Disclaimers: None of the Weib Kreuz characters belong to me even though I
wish they would. Please do not sue me I am not gaining anything from this.
I am only a poor college student writing some fiction about the cutest
bishonens out there.
Author: Max Ikari
Pairings: Yohji/Aya for now. I am still deciding on the other pairing.
Gomen.
Warnings: NC-17, Lemon, Non-consensual sex, violence, adult language, adult
situations, some AU.
Genre: Angst, romance, some sap.
[ ] Inner thoughts
/ / Mind Talking
One Art
Prologue
One Art
The art of losing isn't hard to master; so many things seem filled with the intent to be lost that their loss is no disaster.
Lose something every day. Accept the fluster of lost door keys, the hour badly spent. The art of losing isn't hard to master.
Then practice losing a father, losing faster: places, and names, and where it was you meant to travel. None of these will bring disaster.
I lost my mother's watch. And look! My last, or next-to-last, of three loved houses went The art of losing isn't hard to master.
I lost two cities, lovely ones. And, vaster, some realms I owned, two rivers, a continent. I miss them, but it wasn't a disaster.
Even losing you (the joking voice, a gesture I love) I shan't have lied. It's evident The art of losing's not too hard to master Though it may look like (Write it!) like disaster.
Elizabeth Bishop
Summer of 1995
" Ohayo! Come back and visit us soon!" said Kahori, a blonde petit girl that had just turned 16. " If you think I am going to talk that way you are crazy," said Goushi who had been watching the whole spectacle with dread, arms crossed above his chest. Goushi was a young man of 16 that had blue eyes and black hair. He was lean giving him a more youthful appearance. " Oh, come on!" said Kahori. " It's not that bad. You make it sound like I am making a fool of myself." Goushi's perfectly arched eyebrow twitched upward at the comment but said nothing. Instead he said: " Ran, would you talk that way?" " No," said Ran seriously from the desk where he was checking the orders. " Ran, you are not supposed to say that. You are always supposed to agree with a girl," said Kahori coming up to hug Ran from his back. " It is bad manners, I will tell your okaasan." " Go ahead," said Ran not looking up from the order papers. " That's the spirit!" laughed Goushi. " Don't let her blackmail you into being nice to her. The little ogre should learn to be better behaved." " Who are you calling an ogre?" said Kahori voice dangerously low. You could almost see fire emanating from her body. Thankfully Ran helped calm the furious girl. " Kahori you shouldn't listen to him. You are a beautiful girl," said Ran quietly. Kahori beamed and nodded her head vigorously. " You should listen to Ran, Goushi. He knows how to appreciate beauty not like other people." said Kahori hands on hips grinning triumphantly. Goushi was about to mock her when he saw someone at the window. " Ohayo! How may I help you?" asked Goushi pretending not to see the smiles on both Ran and Kahori. " Ohayo, I was wondering what's the day's special," said Asuka. Goushi blushed when he saw the woman. He always blushed when given attention by a woman. Of course that didn't include Kahori whom he had basically grown up with. " Well it is curry," said Goushi trying to seem professional. " Umm, let's see.Yohji come here please?" said Asuka waving at the man pacing outside the restaurant. Yohji entered the restaurant looking around him. He didn't seem happy to say the least. " Don't make that face Yohji. It won't be that bad, besides these guys seem nice," said Asuka smiling at Yohji. Yohji looked at the kids and settled on Ran. The boy had such a strange hair color. Kahori saw Yohji eyeing Ran and said cheerfully, " That's Ran and yes it is natural." Yohji smiled awkwardly when he saw Goushi and Ran turn to look at him. " Gomenasai, I didn't mean to be rude," said Yohji seriously. " It's okay, every body that sees Ran does the same thing. He is used to it by now," said Goushi obviously amused at Yohji's discomfort. " Ran? Aren't you bothered by this?" asked Asuka eyeing him. Her gaze was so full of compassion, that Ran had to smile. " Iie, I am used to it by now," said Ran smiling. " So do you know what you are going to order?" "Ran! Don't be rude," said Kahori. " You must forgive him, he left his manners at school." " It's okay. There is curry today, what do you think?" asked Asuka turning to see Yohji. " That's fine. Not like I have much choice," said Yohji smiling. " Okay, so two curry plates it is. That will be 800 yen," said Goushi who was giving the order to Ran. Ran turned to go to the kitchen and give the order to the restaurant owner Buchida, Eishi. The man's family had been running the restaurant for almost two generations, however, now with bigger restaurants it was more difficult to keep afloat. " Buchida sensei," said Ran smiling. " We got another order. Two orders of curry." " Hai, Ran-san," said Mr. Buchida going to prepare the curry. " It will be ready in a moment," said Ran coming up to the register. " Arigato," said Asuka while she and Yohji looked for a place to sit. After they served Asuka and Yohji their food, the three teenagers went ahead with their afternoon and forgot all about them.
