Never Meant To Fail
A/N: I don't own these characters they belong to The Bill. The song used below is "Never Meant To Fail" by Alex Lloyd it is set after Russian Roulette but with a different ending.
There something I'm feeling
There's something that's wrong
These streets are revealing
In the early morn
The war was last night
These wounds are not healed
If we keep believing
Then we've got to feel
Phil left Sam and Neil in their office, he couldn't believe that he still had a job, he had ruined things again. Nearly ended up getting himself killed again and for what some pretty faced French girl, who had wanted to use him so that she could run away with her husband's accountant. This morning, when he had £1.2 million pounds slung over his shoulder the only person that he knew to call was her, he had slept with someone else but it was still her who was on his mind. It may have been nearly a year since they tried to make their relationship work, and with the ending of the romance had come the ending of a friendship, which had been the most important one, he had had in years. He shook his head and returned to his desk and put his head into his hands.
As it goes
By the story that's already told
Comes a time when we all must let go
Sam sighed as Phil left her office, closing the door behind him. She watched him walk back into the office and shake his head. She wondered what he was thinking, whether Monica was another woman who he should never have been with. All day she had defended him, to anyone who would listen, even though now it seemed crystal clear that he had screwed up yet again. But this was Phil, the man who she had hated and then he was the man who had saved her. The man who had found her daughter with her and who she had held hands with when she thought the end of her life was near. Perhaps that was why she couldn't let go of him, but after today maybe she should just let go, forget who Phil was and just remember that today he slept with the wrong woman yet again.
What happened to the story?
Discontent it cuts inside
It's not meant to be this lonely
We were never meant to fail
Sam watched as Neil stood up and collected his things, he slipped out of the office, smiling at her as he left. Now she could think and no-one would be able to interrupt her. What had happened to her and Phil? What had happened to remaining friends? They had been enemies before, they weren't even able to remain in one room without sniping at each other. But last year they had been close, she had been closer to him than what she had been to anyone for a very long time. People hadn't been able to believe that they were the same two people from the past, but now almost one year later they were both lonely and their friendship had gone, disappeared without a trace. She stood up and walked towards the window, glancing out of the office, she caught his eye by accident and he quickly looked away. This is what they had become, another failed relationship to add to her list.
There's something that's crawling
In my skin
Emotions are falling
As it begins
I lost all my virtues, long ago
I didn't want to hurt you but now we know
Phil looked up and saw her looking at him, he couldn't even look back at her. He didn't want her pity, this was all of his fault, another screw up, another regret to add to the always increasing list. It was nothing new for him to get into bed with the wrong woman, the mothers of his children immediately sprang to his mind. He had become the person that Sam was afraid of, he wondered if he had still been with her, whether or not he would have ended up here. He saw her face when he was talking to Monica, he had ended up hurting her, he hadn't meant it, but he had and now there was nothing he could do.
As it goes
By the story that's already told
Comes a time when we all must let go
He had ruined everything now, it wasn't likely that she would ever trust him again. Perhaps it was time for a change, time to leave all of the past behind and try to move on.
What happened to the story?
Discontent it cuts inside
It's not meant to be this lonely
We were never meant to fail
Move on past the fact that once he had fallen in love with his enemy. But she hadn't fallen in love with him. The story of the playboy and the clever inspector, who had almost made it, but were now both left alone. He sighed and began to pick up his coat, but then stopped, he had nowhere to go, today had been the worst day he had, had in a very long time. The first time that he let himself be used by a woman, it was usually the opposite. He decided that the best place for him at the moment was somewhere where no-one knew who he was or what he was. He turned to his computer, he couldn't stay here any longer, he wouldn't be able to stand it once Stuart and the rest of them discovered the fact that Monica had used him. Perhaps he wasn't meant to be a police officer any longer, perhaps he belonged somewhere else. He pressed the button on the computer and heard the sound of the printer whirl from the other side of the room.
As it goes
By the story that's already told
Comes a time when we all must let go
Sam looked up as the door to her office swung open, it was him. Standing there holding a sheet of paper.
"Yes DS Hunter?" she questioned, wondering why he was still here, instead of returning home
"I have just come to give you this, I can't live like this any longer. Today I put people from here in danger again. I thought that people could change, but I guess they can't or perhaps it is me who can't" he said quietly as he dropped the paper onto her desk
Sam glanced down at the top, she couldn't believe what she was reading, she looked up towards him
"You were right about me Sam, long ago, I can't be trusted. I would have left you high and dry. I'm sorry for everything" and with that he turned and left the room
What happened to the story?
Discontent it cuts inside
It's not meant to be this lonely
We were never meant to fail
Sam felt a tear run down her cheek, then another. He wanted to leave, he didn't want to be here any longer, her best friend was leaving and she didn't even know if he knew that she still wanted to be his friend. That she still believed that he was capable of changing his ways. He was gone, it wasn't like his application to leave would be rejected, once the DCI and the Super discovered his questionable behaviour and with his previous issues they would perhaps be glad to see the back of him. But Sam didn't know how she felt, this wasn't the ending that she thought she would have with Phil, they weren't supposed to end up like this, but somehow they had and she wondered if only she knew what decision she made to end up here, because all she wanted to do now was change it.
We were never meant to fail
So there it is, I think that it is a one shot for now, but if people like it, then it could probably be extended. Perhaps Sam can try to stop him from leaving and then they wont fail after all? I am sorry for the unhappy ending but I just had one in me after all. Please review and let me know what you think!