered.
"Please Adam." She said unsatisfied. "These things don't actually happen. Stop reading so much fan fiction." She teased.
"Spencer Leigh!" I said getting annoyed. "How can you still not think he likes you? He made a whole video about you."
"It doesn't prove or mean anything Adam." She said stubbornly.
"How the fuck can you say that?!" I asked agitated.
"It just--" She started.
"No, he was begging, pleading for you to just talk to him. Plus I talked to him. He wants to talk to you."
"Wait you talked to him? About me?!" She said very angry.
"Well yeah…" I said quietly.
"God Adam." She said as she left for her room.
I turned back to my computer
Alex,
Convincing her might be hard…
Spencer's POV
I slammed the door to my bedroom.
How could he do that to me?! I mean, it's my life and Alex was a jerk.
I cranked up my ipod letting Brendon's sweet voice, singing Time To Dance, fill my room.
I laid down on my bed and thought of all the ways the new info I had could affect me
- I don't want to be that fan girl.
- Friends?
No.
-Nothing?
Adam will never let me.
-More problems
Most likely.
-Happily together?
I wish…
I hadn't even realized I was tired as I pondered, my ipod continuing at an incredibly loud setting, until I was fast asleep.
"Alex…" I said tentatively into small space between us (Adam had forced me to see him when he came up on his day off of tour).
"Spencer?" He asked back, his voice thick with disbelief and excitement.
"I'm so sorry Alex." I gushed, tears falling as he gathered me in his arms.
"You have nothing to be sorry for." He whispered as he smoothed my hair down, keeping my head close to his chest, where I could hear his heartbeat.
SixMonthsLater
"Babe, we'll be out on the tour for two weeks before we come back and get you." He said as we laid in our bed, sun streaming in through the huge windows. "As soon as you get done with work."
"Sounds perfect." I said smiling, my head on his chest and our hands laced.
"I'll miss you." He said pulling me a little closer.
"I know, I will too." he kissed my head. "Now get up lazy, you've got to get out of here soon." He laughed and we both got up.
"Can we shower together Spencer?" He pouted. "Pretty please?"
"Um," I said, unsure if I wanted to get into what could possibly a very long steamy shower. "Sure, but you can't take all day." I said laughing and following him into the small blue bathroom.
After the shower was over we dried off and set off to get dressed.
He met me in the kitchen with literally six bags. "Alex…that's not a lot of stuff or anything." I said laughing.
"Hey. It's a long time Spencer." He said laughing and planting a wet sloppy kiss on my cheek.
"I know." I said quietly. He held me close kissing my head. "When are the boys getting here?"
"Soon." he said as he pulled me closer.
Shortly after we heard someone attacking our front door with their fists. "I'll get it." I said quietly as he let me go.
"SPENCER!" Jack called tackling me with his hug. "Good morning sunshine."
"Mornin' Jack-O" I said smiling.
"Bags. Bus. Go." Jack instructed Alex who silently followed the orders. "Spence, do you have a red bull I can steal?"
"Yeah, Alex always has a supply of them. Fridge."
"Spence!" Zack said walking up towards me.
"Zack!" I said very happy to see him. We had been getting close ever since Alex and I got together.
"We're going to miss you girl." He said, I laughed.
"I'm going to miss you guys too. It's going to be too damn quiet around her without you animals running around here, eating everything and practicing, loudly." We laughed.
"Spencer," Rian said walking up to us. "sure you can't just miss work?"
"If I could I would've done that ages ago Ri."
"Gah well hurry up on that project, or whatever it is, so you can come."
"Yeah, the merch booth is going to be nuts without your services." Jack added in as he and Alex walked up to us.
"Kara's already complaining." Rian added.
"Aw, tell her I'm sorry." I said feeling bad.
"It's ok, she'll manage." He said. "But we have to get going guys…we need to be in Maine by tomorrow."
We all said our good-byes, receiving hugs from all the boys. "Spencer, be careful. I'm worried about leaving you here all alone." Alex said seriously.
"Alex. I'm going to be fine. I'm staying in our house not in some tent in the Blair Witch Woods." I said trying to make him laugh.
"Alright, well I'm going to miss you." He said pulling me into a hug.