April 21, 1996
" I am so exhausted!" sighed Goushi as Ran, Kahori, Aya walked home. " This is like the worst day in my life." " Could that be because you didn't study for your test?" asked Ran not looking at him. " Ran! You are a pain in the ass," said Goushi obviously offended. " Besides the professor doesn't like me. It's almost like hate." " Uh,uh," said Kahori smiling. " And I am Cleopatra, queen of the Nile." Kahori and Aya laughed together at this. " Kahori! Ran help me here," said Goushi. " No, you dug that hole yourself," said Ran smiling at Goushi. " Besides I have to be nice to Aya, her birthday is this weekend." " Oh yeah. Dammit," said Goushi muttering quietly. He had forgotten to get Aya a birthday present and knew that Ran would be offended if he didn't get anything. " You didn't forget did you?" asked Kahori mischievously. Goushi slightly jumped at the well-aimed jab. Oh, that girl was going to get it when he got his hands on her. " No, no.I just remembered something else," said Goushi. " I will catch up with you later. See ya." Goushi left toward his house, which was about two blocks away from his own. Kahori was Goushi's neighbor but she was spending the night with Aya. Ran only hoped both of them would leave him alone this time. Last time.Ran just shuddered at the memory. " It will be so much fun, don't you think oniichan?" asked Aya sweetly. Ran already knew her tactics, act sweet and then turn on him. He learned his lesson the first time. " I guess. I am going out in a while, have to go to the library," said Ran off handedly. " But Ran." said Aya until Kahori elbowed her to be quiet. " I know you guys wanted to do something to me. So I am leaving," said Ran smiling. " Maybe next time you will be luckier." After dinner Ran left his house and started walking to the library. He was supposed to go with Goushi but the idiot wanted to watch wrestling. Ran could see why Goushi would rather stay home. He would if he weren't afraid of being attacked by those two girls. Sighing Ran started picking up the pace, it was almost 9pm and he would rather be in the library right now than walking the silent streets. About a block away from the library he heard a moan when he was rounding the corner. Stopping Ran cocked his head in an attempt to see if he heard right. Silence. Shrugging it off as nervousness Ran kept on walking until he passed a dark alley and heard the moan again. There was a moaning sound and the rustling of some kind. [Oh, gods. What if it is a murderer? Or a ghost?] Ran stopped feeling the blood freeze in his veins. [It's my fault for listening to that baka. What did he say? That ghosts moan and you can hear the dragging of their chains.] Ran whimpered at that thought [Ghost don't exist. I know that. It is only your imagination Ran. Stop being stupid.] " Hello? Anybody there?" asked Ran hating the way his voice sounded. Walking a little bit closer toward the entry of the alley he repeated again. " Hello? Goushi if that's you knock it off." Nothing. Shrugging Ran decided to get out of there as fast as he could. That's when he heard it; it wasn't moaning it was more like a groan. It sounded so close to him, almost in front of him. Searching his pack Ran came out with a bottle of maze and a small flashlight. Taking a deep breath, he flashed it into the alley and there in a pile of garbage laid a blonde man. He was unconscious.
