Hi guys!! -grins- :D Sorry I haven't posted anything for soooooo long! I will update other stories soon. Promise. I just got this idea in my head, and have to write it before it goes out of date. It'll make sense…
SPOILERS FOR JOURNEYS END
Off we go then… "Alonsy, Alonso!"
Rose looked at the new Doctor. He wasn't smiling; he was looking at her, his face serious, as though waiting for her approval of something.
"Yeh," she said, to break the silence. She swallowed. "Shall we go then?"
He nodded slowly, and they turned to face Jackie, hands still clasped. A battle was raging in Rose's head, blotting out coherent thought. She wanted to be alone, to think things through. Had she made the right decision? A moments thought told her she hadn't decided anything. The Doctor – the one now somewhere in another universe had made it for her long before they got to Bad Wolf Bay.
"Rose? Rose!"
A voice was calling her name, and she had a feeling it might be him. She was dimly aware that somewhere between then and now, he had dropped her hand; or had she dropped his?; and now he had taken it again, and they were walking up the beach. Rose shook her head slightly to clear it, and allowed herself to be pulled along in his wake.
The zeppelin ride home was an awkward one, made more so by the length. There was a lot of explaining to do, and Rose kept getting the Doctor's muddled. Pete was questioning her, Jackie was fussing over her, the new Doctor was trying to talk to her about something, and all Rose wanted to do was curl up in a corner and cry, but no one seemed to have noticed.
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"Rose." A voice permeated her dark room, and she jumped horribly, her head clonking on the head of the bed as she sat bolt upright. This was too like the first time she had lost him. Rose peered wildly into the darkness, looking for the source of his voice.
Her bedroom light flicked on, and she blinked rapidly trying to adjust her eyes to the light. The new Doctor was standing just inside her door, his slim frame leaned against the wardrobe. She smiled at him.
"Wotcha." she said, hiding her slight disappointment.
"Hello." he grinned, sitting down on the foot of her bed. "I figured, after earlier, you wanted to talk about – stuff."
"Earlier?" she asked, genuinely surprised. "What happened…?"
"Well, whilst everyone else had their eyes shut, I actually noticed that you were about to break down and cry…but maybe it wasn't the best time to point it out in front of your parents and Tony?"
She smiled again, a lump in her throat. She suddenly realised why the Doctor talked all the time, but never said anything. This conversation was going to make her feel so so guilty.
"I…I miss him…" she managed to get out, squeezing her lids together. This made her sound so ungrateful.
"And guilty, I guess?" he prompted, shuffling next to her, and draping an arm around her shoulder. She clung to him, nodding. "I would." he told her, stroking her hair gently, holding her to him "I mean with the whole kissing me in front of him thing…"
"Yeah, but," she started giggling through her tears "It was nice!"
"Which makes it worse…"
"And I do love you 'cause, well, you're the same and…"
"Rose." he said gently. "Listen to me. If he came back to this universe, you'd go with him, yes?"
"What kinda question's that?" she protested, her eyes moist as she glared resentfully at him. "That's like saying, who would you like to watch me kill, your mum or your brother!"
"Really Rose, I need to know."
"He won't come back."
"Yes, but if…"
"Doctor, he won't! He will stay in the other universe, because he's got some cracked up idea that he's not good enough for me, or that I can be happier here. He doesn't get it! All I ever wanted was to stay with him! Who came back when he sent me away from the gamestation? Who manipulated Torchwood to save the parallel universe so that she might have just a tiny, tiny chance of seeing him again? I love 'im, but I hate him for always sending me away when he most needs someone!"
"I know, I know," the Doctor said, rocking her back and forth, like a baby "He only cares."
She buried her face in his shoulder, wrapping her arms around him, silent tears soaking into his shirt as she held him for support, he was the only person who understood.
"He's alone again," the new Doctor told her tentatively, after a while. "Donna's gone."
"What! No!" Rose sat up straight so fast she banged her head on the bed again "Why? What's wrong with her? Donna was brilliant! She helped him, she wasn't jealous, she was…"
"Her memories have gone." he said "There was never supposed to be a timelord-human metacrisis, and if her memories remained, she would have died. If she remembers anything about me, she'll burn up."
A tear fell down Rose's face. Suddenly, where she was didn't seem so bad. She still had her memories.
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