"I'll miss you too babe." I said tipping my head up to kiss his lips.
"I'll call." he said when we finally pulled apart.
"Okay." I said standing on the porch watching them all go, before I had to get ready to start my time alone by going to work.
Four days later
I spent my time busy with my work along with hanging out with Kaiden; Zack's sister and Paul from Boys Like Girls' girlfriend. We met through the boys and had become fast friends.
"Spencer, how long has Alex been gone?" Kaiden asked as she sipped her coffee with me on the back porch.
"About four days." I said, trying to hide my discomfort, watching the clouds.
"And he hasn't called at all?" She asked, suddenly upset.
"Nope, not once." I said emotionless.
"That's weird. Zack was acting really weird when I tried to call him the other day to see how the first show had gone. It's pretty much our tradition I guess, but he seemed annoyed I'd even called; like I was bothering him."
"I'm sorry," I said sincerely as we walked into the house to refill our cups. "They must just be busy, getting back into the tour schedule again."
"You're probably right." She said still bothered. "You okay?" She asked, catching me off-guard.
"Yeah, I'm fine, why wouldn't I be?"
"You just seem a bit unattached, besides it is kind of the first time you've been apart for so long."
"It really is only two weeks Kaidy." I said trying to sound confident in my answer.
"You're point…" She said, knowing me far too well.
"Well, I guess I am a bit disappointed he didn't call. He did promise… But I'm sure he has a reason. He's just busy. Right?"
"Most likely." She said smiling.
One Week Later.
It was almost two weeks into the tour and still no call from Alex. I was trying to give him his space, I trusted him.
It was about seven at night, I was just blaring music, cleaning around the house, getting ready to leave once the boys got back, when my phone rang. I checked the caller ID to see a very familiar face; Rian. "Rian!" I said, happy to hear from one of them.
"Hey Spencer." he replied, less enthusiastic. "How are you?"
"I'm good, a little busy getting ready to leave and work." I said as I turned down the music.
"Oh, well that's good, how's it going?"
"Well, it's work, but at least it's keeping me distracted." I said as I sat down on one of the big puffy couches. "How's the tour?"
"Great! The shows are amazing, the fans are just going crazy and it's great to be back with old friends."
"That's terrific Ri!" I said genuinely happy.
"So Spencer, I kind of have something to tell you…"
"Shoot Ri."
"Well…Alex, he kind of...cheated on you." my heart began to pound, I felt weak and dizzy. I couldn't form words. "I'm really sorry Spencer.
"It's fine. I have to go." I said emotionlessly, allowing the line to go dead before I broke down.
I snapped awake, slapping a stray tear from my cheek.
Nope, that defiantly wouldn't work.
Alex's POV
I read Adam's message carefully.
Please keep trying.
-Alex
"Alex!" Jack yelled into the bus from the door "Stage ten minutes."
"On my way." I said willing myself to forget about the situation. I was trying to change my behavior for the fans.
Inside the venue we huddled, the four of us on the side of the stage.
"Kick ass!" Zack commented on the amount of fans we had huddled together against the stage.
The lights went out and the screaming started. Rian ran out onto the stage and sat at his drum set.
Zack and Jack were next, they ran out and grabbed their instruments; the crowd screamed louder.
I ran out, the lights come back on and we all launch into Six Feet Under The Stars as the crowd's going nuts.
We moved around the stage, having a blast, working up the crowd as we switch into our new song Weightless.
The kids that new the song sang at the top of their lungs, the rest jumping around moving to the new song that only lyrical geniuses, like us, could come up with.
"Hello Oregon!" I called out "Yall are looking sexy out there."
"Alex, they're all sweaty." Jack teased.
"Dude, how could they not be? It's fucking hot. Are you guys hot?" The crowd screamed in response. "See?"
"Aye, anyone want some water?" Zack called out after taking a swig of his. The crowd screamed. He through the bottle.
"Zack, sick. Germs…" Jack said, making us laugh.
"Calm the fuck down kid, it's all good." I said laughing.
"You guys, I'm pretty sure they didn't come here to hear you talk." Zack reminded us.