" Hey wake up, you are bleeding. I can't do anything for you if you don't wake up," said Ran trying to get the guy to wake up. Yohji came awake in degrees. First he didn't know where he was but little by little he came aware of his surroundings, the voice questioning him, and the pain. Groaning Yohji put a hand on his abdomen to stop the bleeding. Turning toward the shaky voice, Yohji noticed the boy. He was sure he had seen that face before but couldn't place him. " Sir, you are bleeding. We should go to a hospital," said Ran trying not to show how afraid he was. " I-I know where the hospital is, I could take you there." Yohji snorted at this which made him clutch at his abdomen again in pain. " Kid, I can't go to the hospital. People will wonder how I got shot." " Oh, gods," said Ran starting to back away. [I bet he just murdered somebody and I am a witness] " I-I-I swear I didn't see a thing. Actually I am supposed to be at the library. I-I will just be on my way," said Ran trying to escape the situation. Yohji could just see the fear on the boy's eyes. Almost at the same time he noticed the bottle of maze the boy had in his hands. [Oh, great now I am going to get maze on my face] " You shouldn't play with that. Someone might get hurt," said Yohji smiling faintly. " Please if you could take me to a hospital I would be much obliged." Ran looked at him suspiciously before nodding once and crouching so Yohji would be able to use him as a crutch. " By the way I am Yohji," said Yohji smiling faintly. Ran eyed him as recognition seemed to seep into his eyes. " You are that guy." said Ran before he decided not to say anything. Getting into a cab Ran took Yohji to the nearest hospital.
Yohji could feel the effects of the morphine in his body. His body felt unnaturally relaxed making it easier to deal with what had happened to Asuka. Asuka. Every time he closed his eyes he could still see her fall, and every time he saw her fall he blamed himself about it. He could hear the voices of their persecutors and how they had taken the life of the one he loved. Damn them. Even if it was the last thing he ever did in life he was going to avenge her. Opening his eyes he was startled when he saw the young boy beside his bed looking at him with concern. " How are you feeling?" asked Ran quietly. He looked around not very comfortable at being in a hospital. The last time he had been at the hospital was to get a tetanus shot and that wasn't a very good memory. " You are still here?" asked Yohji incredulously. " What will your parents say about this?" Yohji could see the comment sink in and Ran almost bolt out of the chair. " Oh, gods my parents." said Ran putting a hand to his chest not knowing what to do. " Go home your parents are bound to be worried," said Yohji patting Ran's arm to get him to go. Right now he wanted to be alone anyway. " But---what about your family? Any friends I can call and let them know you are here?" asked Ran taking out a little notebook to make some notes. Yohji's eyes narrowed slightly. " How did you get in here? I believe only family is allowed." " Umm, yeah. I kind of told them I was your cousin," said Ran looking down. " They wouldn't believe I was your brother you know with the hair and all.are you mad?" Yohji looked at Ran and bursted out laughing. Ran eyes narrowed at Yohji's laughter thinking that the blonde was laughing at him. " What's so funny?" asked Ran dangerously low. " What is your name again?" asked Yohji when he was done laughing. " Fujimiya, Ran," said Ran staring at Yohji not happy at all. " Sorry Ran didn't mean to do that, you just made it sound like you were committing a felony,' said Yohji amused. " For me it is!" hissed Ran. " I have never done anything like this before." " Why are you doing this?" asked Yohji seriously. " Well.you seemed lonely," said Ran quietly. " My friend Goushi hounds me when I am lonely so I just thought I would return the favor." Yohji looked at the boy and noticed how serious he seemed. Like he wasn't sure about himself almost shy. Up close he noticed the shade of his eyes, violet. Cute kid. Yohji was an open bisexual but he just didn't do kids. If the boy had been a little older maybe.still the kid looked like a lost puppy.however when he grew up a little he would be hot. " What's wrong?" asked Ran when he saw Yohji staring at him. " Nothing. I was just seeing the color of your eyes. I don't believe I have ever seen that color," said Yohji grinning. " I guess you always learn something new." " Um so do you have any friends I can call?" asked Ran shifting in his seat. " Not anymore," said Yohji quietly. " Oh, I-I am sorry," said Ran seriously. " Well I've got to go but I will come visit you tomorrow after school." " Don't bother I will be gone by then," said Yohji not feeling like talking after remembering Asuka. " But the doctor said." said Ran seriously. " You are not supposed to leave the hospital before." " Look kid." said Yohji stopping when he saw that the kid was angry. " You almost died out there. I didn't help you so you could get killed because you are stubborn," said Ran angry. " If he said you should stay, I think you should. Please." Yohji wanted to say no but he really didn't have the heart and besides he was exhausted. " Okay, I will stay," said Yohji defeated. " Thank you. I will come see you tomorrow. Anything you want?" asked Ran before leaving. " How about some cigarettes?" asked Yohji. " Oh forget it I don't think you can buy them you are still too young." " I-I can get a friend to help me," said Ran blushing slightly. " Oh the rebel. Would that be your friend Goushi?" asked Yohji grinning. " Hai," said Ran not looking up from the floor. " Well then, please do. I am going to die in here if I don't get a cigarette and since you are forcing me to stay here you may as well do me a favor," said Yohji lying back in the pillow and closing his eyes. " Ok, goodnight Yohji-kun," said Ran and left the room. When Ran left Yohji wished he were back to help chase away the nightmares he had of Asuka.
