My Memoir with a Lolita

One cold evening, Ronnel was lin the roof, lying while staring in the white moon.

"Should I care about those painful moments or not? But why they came into my mind whenever I saw someone like her. . ." Ronnel muttered. And after some moments. . . "Maybe I really loved her, so I couldn't forget her all the time." He added. As he looks into the beautiful white moon, he always remembers "her".

Since the first time we have met, she came like an angel that came down from the sky. When he always remember whether a cosplay event, the white moon or someone looks her especially in a cute gothic lolita dress, he always thinking of "her". He remembers those conversations with her when they met in a mall because it was his birthday. He didn't forget how he was too shy to be with her in our house because she was the only girl that he brought to his mom.

Ronnel just can't erase her in his distressed mind and lone heart when the moment he saw her in their school to the moment he thought of you when he look into the white moon, as if she said to him that she like the moon. He really want to know her better and deeper, and also, he want to share what does he has, whether it is happy or sad. But it may be wouldn't come true because when he have now the will to say about his feelings for her, it became a sorrowful scenery because he didn't know that she was now in a relationship with someone who's more handsome than him inspite he didn't have her standards.

He felt sad however, there was life after that, so he chose to let her feel what he felt by helping her by supporting her in her cosplays. That's the least he could do for her.

Then the song "Namida no Riyuu" by Minami kuribayashi played while the cold breeze touch Ronnel's sorrowful face

"Kei-chan, I really want to tell you that I really loved you when the moment I saw you, however, I couldn't say it because I felt stupid and confused when I saw and talked to you in every moment that I have in my life. And also, you have a boyfriend that was more handsome than me, so what's my chance of having you. Maybe I could be with you in dreams .But having you in my dreams is not enough in spite of those imbalances." Ronnel said while tears are flowing in his lone eyes. "Maybe the least I could do for you is to help and support you always." he added.

After some teary moments remembering her, he realized something.

"Thanks to her, I have now realized what is the true meaning of life." he shouted.

The End