"Right, any of you fuckers know our song Coffee Shop Soundtrack?" I called out, making the crowd scream, again. I smiled. "Think they wanna hear it Jack-O?"
"I don't know, do you guys?" He asked, they screamed, we launched into the song.
"Okay, for this next one, I want to see a huge circle pit. I want to see all you fuckers moshing." I said as I watched the crowd waiting for at least an attempt
"Alex, I don't think they know what a circle is. How bout you guys form a square?" Jack offered.
"Jack! No squares. What a ridiculous idea. Now a triangle, that might work." the crowd laughed as we joked.
"I don't think they know their shapes guys." Zack said into his mic.
"Can we get an isosceles triangle pit?" Jack asked as the crowd laughed with us.
"Jack, what the fuck?" I asked laughing.
"I think they need help dude." Zack said at the failed triangle. I pointed at three guys and told them they were the points of the triangle.
"Corner one with the blue hat. You do not know what triangles are do you?" I said into the mic. "This man is on drugs! Someone arrest him."
"Anyone want to hear Dear Maria?" Jack asked. The crowd screamed.
"This is our last song guys, you were amazing!" I said before I started playing. "Good night guys. We love you." I called before leaving.
We went back out for the encore after three minutes of pure screaming and chanting of 'ATL'. We finished with Jasey Rae.
Once we had spent a little over an hour with our fans outside, taking pictures and signing crap for as long as we could we headed back into our bus, taking off for the next city.
After I pulled off my sweaty clothes, I grabbed my Mac book and checked my messages. Hoping for something new; no luck.
Oh well, time for sleep. To the bunks!
Adam's POV
I read Alex's message once me and Spencer got back from a party our friend Elizabeth had thrown.
I'll try, you don't know how stubborn she can be.
Adam
"Spencer Leigh!" I called towards the kitchen where she was attempting to make hot dogs.
"Adam Peerce Young! I am making hot dogs, what do you want?"
"I want your skinny ass to talk to Alex so I don't have to."
"Adam, I'm not going to, he's just pouting because the rock star didn't get his way." She called continuing to fumble around in the kitchen.
"I really don't think you're right." I said as she slammed the fridge door, most likely for ketchup. "Come on Spencer, just once? For me?" I asked giving her puppy dog eyes.
"I don't know Adam…" I started to say something in response but she cut me off with, "I want to sleep. And eat my hot dogs."
"Fine. Lets go to your room and watch TV until you're done."
"No, Adam. I don't need to you take care of me."
"You can't even speak straight. Please, let me?"
"Adam…"
"Fine. I'll let you go. Don't come crying to me though when you wake up in ketchup."
Spencer's POV
"Fuck my head." I groaned when I woke up, still dressed in my jeans and my bra from last night. Looks like I got halfway through. I thought as I glanced up to see the half eaten hot dog in my face.
I got up and went towards the kitchen where Adam had set out water and aspirin. "Thank you." I said aloud as I downed the pills.
Where are you…? I thought as I made my way back to my room to take a much needed shower.
After it was over I got out and started my ipod, which happily started to play nevershoutnever's Big City Dreams.
I walked around my cluttered purple room attempting to get ready for work.
About a half an hour later I was on my way to work for a very long shift with Weightless blaring from my car speakers.
Alex's POV
"You know what, I'm going to go there." I said determined.
"Go where…" Zack asked absently as he and Jack played one of the many games we owned.
"Milwaukee."
"Does she live in Milwaukee?" Jack asked.
"I guess I'll find out.' I said smiling.
"When are you going?" Rian asked coming out of his bunk.
"Weren't you talking to Kara…?" I asked, surprised he had been paying attention.
"I was." He smirked, I do not want to know. "When man?' he asked sitting down next to me on the couch.
"Three days." I said.
"You're not going home?" Jack asked, now ignoring the game.
"I don't want to put it off any longer. I can't believe I didn't think of this before; I could've done something so much sooner."
"What about Sebastian?" Jack asked as Sebastian jumped off my bunk; as if on cue.
"He can come with me." I said as I started looking for tickets.
"Do you realize how expensive this will be?" Rian asked as he read over my shoulder.
"Yep, don't care." I said, finally finding a plane for a reasonable time.