When Ran had gotten home it was close to 2am and his father had not been happy. When Ran told him he had helped a friend to the hospital he didn't get as punished. Instead of total house arrest, (what his father said he was going to give him) he had a curfew of 9pm for the next two months. However, Ran was starting to think that it was going to become longer when he got reprimanded in class for falling asleep. Oh well. He was now on his way to the hospital after having begged Goushi to get him some cigarettes. The baka had enjoyed seeing Ran squirm in embarrassment. That was until Ran had said he was going to tell everybody about the time he hid in the girls locker room. Goushi got him the cigarettes pretty fast. Ran didn't know why he was being so nice to Yohji, the guy didn't need his help and truth be told he had made Yohji stay an extra day in the hospital because he didn't want the blonde to leave. Reaching Yohji's room he was surprised to see the room empty. Ran's breath caught in his throat and his heart did a lurch. [He's gone. I can't blame him, he just said he would stay to make me feel better.] Ran felt very depressed after that. Reaching the elevator he pressed the button for the first floor. He walked out of the hospital thinking whether Yohji was okay or if he was forced to leave out of fear. [Maybe the people that shot him caught up with him] That thought almost made Ran's heart stop. Where would Yohji be? Last night the guy had survived because Ran happened to be in the area, but what if Yohji was bleeding his life out somewhere? Oh, gods he hoped that wasn't true. He reached into his pockets reaching for the pack of cigarettes. [What am I supposed to do with these? If okaasan ran into these.] The redhead kept walking until he saw a trashcan and as he was about to throw them away a hand reached out to grab his wrist. " Don't. Are you crazy?" said Yohji looking at Ran surprised. Ran couldn't talk, he had been so startled that he had wanted to scream but it came out as a groan. Yohji turned to look at him and noticed that the boy was as white as a sheet. " Oi, are you okay?" said Yohji grinning. Ran took control of himself and managed to shove Yohji hard. " Don't do that! You nearly killed me," hissed Ran angrily. " Where were you?" " Hey, hey I was coming to pick my cigarettes. Besides the doc said I could leave. You wouldn't want someone else to die because I had their place," said Yohji prying the cigarettes out of Ran's hand. " Sorry," said Ran quietly. " I-I thought you lied to me." " I did," said Yohji " But hey I had nowhere else to go, and I had to come say goodbye." " Goodbye? Where are you going?" asked Ran.
" Oi, you would think you had some kind of claim to me. Good thing you are a guy," grinned Yohji while he lighted a cigarette. " I am leaving. Got a good proposition and I accepted." " Oh," said Ran looking down at his shoes. They grew into an awkward silence both not knowing what to do. " You want to get some coffee? Kind of payment for helping me," said Yohji quietly. Ran only nodded. He felt sad that the guy was leaving. Yohji picked a coffeehouse that was about 15 min away from the hospital. Ran had been silent ever since he found out Yohji was leaving. They drank the coffee in silence, Yohji sometimes asking questions while Ran answered seriously. By now the blonde knew almost everything about him, and he didn't know a thing. Afterwards they had walked back to Ran's house, but stopped in a park about 5 blocks away. Yohji sat at a bench and Ran followed suit. " Um, I know this may sound strange but I was wondering if I would ever see you again," said Ran looking up at Yohji seriously. Yohji gave him a look he didn't recognize before answering. " I don't get involved with kids," said Yohji quietly, cigarette on his hand. " If you where older maybe." Ran blushed furiously at this and stared at the hands in his lap. He hadn't thought he was being that obvious. " Gomen," said Ran quietly trying not to sound hurt. It was a silly crush anyways. He had felt needed and even though he had friends and his sister they didn't need him. He wanted to feel needed. Ran felt a small caress on his cheek and he turned wide eyes at Yohji. " You are really very beautiful but I just can't right now.I promise I will look you up sometime," said Yohji getting up. " Don't look so miserable kid, it's not the end of the world." Ran tried to smile but he didn't feel happy enough to smile and before he knew it a small kiss was planted on his lips and just like that it ended. " I promise I will see you again Ran," said Yohji before turning and getting into a dark car that was parked at the curb. Ran saw the car leave and he gave a little smile. " I know you will Yohji-kun," whispered Ran before heading home. Ran felt happy and didn't think anything could ruin his mood, however, on Aya-chan's birthday he learned better.
