-1Understanding by EVANESCENCE

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When I saw you kiss her it killed me. It killed me to know that I meant nothing to you, when you asked me to a ball I was only your last chance. I loved you and you killed me.

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"You hold the answers deep within your own mind.
Consciously, you've forgotten it."

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I ran away from you and her, away from the truth. I ran and locked my thoughts away and forgot. I banished the thought of you loving her away and cried alone.

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"That's the way the human mind works.
Whenever something is too unpleasant, too shameful for us
to entertain, we reject it."

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Then I when I was walking to class I saw her and she saw me. It all came back, and it felt like someone had broken what was left of my heart. She smirked at me and whispered in my ear.

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"We erase it from our memories."

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"You'll never have him. You'll never hold him and never kiss him. And if I have my way, you'll never talk to him again."

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"But the imprint is always there."

Can't wash it all away
Can't Wish it all away
Can't hope it all away
Can't cry it all away

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And I cried again that night, and the next. 'Are you really that blind? Can't you see I love you? Can't you see she doesn't?'

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The pain that grips you
The fear that binds you
Releases life in me
In our mutual
Shame we hide our eyes

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I cried again today by the lake in the rain. Hoping all of the water will hide my tears. How could I be so blind? he'll never love me.

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To blind them from the truth
That finds a way from who we are
Please don't be afraid
When the darkness fades away
The dawn will break the silence
Screaming in our hearts
My love for you still grows

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Every time I see them kiss it makes me sick. Every time we fight I want to die. And even though he's ripping out my heart…I still love him. It's like every time I see him I love him a little bit more…and it kills me inside.

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This I do for you
before I try to fight the truth my final time

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So we went home and life moved on. I went back to the borrow but nothing was right. Ron wasn't even looking at me. So I worked up all of my Gryffindor courage and I caught him outside after lunch one day. "So what d-did you want to talk to me about?" he's so cute when he stutters.

"I wanted to ask you…I wanted to ask you if you loved her?" he just looked at me like I was blind. Maybe I am…

"No Hermione I don't love her." I felt a smile come onto my face but then died when I realized what was real. 'Please let it be real'

"Then why were you with her?"

He kept looking at me…not-not AT me, he looked at my eyes. And they gave it all away…the pain of my broken heart. They weren't together and I still didn't know why. "I never really loved her…I was just trying to forget someone…"

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"We're supposed to try and be real.
And I feel alone, and we're not together. And that is real."

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"Who?"

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Can't wash it all away
Can't wish it all away
Can't cry it all away
Can't scratch it all away

Lying beside you
Listening to you breathe
The life that flows inside of you
Burns inside of me

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He out his hand on my check, and electricity flew through me.

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Hold and speak to me
Of love without a sound
Tell me you will live through this
And I will die for you
Cast me not away
Say you'll be with me
For I know I cannot
Bear it all alone

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"who?" he's so close now…

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"You're not alone, honey."
"Never... Never."

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"you"

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Can't fight it all away
Can't hope it all away
Can't scream it all away
It just won't fade away, No

Can't wash it all away
Can't wish it all away
Can't cry it all away
Can't scratch it all away

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And we kissed.

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"But the imprint is always there. Nothing is ever really forgotten

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And I never want to forget it…

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So what do you think? Please R&R.

TIA

PS I don't own anything so please don't sue.