"Maybe you should think about this a little dude…" Zack suggested.
"Already have." I said clicking on a seat in coach, Please don't let any fans sit next to me…
"Well…good luck then." Zack said sincerely getting back to the game.
"Thanks." I said as I logged into my e-mail.
Hey Adam,
I know it's crazy but this is my last attempt, I'm coming up there in three days. I've gotta try. If she doesn't want me at all then, I'll stop trying.
- Alex
Later that day
Last night before I see her. I thought before I stepped on stage.
"Hello Montanna!" I yelled after Break Out [x2] was over. "How yall doing tonight?" They screamed "What…? I don't think I could heart you guys. How. Are. You. Doing?!" The massive amounts of screaming started before I could finish. "That's more like it. I'm All Time Low, and this is Alex Gaskarth." The crowd became a mixture of screams and laughter. "Anyone want to hear a new song?" The crowd screamed.
"Fuck, I don't think they're dedicated enough Alex." Jack said after it died down a bit.
"Aye, do any of you want to hear a new song!" I yelled into the mic. The crowd erupted. "That's more like it. This is Weightless."
The concert proceeded like normal. Same music, same banter between songs, same screaming fans. Don't get me wrong, I love every minute of it; I'm just anxious.
"Thanks guys, you were amazing. We love you." I yelled into the mic and ran off stage. We'd already done our encore.
The lights went on as I was walking into the dressing room. All three guys still way behind me.
I plopped my ass down in a huge chair that was, surprisingly, comfortable.
"Did you see her too?" Jack asked laughing as he came into the room.
"Yeah, it took everything in me to not laugh." Zack responded.
"God, I never see anything in the back." Rian whined.
"I'm kind of lost…" I admitted.
"There was this girl crowd surfing, and she was waving at us so…enthusiastically that she fell out of the pit." Jack said laughing at the memory.
"it was quite funny." Zack added, changing.
Once we were all done we headed outside to our own personal stampede of fans.
"Alex!" A fan, that was wicked short with short curly black hair, called out.
"What." I yelled like it was an inconvenience to talk to her. It only made her laugh harder. It was a really cute laugh by the way…No. I silently chastised myself.
"Have you found your Spencer yet?" She asked, not disgusted like most of the girls that had asked me the same question.
"Um, yes. I have." I said, distracted by posters being shoved in my face to be signed.
"That's terrific!" She said, genuinely…?
"Okay, I do not get it." I stated confused. "All cockiness aside, what the fuck? You're happy I found someone else? That's not…normal fan girl…behavior."
"I'm a fan of the music. Your happiness, I'm grateful for, for the same reason I'm happy for my friend and her new boyfriend. I also know the likely hood of us getting together…along with the fact that I like Zack better." She blushed at this.
"Well thank you." I said taken aback.
"Just got dissed, Gaskarth." Zack said coming up behind me.
"Excuse me, I do believe she said that she was happy for me." I defended myself.
"Yeah but she likes me better." Zack teased.
She just stood there blushing and in awe at what she was witnessing.
"By the way, what's your name?" I asked curiously.
"Summer." She added quietly.
"I like that." Zack added, making her blush.
I decided to let them talk after a few uncomfortable minutes of being ignored. I headed over towards Jack and Rian who were surrounded by only a few fans.
"Aloha ladies, and Rian." I said laughing.
"Hey!" Jack cried, I just laughed.
"Gaskarth, you're such an ass." Rian said laughing.
"Eh, are you surprised?" I asked knowing the answer. We finished up with the remaining girls, signing stuff and taking pictures. Then headed towards the bus to wait for Zack to finish his conversation with Summer.
Spencer's POV
"Spencer, you're coming out with me tonight." Isabella, my co-worker and long time friend stated as we walked out of the restaurant.
"Oh, um…I don't really want to go out tonight." I stated digging around my purse for my keys.
"Come on, pretty please Spencer? We all miss you."
"It's not you, or any of the other girls…I just don't feel like going out."
"Spencer." She said grabbing my shoulder, turning me to face her. "You're not the same anymore. What happened?"
"Nothing." I lied in my I'm-fine voice that I had perfected over the weeks. She didn't know, I couldn't hold it against her. Only Adam knew.