One Art
Prologue
One Art
The art of losing isn't hard to master; so many things seem filled with the intent to be lost that their loss is no disaster.
Lose something every day. Accept the fluster of lost door keys, the hour badly spent. The art of losing isn't hard to master.
Then practice losing a father, losing faster: places, and names, and where it was you meant to travel. None of these will bring disaster.
I lost my mother's watch. And look! My last, or next-to-last, of three loved houses went The art of losing isn't hard to master.
I lost two cities, lovely ones. And, vaster, some realms I owned, two rivers, a continent. I miss them, but it wasn't a disaster.
Even losing you (the joking voice, a gesture I love) I shan't have lied. It's evident The art of losing's not too hard to master Though it may look like (Write it!) like disaster.
Elizabeth Bishop
Summer of 1995
" Ohayo! Come back and visit us soon!" said Kahori, a blonde petit girl that had just turned 16. " If you think I am going to talk that way you are crazy," said Goushi who had been watching the whole spectacle with dread, arms crossed above his chest. Goushi was a young man of 16 that had blue eyes and black hair. He was lean giving him a more youthful appearance. " Oh, come on!" said Kahori. " It's not that bad. You make it sound like I am making a fool of myself." Goushi's perfectly arched eyebrow twitched upward at the comment but said nothing. Instead he said: " Ran, would you talk that way?" " No," said Ran seriously from the desk where he was checking the orders. " Ran, you are not supposed to say that. You are always supposed to agree with a girl," said Kahori coming up to hug Ran from his back. " It is bad manners, I will tell your okaasan." " Go ahead," said Ran not looking up from the order papers. " That's the spirit!" laughed Goushi. " Don't let her blackmail you into being nice to her. The little ogre should learn to be better behaved." " Who are you calling an ogre?" said Kahori voice dangerously low. You could almost see fire emanating from her body. Thankfully Ran helped calm the furious girl. " Kahori you shouldn't listen to him. You are a beautiful girl," said Ran quietly. Kahori beamed and nodded her head vigorously. " You should listen to Ran, Goushi. He knows how to appreciate beauty not like other people." said Kahori hands on hips grinning triumphantly. Goushi was about to mock her when he saw someone at the window. " Ohayo! How may I help you?" asked Goushi pretending not to see the smiles on both Ran and Kahori. " Ohayo, I was wondering what's the day's special," said Asuka. Goushi blushed when he saw the woman. He always blushed when given attention by a woman. Of course that didn't include Kahori whom he had basically grown up with. " Well it is curry," said Goushi trying to seem professional. " Umm, let's see.Yohji come here please?" said Asuka waving at the man pacing outside the restaurant. Yohji entered the restaurant looking around him. He didn't seem happy to say the least. " Don't make that face Yohji. It won't be that bad, besides these guys seem nice," said Asuka smiling at Yohji. Yohji looked at the kids and settled on Ran. The boy had such a strange hair color. Kahori saw Yohji eyeing Ran and said cheerfully, " That's Ran and yes it is natural." Yohji smiled awkwardly when he saw Goushi and Ran turn to look at him. " Gomenasai, I didn't mean to be rude," said Yohji seriously. " It's okay, every body that sees Ran does the same thing. He is used to it by now," said Goushi obviously amused at Yohji's discomfort. " Ran? Aren't you bothered by this?" asked Asuka eyeing him. Her gaze was so full of compassion, that Ran had to smile. " Iie, I am used to it by now," said Ran smiling. " So do you know what you are going to order?" "Ran! Don't be rude," said Kahori. " You must forgive him, he left his manners at school." " It's okay. There is curry today, what do you think?" asked Asuka turning to see Yohji. " That's fine. Not like I have much choice," said Yohji smiling. " Okay, so two curry plates it is. That will be 800 yen," said Goushi who was giving the order to Ran. Ran turned to go to the kitchen and give the order to the restaurant owner Buchida, Eishi. The man's family had been running the restaurant for almost two generations, however, now with bigger restaurants it was more difficult to keep afloat. " Buchida sensei," said Ran smiling. " We got another order. Two orders of curry." " Hai, Ran-san," said Mr. Buchida going to prepare the curry. " It will be ready in a moment," said Ran coming up to the register. " Arigato," said Asuka while she and Yohji looked for a place to sit. After they served Asuka and Yohji their food, the three teenagers went ahead with their afternoon and forgot all about them.
