Eyes.
Eyes so deep I lose myself to them with each stare.
Eyes so molten, each gaze burns me to my very core.
A thick blanket of cloud enveloped the sky... dull greys and blacks mingled together as if to encapsulate my ever-deepening spiral into darkness. My bones ached from the chill in the air, although pale, it yearned for the humid, oppressive heat of the sun. With a low thud my car slowly came to life. The deep roar of the engine soothed me deeply, you may ask why, but to tell you the truth I don't know myself. I yearned for the all-consuming thunderous laughter of my car as it mocked my insecurities and loneliness.
I was so consumed by my own thoughts that before I knew it I was at school. My frozen fingers lazily turned the key, slowly drowning out the deafening noise. I sat there for what felt like a lifetime, waiting for the door to somehow open by itself and reveal his angelic face gleaming down at me with his crooked smile that made my heart soar. But the rusting door stayed shut and with a heavy heart i opened it. I carefully stepped out, gripping the roof as I did so. Although it was very early in spring, what was left of the ice from the dark winter months would find me inevitably. With shaky legs I stood tall, subconsciously scanning the car park for the shiny silver Volvo, which as it had been over the past five months, was absent.
As usual I was greeted with the floods of "hello's" and "hi's" as I entered my first class of the morning, Biology. The warmth I had felt quickly disappeared as I sat down next to an empty seat once more. My mind was instantly flooded with memories of passing notes and secret glances. I was broken from my reverie by a hand resting upon my shoulder. The heat radiating from the touch in question dashed my hopes instantly. " How are you doing Bella? " a deep voice echoed. I turned to be met with the deep eyes of my friend Jacob. My mind screamed at me to tell him to go away and I listened. His eyes reflected hurt as he cowered away and took his usual seat behind me. The class was spent covering material that I had already covered at my old school. Boredom slowly overcame my senses. I fought my eyes to stay open, as each time my blood shot eyes closed his topaz eyes where there, watching and scrutinising me. My head began to fill with statements of love and adorations. It was as if every moment I had shared with him was being relived in my mind. My vision began to blur with tears, I quickly asked to be excused and ran before I received an answer.
I ran as fast as my legs would carry me, the wind whipped at my face, my brown hair quickly becoming a tangled mess. It took me five whole minutes to open my car. My body shaking as I convulsed with sobs. I drove as fast as my car would allow, the engine screaming in protest. The scenery flew by and began to change from small houses to remote woodland. I pulled over to fill my lungs with the crisp clean air. The steady stream of tears began to slow as I ran out of them. I sat down for fear that I might collapse, exhaustion finally taking its toll. I took a moment to take in my surroundings and with a quick intake of breath I suddenly realised where I was.
The vibrant greens and dots of reds and yellows flooded my eyes. The trickling of the stream nearby soothed me. It was as if the clouds had parted to allow the dazzling rays of sunlight grace this beautiful place. It was our meadow...The one place where it was ok for the two of us to be ourselves. Where other peoples opinions didn't matter.. It was he and I. Together.
The pressure and fear once again reared its ugly head as I realised there was no "he and I" anymore. It was only me.
"If all else perished, and he remained, I should still continue to be; and if all else remained, and he were annihilated, the universe would turn to a mighty stranger."