Austin, Texas.
March 29.
h. 21:00

Tonight it's a rainy Saturday night, the wind blows outside, it makes a lot of noise. Karma and I are watching a movie, as we usually do on boring nights, because we don't have many other choices;
Actually nobody is watching TV, I am holding with my left hand Karma's right one while I'm writing on my journal and she is using her phone with her other hand, so anybody is paying attention to the TV.
I started writing just because she has been busy with her phone for one hour and I got pissed, I wanted to share my night with her, but she can't understand. I think she is unable to understand how people feel; anytime I try to explain, she nods and smiles, as if I am telling her a joke:
My life isn't a joke, it's my feeling what we are talking about, not another person's, MINE!
When I told her she is such a bitch when she acts like that, she went mad on me and didn't talk to me for a long time.
Now I am the one who is mad.

One hour later.

Karma was still sending messages to Liam, I supposed, but actually I didn't care who she was sending messages to, all I cared was that she was doing that instead of talking to me or watching the movie she picked up.
I felt the anger rising inside me, so I stood up and headed to the kitchen in order to make a sandwich.
Well, I wasn't hungry, but once Karma told me that when it has been a while since I've eaten something I get very bitchy. She said that after an huge fight, but since then I eat something every time I am about to get angry and, surprise, it works!
I was chewing my tuna sandwich walking around the house when she reached for me and smiled, startling me and I almost choke on my sandwich.
"What?" I asked with my mouth full and coughing a bit.
"What about..." she started saying, but she stopped, as if she wasn't sure anymore, in fact she added: "No. Never mind. Can I have a sandwich too, please?"
"Okay, I'll make it one, but could you please finish the sentence?"
"No, it's not important"
"Is about Liam, isn't it?"
"Well. It's about a lot of things, you know...me, you, people.."
"Don't beat around the bush!"
"Okay, okay. It's about Liam, yes" she said dismayed.
"Spit it out, then" I encouraged her.
"What about if you and I went to a party?"
"Liam's party, I guess"
"You guessed it well"
"I hope you're kidding"
"No, I am not. I know how much he annoys you, but he has thrown a very big party, the odds you bump into him are low" she smiled nervous.
"I couldn't care less. I am not going!" I swallowed. The last time I saw Liam, things didn't go well and I was scared to see him again, he was the last person in the whole earth I wanted to see.
"You are selfish. I would like to join in"
"Did you have a brain trauma?"
"Please, Amy! I know that he makes you upset, but we have the chance to have fun, tonight. Once in my life I would like to do different things. Going to a party, drink some alcohol..Things teenagers do!"
"I see. But I am not joining a party where Liam is at. It is not on my to-do list. Sorry"
"Fuck you"
I went to the kitchen and made another sandwich, I was getting very angry and pissed.
"Where's my sandwich?" Karma asked, her eyes on fire.
"Well. Go and get one at Liam's"
"Don't treat me like this, you are the asshole, not me"
"What? Did you really say it?"
I couldn't believe that she was blaming me, she knew how I felt about Liam and she still didn't want to understand. I thought that the situation wasn't so difficult to figure out. I love her, she loved somebody else. It was normal that I didn't want to see the guy she loved and she wouldn't even have thought about going at Liam's party since she knew I was in love with her; It was such a torture only knowing she didn't feel the same way, let alone looking at Liam's face knowing they were dating. I shrugged and sighed, she couldn't really understand, how it was possible I didn't know, it was so simple to get it.
"You could just ignore the fact Liam is at the party and drive me there, drink some alcohol with me and.."
"And watch you and Liam kissing? Is this what are you suggesting me?"
"That's the point! Amy, I'm sorry..I didn't understand"
"Come on, Karma. You know0"
"That's not my fault if you fell in love with..."
"Don't say that!" I warned her.
"Okay, but you can't act like this"
"Like what? A stupid best friend in love with you, who doesn't want to pick up the pieces of your broken heart? I ran out of imagination and that's the role I can play, right now"
"Amy, you have mistaken.."
"No, I haven't. You are not fooling anyone"
"What the hell are you saying?"
"You want to use me to get to him. That's your plan"
"No..I just want to.."
"Have fun with him, no matter if your best friend, who, I remind you, is in love with you, sees you two very cozy?"
"No..." she was unable to add anything else.
"Go away, Karma. If you want to join that silly party, go and join in. You can go, but without me holding your hand and telling you everything is going to be fine, because is not. I won't be at the party, where also Liam is at"
Karma looked at me, her eyes wide open. She couldn't believe I was flipping out like that.
"Shut the fuck up. I'm leaving" she stated.
"Fine. Have a great time, you bitch"
"I beg your pardon. How did you just call me?"
"Bitch, because it's what you actually are. A slut who craves for penis...Liam's, Gerry's, Paul's. And want to use me to get to it"
"You're rambling on"
"No, I'm not"
"It isn't actually my fault if you fell for me, Honey"
"Yes, it is. You put this on the scene, you stabbed me on my back. You made me fall for you"
"I didn't know.."
"But now you know and you are still telling me that you want to fuck Liam. You got no discretion"
"I didn't say I want to have sex with him"
"You want to go to that stupid party, so you want to have sex with him"
"Don't put it this way. I just want to have fun!"
"What if you and I had fun together?"
"How?" she asked me, suddenly the rage was gone.
I got closer to her and kissed her on the mouth, my tongue touched hers and I felt the electricity running down from my neck to my backsides.
"I know you want me as well as I want you" I whispered in her ear.
She took a deep breath and nodded.
"Do you think that.."
"Karma, let it go. Trust me, you won't regret"
"And Liam?"
"He is at that stupid party he threw, he doesn't know and he doesn't care. Forget about him" I whispered lower.
She nodded again
I kissed her again, more and more impetuously. My tongue went to her neck, her skin was soft and tasty. I kissed from the neck to her navel, where I stopped to lick around it.
I could feel her envy growing. My hands went to her hips, I loose the belt of the pants. She held her breath once again.
"Lay down!" I ordered, taking off her the shirt.
"Wow. You are very beautiful" I gasped. She was really beautiful and all mine.
"I love you, Karma"
My tongue licked her navel, her skin, her breast. I felt her demanding for more and I got crazier. My mouth went to her clitoris, I kissed it and she shouted. I knew she wanted me, but I never had the guts to do it before. I also knew that Liam was just an excuse, she wanted to get rid of her feelings toward me, but I could be stronger than that, stubborn. I couldn't give up on her.
I kept on licking, I wanted her so bad.
She was so gorgeous, I had to make her come, I couldn't help it. I kissed her on the mouth and then my tongue went to her clitoris again, I licked softly, carefully. She held her breath for a few seconds and I smiled, I had never been happier.

My fingers went inside her, deeper and deeper, her clitoris was about to explode.
"I'm coming in one minute if you keep doing that" she stated.
"Wanna stop me right now?"
"No, bitch. Keep on"
I laughed and I raised my arm to say okay.
While I was licking and rubbing she crowed and I felt her body become bigger and touching the sky, her orgasm was so powerful that I thought I was having one too.
After she came she sat up, she was breathless and I was pretty satisfied.
"Was is too bad?" I asked her with an innocent voice.
"No"
"You are a bitch" I offended her, but I was joking.
She smiled at me and pull me closer, then she kissed me.
"You are totally right. I fell for you, too"
"I really love you. Don't do that to me ever and ever again. I could have a heart attack"
"I know, baby. I'm sorry"
"Don't worry. Just lay with me and hug me"
We smiled at each other