April 21, 1996
" I am so exhausted!" sighed Goushi as Ran, Kahori, Aya walked home. " This is like the worst day in my life." " Could that be because you didn't study for your test?" asked Ran not looking at him. " Ran! You are a pain in the ass," said Goushi obviously offended. " Besides the professor doesn't like me. It's almost like hate." " Uh,uh," said Kahori smiling. " And I am Cleopatra, queen of the Nile." Kahori and Aya laughed together at this. " Kahori! Ran help me here," said Goushi. " No, you dug that hole yourself," said Ran smiling at Goushi. " Besides I have to be nice to Aya, her birthday is this weekend." " Oh yeah. Dammit," said Goushi muttering quietly. He had forgotten to get Aya a birthday present and knew that Ran would be offended if he didn't get anything. " You didn't forget did you?" asked Kahori mischievously. Goushi slightly jumped at the well-aimed jab. Oh, that girl was going to get it when he got his hands on her. " No, no.I just remembered something else," said Goushi. " I will catch up with you later. See ya." Goushi left toward his house, which was about two blocks away from his own. Kahori was Goushi's neighbor but she was spending the night with Aya. Ran only hoped both of them would leave him alone this time. Last time.Ran just shuddered at the memory. " It will be so much fun, don't you think oniichan?" asked Aya sweetly. Ran already knew her tactics, act sweet and then turn on him. He learned his lesson the first time. " I guess. I am going out in a while, have to go to the library," said Ran off handedly. " But Ran." said Aya until Kahori elbowed her to be quiet. " I know you guys wanted to do something to me. So I am leaving," said Ran smiling. " Maybe next time you will be luckier." After dinner Ran left his house and started walking to the library. He was supposed to go with Goushi but the idiot wanted to watch wrestling. Ran could see why Goushi would rather stay home. He would if he weren't afraid of being attacked by those two girls. Sighing Ran started picking up the pace, it was almost 9pm and he would rather be in the library right now than walking the silent streets. About a block away from the library he heard a moan when he was rounding the corner. Stopping Ran cocked his head in an attempt to see if he heard right. Silence. Shrugging it off as nervousness Ran kept on walking until he passed a dark alley and heard the moan again. There was a moaning sound and the rustling of some kind. [Oh, gods. What if it is a murderer? Or a ghost?] Ran stopped feeling the blood freeze in his veins. [It's my fault for listening to that baka. What did he say? That ghosts moan and you can hear the dragging of their chains.] Ran whimpered at that thought [Ghost don't exist. I know that. It is only your imagination Ran. Stop being stupid.] " Hello? Anybody there?" asked Ran hating the way his voice sounded. Walking a little bit closer toward the entry of the alley he repeated again. " Hello? Goushi if that's you knock it off." Nothing. Shrugging Ran decided to get out of there as fast as he could. That's when he heard it; it wasn't moaning it was more like a groan. It sounded so close to him, almost in front of him. Searching his pack Ran came out with a bottle of maze and a small flashlight. Taking a deep breath, he flashed it into the alley and there in a pile of garbage laid a blonde man. He was unconscious.
" Hey wake up, you are bleeding. I can't do anything for you if you don't wake up," said Ran trying to get the guy to wake up. Yohji came awake in degrees. First he didn't know where he was but little by little he came aware of his surroundings, the voice questioning him, and the pain. Groaning Yohji put a hand on his abdomen to stop the bleeding. Turning toward the shaky voice, Yohji noticed the boy. He was sure he had seen that face before but couldn't place him. " Sir, you are bleeding. We should go to a hospital," said Ran trying not to show how afraid he was. " I-I know where the hospital is, I could take you there." Yohji snorted at this which made him clutch at his abdomen again in pain. " Kid, I can't go to the hospital. People will wonder how I got shot." " Oh, gods," said Ran starting to back away. [I bet he just murdered somebody and I am a witness] " I-I-I swear I didn't see a thing. Actually I am supposed to be at the library. I-I will just be on my way," said Ran trying to escape the situation. Yohji could just see the fear on the boy's eyes. Almost at the same time he noticed the bottle of maze the boy had in his hands. [Oh, great now I am going to get maze on my face] " You shouldn't play with that. Someone might get hurt," said Yohji smiling faintly. " Please if you could take me to a hospital I would be much obliged." Ran looked at him suspiciously before nodding once and crouching so Yohji would be able to use him as a crutch. " By the way I am Yohji," said Yohji smiling faintly. Ran eyed him as recognition seemed to seep into his eyes. " You are that guy." said Ran before he decided not to say anything. Getting into a cab Ran took Yohji to the nearest hospital.
