Glance
By Galileo
16/09/02 (and I'm just posting it now? geez)
AN: I found this a challenge to keep it interesting due to trying to portray Rei's apathetic attitude. It's very frustrating @_@
Rei's POV I take a look around. Ikari and I sit waiting for our stop at NERV, but that always gives unnecessary time to think. There's not much outside, just the usual scenery. I've grown bored of it. Not like I was very interested in the first place, or anything else for that matter. Still, times like these there's nothing much to do but think about it all.
Thinking makes people do idiotic things, however smart they claim to be. Society will destroy itself eventually. What a waste.. It gives me a headache to think about how they think. It never seems to get them anywhere. Just provides them with even deeper questions and problems. Emotion seems to be much more important. How people feel creates who they are, they're actual purpose of living. Curiosity for the unknown is their fault, because they can't be happy with just being loved and alive.
I try to stray from thinking too much, though it always fails. It's one of the human traits I've acquired, leaving my thoughts to wonder about anything around me in this silent cart. As frustrating as it is to analyze the human mind, it is an interest I find myself obsessed with. Primarily because I don't understand emotion so well myself, only know that it's something worth living for.
As Shinji is beside me, he defaults to be the chosen topic this time. I take a look at him, to see his head bowed as always. He's like a child. He surely holds the compassion of one, though I don't understand why. He's so afraid of getting hurt, he blocks so many away, therefore his caring would seem contradictory. Why do you care, Ikari? Why should you care when you know you'll get wounded?
I think he's pathetic often when I see him. He's weak. How could he be our leader when he's just a child? Anyone could crush him, even after he's distanced himself. Is his compassion what makes him better than the rest of us? It's a possibility. It may also be his biggest flaw, and for that I pity him.
It sickens me when he trusts so easily when he's so afraid. Are you afraid of me, Ikari? Of course you are. Everything's a threat. And still you'll trust me and smile. What if I really did try to hurt you? But why would anyone try to?
I can feel his kindness. Shinji, you represent so much more innocence than any other I've known. That's also why you probably care for everyone as you do. And that makes me slightly happier, to know there's someone in the world like that.
I think you maybe one that truly cares for me. Your father, I know he sees me as someone I'm not, but you.. I'm someone. My existence is known to another and that creates me. I feel good around you. How do you feel?
And then I wonder what it would be like to touch you, to grasp hold of your existence. A physical being that holds your mind, holds your soul. I admire that soul. And so I touch you and you give me an awkward glance in return. Your eyes are full of life, reveals your kindness, optimism, love, energy. I wonder what you see in mine, my glare, my constant stare of nothingness as so many others around me convey.
"What?" You finally ask offended. How cute, I smirk.
Maybe I'm more human than you, Ikari, because I think more than I feel while you seem to base every decision on emotion. Or maybe you're the only true human here, lacking the artificial systems and methods brought up today. The fact is, you give me hope.
"Nothing" I pull away again. I smile and find something else to look at.
---`EnD`---
Note: And yes.. yes I do believe Shinji and Rei would be a cute couple @_@; Kaworu would steal him first tho XD ~~ dun mind me *sweatdrop*
AN: I found this a challenge to keep it interesting due to trying to portray Rei's apathetic attitude. It's very frustrating @_@
Rei's POV I take a look around. Ikari and I sit waiting for our stop at NERV, but that always gives unnecessary time to think. There's not much outside, just the usual scenery. I've grown bored of it. Not like I was very interested in the first place, or anything else for that matter. Still, times like these there's nothing much to do but think about it all.
Thinking makes people do idiotic things, however smart they claim to be. Society will destroy itself eventually. What a waste.. It gives me a headache to think about how they think. It never seems to get them anywhere. Just provides them with even deeper questions and problems. Emotion seems to be much more important. How people feel creates who they are, they're actual purpose of living. Curiosity for the unknown is their fault, because they can't be happy with just being loved and alive.
I try to stray from thinking too much, though it always fails. It's one of the human traits I've acquired, leaving my thoughts to wonder about anything around me in this silent cart. As frustrating as it is to analyze the human mind, it is an interest I find myself obsessed with. Primarily because I don't understand emotion so well myself, only know that it's something worth living for.
As Shinji is beside me, he defaults to be the chosen topic this time. I take a look at him, to see his head bowed as always. He's like a child. He surely holds the compassion of one, though I don't understand why. He's so afraid of getting hurt, he blocks so many away, therefore his caring would seem contradictory. Why do you care, Ikari? Why should you care when you know you'll get wounded?
I think he's pathetic often when I see him. He's weak. How could he be our leader when he's just a child? Anyone could crush him, even after he's distanced himself. Is his compassion what makes him better than the rest of us? It's a possibility. It may also be his biggest flaw, and for that I pity him.
It sickens me when he trusts so easily when he's so afraid. Are you afraid of me, Ikari? Of course you are. Everything's a threat. And still you'll trust me and smile. What if I really did try to hurt you? But why would anyone try to?
I can feel his kindness. Shinji, you represent so much more innocence than any other I've known. That's also why you probably care for everyone as you do. And that makes me slightly happier, to know there's someone in the world like that.
I think you maybe one that truly cares for me. Your father, I know he sees me as someone I'm not, but you.. I'm someone. My existence is known to another and that creates me. I feel good around you. How do you feel?
And then I wonder what it would be like to touch you, to grasp hold of your existence. A physical being that holds your mind, holds your soul. I admire that soul. And so I touch you and you give me an awkward glance in return. Your eyes are full of life, reveals your kindness, optimism, love, energy. I wonder what you see in mine, my glare, my constant stare of nothingness as so many others around me convey.
"What?" You finally ask offended. How cute, I smirk.
Maybe I'm more human than you, Ikari, because I think more than I feel while you seem to base every decision on emotion. Or maybe you're the only true human here, lacking the artificial systems and methods brought up today. The fact is, you give me hope.
"Nothing" I pull away again. I smile and find something else to look at.
---`EnD`---
Note: And yes.. yes I do believe Shinji and Rei would be a cute couple @_@; Kaworu would steal him first tho XD ~~ dun mind me *sweatdrop*