"You know, I thought we were friends. But all of a sudden you wont even talk to me. What the fuck Spencer?" She started yelling.
I fought back the urge to run into my car and hide. But we were, we are, friends. and I've already done enough to jeopardize that, I just...can't go out. I'm sorry Izzy, I don't know, I'm just out of it lately." I said my eyes on the everywhere but her eyes.
"M'kay." She said uninterested as she walked to her car.
"I'll see you tomorrow…" I attempted, though I knew wouldn't help.
"Yep." She said flashing a fake smile at me.
I took that as my cue to leave.
I drove home listening to my newest mix CD, Bring Me The Horizon filling the small space, a few stray tears rebelled against my attempt and rolled down my cheeks.
"Adam? I called once I got home.
I threw my bag down next to the chest in the hallway that hld the key dish. I hung up my sweatshirt and headed towards the kitchen.
"Where are you?" I questioned, more to myself, quietly.
In the kitchen, I stopped at the island to look for some sort of note in the piles of paper.
Hey Spence,
I have a friend coming over. Went to pick him up. We're going to drop his stuff off and then head for food.
Hope you'll come,
Adam
"Oh boy, house full of gay men." I said chuckling at the image as I headed towards the shower in my bedroom.
When I was done, I quickly changed into dinner clothes and checked my online accounts.
Almost 45 minutes later Adam had returned, "Spencer!" He bellowed into the apartment.
"What?" I asked, coming out of my room smiling.
"I, uh, hate to ask this but…do you think you could entertain my friend, maybe just talk with him for a little bit? Work called, I have to go fix something with one of the machines." he rushed.
"Hmm…" I said pondering how awkward this could potentially be. "Sure Adam, I'll do it." I said as he wrapped me in a huge hug.
"Thank you so much Spencer!" he said happy.
"Only for you." I said once I was safely on the ground.
"Good, I love you. Thank you so much! He should be up soon." He said as he rushed to grab his few things and get out the door.
"Bye," I said quietly shutting the door. I decided to return to my lovely mac that waited for me in my room. I was hoping I could finish with the overflow of ignored messages and comments until whoever Adam's friend was knocked on the door. "Coming." I called commanding the computer shut down before I stood. "Coming." I said again as I was closer to the door.
I opened the door and there he stood, leaning against the frame. "Spencer…?" he asked unsure.
"Alex?" I asked annoyed and confused.
"Yeah, um hi." He said nervous, running his hand through his dark hair.
"You're Adam's friend? The one I'm supposed to be watching?" I asked trying to figure out what had really happened. He nodded. "Great."
"Sorry for the disappointment, he invited me here so I could actually say what I need to say." He said, taking on an annoyed tone as well.
"Well, go ahead." I said as we stood in the doorway.
"Mind if I come in and say it…?"
"Yeah, sure." I said stepping aside to let him in.
We sat down on the couch, not saying a word to each other. I sat on the edge, my legs bouncing fast. I was nervous. He sat, deep in thought, staring off into the distance.
"You wanted to talk about something…?" I encouraged him.
"Yeah, so I guess this is really my last attempt at anything really. I want you to hear me out and keep an open mind I guess."
I nodded, "I can do that."
"Alright, thank you. So tour's over, and I'm kind of ditching all my family, friends to come up here and talk to you. That's how hung up I've been over you. And I know it's ridiculous, I only knew you for a night, but I really just connected with you. I wanted to talk to you more than I wanted anything. I liked you, I like you Spencer. You're not just another challenge. Or at least you didn't start off as one." He chuckled at his own joke; I couldn't help joining in. "I'm glad you laughed, I was afraid you were going to take it wrong. I messed up, I'm sorry. Give me a chance? It's all I'm asking. I'm not even asking you to just jump in and be my girlfriend, I want to get to know you I guess, please?" As he talked I carefully watched his face, waiting for a sign that he was lying.
When I found none I spoke, "Wow, that's a lot to think about Alex. Mind if I think on it?"
"Uh, no go ahead." He smiled.
"Thank you." I got up, in a daze over everything he had said to me.
"Thank you for listening." He said sincerely before I shut the door.