Yohji could feel the effects of the morphine in his body. His body felt unnaturally relaxed making it easier to deal with what had happened to Asuka. Asuka. Every time he closed his eyes he could still see her fall, and every time he saw her fall he blamed himself about it. He could hear the voices of their persecutors and how they had taken the life of the one he loved. Damn them. Even if it was the last thing he ever did in life he was going to avenge her. Opening his eyes he was startled when he saw the young boy beside his bed looking at him with concern. " How are you feeling?" asked Ran quietly. He looked around not very comfortable at being in a hospital. The last time he had been at the hospital was to get a tetanus shot and that wasn't a very good memory. " You are still here?" asked Yohji incredulously. " What will your parents say about this?" Yohji could see the comment sink in and Ran almost bolt out of the chair. " Oh, gods my parents." said Ran putting a hand to his chest not knowing what to do. " Go home your parents are bound to be worried," said Yohji patting Ran's arm to get him to go. Right now he wanted to be alone anyway. " But---what about your family? Any friends I can call and let them know you are here?" asked Ran taking out a little notebook to make some notes. Yohji's eyes narrowed slightly. " How did you get in here? I believe only family is allowed." " Umm, yeah. I kind of told them I was your cousin," said Ran looking down. " They wouldn't believe I was your brother you know with the hair and all.are you mad?" Yohji looked at Ran and bursted out laughing. Ran eyes narrowed at Yohji's laughter thinking that the blonde was laughing at him. " What's so funny?" asked Ran dangerously low. " What is your name again?" asked Yohji when he was done laughing. " Fujimiya, Ran," said Ran staring at Yohji not happy at all. " Sorry Ran didn't mean to do that, you just made it sound like you were committing a felony,' said Yohji amused. " For me it is!" hissed Ran. " I have never done anything like this before." " Why are you doing this?" asked Yohji seriously. " Well.you seemed lonely," said Ran quietly. " My friend Goushi hounds me when I am lonely so I just thought I would return the favor." Yohji looked at the boy and noticed how serious he seemed. Like he wasn't sure about himself almost shy. Up close he noticed the shade of his eyes, violet. Cute kid. Yohji was an open bisexual but he just didn't do kids. If the boy had been a little older maybe.still the kid looked like a lost puppy.however when he grew up a little he would be hot. " What's wrong?" asked Ran when he saw Yohji staring at him. " Nothing. I was just seeing the color of your eyes. I don't believe I have ever seen that color," said Yohji grinning. " I guess you always learn something new." " Um so do you have any friends I can call?" asked Ran shifting in his seat. " Not anymore," said Yohji quietly. " Oh, I-I am sorry," said Ran seriously. " Well I've got to go but I will come visit you tomorrow after school." " Don't bother I will be gone by then," said Yohji not feeling like talking after remembering Asuka. " But the doctor said." said Ran seriously. " You are not supposed to leave the hospital before." " Look kid." said Yohji stopping when he saw that the kid was angry. " You almost died out there. I didn't help you so you could get killed because you are stubborn," said Ran angry. " If he said you should stay, I think you should. Please." Yohji wanted to say no but he really didn't have the heart and besides he was exhausted. " Okay, I will stay," said Yohji defeated. " Thank you. I will come see you tomorrow. Anything you want?" asked Ran before leaving. " How about some cigarettes?" asked Yohji. " Oh forget it I don't think you can buy them you are still too young." " I-I can get a friend to help me," said Ran blushing slightly. " Oh the rebel. Would that be your friend Goushi?" asked Yohji grinning. " Hai," said Ran not looking up from the floor. " Well then, please do. I am going to die in here if I don't get a cigarette and since you are forcing me to stay here you may as well do me a favor," said Yohji lying back in the pillow and closing his eyes. " Ok, goodnight Yohji-kun," said Ran and left the room. When Ran left Yohji wished he were back to help chase away the nightmares he had of Asuka.
