I'm Still Here
Nobody understood me.
I was just a big question to the world.
My dad couldn't stand me at most times, and Astrid really hated me. But I was hopelessly in love with her.
I didn't think of myself as just a boy. I thought of myself as a clumsy, messed up man. They couldn't just throw me away.
I mean, I really just wanted to feel like I was…real. Just to feel like I belong.
Then I shot down Toothless.
Everybody knows the story of how I shot him down, so I'm not going to bother explaining it. I understood him with just a glance in his direction. He saw everything in me that no one else did. I wasn't afraid around him, because he knew me better than anyone else. I could talk to him about anything. He knew more about me than my own father did.
I really wished I could just tell my dad and Astrid about this, about who I really am. Because my dad was right. I wasn't a dragon killer, and probably never could be one. Toothless really helped me get through all these tough times. He made me realize that as long as I know who I really am, they will never, ever, break me.
It was either everybody absolutely knew where I was and what I was doing, or they didn't see me or notice me at all. But they didn't get that I'm still here.
They can't tell me who to be. If they do, I will fight back. I'm not what anybody thinks I am.
It just seemed like the whole world was sleeping, and I was the only one thinking about what was best for me.
I was the only one dreaming.
Everything they told me, I only thought of as lies, and whispers I swore to myself never to believe.
Like I said, I wish I could feel real. I just don't understand how the whole planet can want me to change, when they are the ones that stay the same. Especially my dad and Astrid. My dad would always be the stubborn, thick-headed Viking that he was. And Astrid would always be the tough, mean, and beautiful Viking girl that she is today.
To them, I'm just not here.
But to me, I'm Still Here.
Hope you all enjoyed that! It was based on the song "I'm Still Here" by the Goo Goo Dolls. They performed this song in the movie Treasure Planet. It's a short one-shot, I know. But I was just pouring my little bag of emotions out. Another thing I should mention, I saw a video for this song based on Hiccup from the movie on TolkienNerd4832's youtube channel. I got the inspiration from that video, although I kind of realized that half-way through writing this. READ AND REVIEW!