As I Die Silently
Seventeen. Prom. College. Freedom. Friends.
Looking down at those eighteen candles, one for good luck, your name in
icing with 'Happy Birthday' above it, you think of all that. You get to be
carfree, think you're immortal. I don't.
I look down at that cake, the candles, icing, even the little Duel Monsters
figurines and I can't stop thinking I'll never see anything like this
again. I won't live to see eighteen. I don't have to worry about gettin a
date and tux for prom, I have to worry about getting a casket and
tombstone.
All my friends are here singing 'Happy Birthday'. It's only a minute, the
cake in front of me, my friends, the happiness, the laughter, all of it,
just a minute. Another minute I want to last forever.
Take a deep breath.
Blow out those eighteen candles, one for good luck.
Another minute I'll never get back.
Everyone whoops, hollers, and claps.
I smile wide and the lights are turned back on.
Another minute they take for granted.
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You never realize just how precious those moments in life are until one day you go to the doctor for a regular check-up, you get a blood test and then a week later the doctor calls you and tells you that you have one of the most serious life threatening diseases known to man. She tells you that you won't live to see your graduation from high school. Only then do you realizejust how many minutes you've wasted. And even with the phone to your ear you count how many seconds you're wasting. It's late at night and i'm not sleeping, like everyone else is, I'm up sitting in front of my computer, writing this. I don't know, but I feel that the world ought to know my story. Maybe there is another kid out there who was told that they won't live to go to their prom and that they have only so many minutes left to live. I sit here at my computer, counting minutes. Minutes I'll never get back. And now i'm going to wirte about all those minutes i wasted.
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You never realize just how precious those moments in life are until one day you go to the doctor for a regular check-up, you get a blood test and then a week later the doctor calls you and tells you that you have one of the most serious life threatening diseases known to man. She tells you that you won't live to see your graduation from high school. Only then do you realizejust how many minutes you've wasted. And even with the phone to your ear you count how many seconds you're wasting. It's late at night and i'm not sleeping, like everyone else is, I'm up sitting in front of my computer, writing this. I don't know, but I feel that the world ought to know my story. Maybe there is another kid out there who was told that they won't live to go to their prom and that they have only so many minutes left to live. I sit here at my computer, counting minutes. Minutes I'll never get back. And now i'm going to wirte about all those minutes i wasted.
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