When Ran had gotten home it was close to 2am and his father had not been happy. When Ran told him he had helped a friend to the hospital he didn't get as punished. Instead of total house arrest, (what his father said he was going to give him) he had a curfew of 9pm for the next two months. However, Ran was starting to think that it was going to become longer when he got reprimanded in class for falling asleep. Oh well. He was now on his way to the hospital after having begged Goushi to get him some cigarettes. The baka had enjoyed seeing Ran squirm in embarrassment. That was until Ran had said he was going to tell everybody about the time he hid in the girls locker room. Goushi got him the cigarettes pretty fast. Ran didn't know why he was being so nice to Yohji, the guy didn't need his help and truth be told he had made Yohji stay an extra day in the hospital because he didn't want the blonde to leave. Reaching Yohji's room he was surprised to see the room empty. Ran's breath caught in his throat and his heart did a lurch. [He's gone. I can't blame him, he just said he would stay to make me feel better.] Ran felt very depressed after that. Reaching the elevator he pressed the button for the first floor. He walked out of the hospital thinking whether Yohji was okay or if he was forced to leave out of fear. [Maybe the people that shot him caught up with him] That thought almost made Ran's heart stop. Where would Yohji be? Last night the guy had survived because Ran happened to be in the area, but what if Yohji was bleeding his life out somewhere? Oh, gods he hoped that wasn't true. He reached into his pockets reaching for the pack of cigarettes. [What am I supposed to do with these? If okaasan ran into these.] The redhead kept walking until he saw a trashcan and as he was about to throw them away a hand reached out to grab his wrist. " Don't. Are you crazy?" said Yohji looking at Ran surprised. Ran couldn't talk, he had been so startled that he had wanted to scream but it came out as a groan. Yohji turned to look at him and noticed that the boy was as white as a sheet. " Oi, are you okay?" said Yohji grinning. Ran took control of himself and managed to shove Yohji hard. " Don't do that! You nearly killed me," hissed Ran angrily. " Where were you?" " Hey, hey I was coming to pick my cigarettes. Besides the doc said I could leave. You wouldn't want someone else to die because I had their place," said Yohji prying the cigarettes out of Ran's hand. " Sorry," said Ran quietly. " I-I thought you lied to me." " I did," said Yohji " But hey I had nowhere else to go, and I had to come say goodbye." " Goodbye? Where are you going?" asked Ran.
" Oi, you would think you had some kind of claim to me. Good thing you are a guy," grinned Yohji while he lighted a cigarette. " I am leaving. Got a good proposition and I accepted." " Oh," said Ran looking down at his shoes. They grew into an awkward silence both not knowing what to do. " You want to get some coffee? Kind of payment for helping me," said Yohji quietly. Ran only nodded. He felt sad that the guy was leaving. Yohji picked a coffeehouse that was about 15 min away from the hospital. Ran had been silent ever since he found out Yohji was leaving. They drank the coffee in silence, Yohji sometimes asking questions while Ran answered seriously. By now the blonde knew almost everything about him, and he didn't know a thing. Afterwards they had walked back to Ran's house, but stopped in a park about 5 blocks away. Yohji sat at a bench and Ran followed suit. " Um, I know this may sound strange but I was wondering if I would ever see you again," said Ran looking up at Yohji seriously. Yohji gave him a look he didn't recognize before answering. " I don't get involved with kids," said Yohji quietly, cigarette on his hand. " If you where older maybe." Ran blushed furiously at this and stared at the hands in his lap. He hadn't thought he was being that obvious. " Gomen," said Ran quietly trying not to sound hurt. It was a silly crush anyways. He had felt needed and even though he had friends and his sister they didn't need him. He wanted to feel needed. Ran felt a small caress on his cheek and he turned wide eyes at Yohji. " You are really very beautiful but I just can't right now.I promise I will look you up sometime," said Yohji getting up. " Don't look so miserable kid, it's not the end of the world." Ran tried to smile but he didn't feel happy enough to smile and before he knew it a small kiss was planted on his lips and just like that it ended. " I promise I will see you again Ran," said Yohji before turning and getting into a dark car that was parked at the curb. Ran saw the car leave and he gave a little smile. " I know you will Yohji-kun," whispered Ran before heading home. Ran felt happy and didn't think anything could ruin his mood, however, on Aya-chan's birthday he learned better.