A/N Well I had this little thing on my mind and thought I would write it down. It's a songfic based on the song "Once Upon A Dream" from the musical Jekyll and Hyde. It is set right after Clarisse turned down Joseph's proposal. Also, I am so sorry that the next chapter of The Winter Visitor is taking so long. I have had writers block for the longest time but now its starting to go away and I should have more time on my hands now till musical starts up. Now onto the fic...
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Clarisse didn't talk much the rest of the day and retired soon after dinner was complete. She kept going on and on in her mind about that days events. God she wished Joseph would speak to her. She loved him, more then life itself. To lose him would be to lose her very soul. She entered her chamber and did what she hadn't done in many years, she started to sob.
"Once upon a dream
"I was lost in loves embrace
It was all too much. Mia would marry and become Queen, have children and perhaps a loving relationship with her husband, something Clarisse had never known. She had only loved once, and now that was destroyed.
"There I found a perfect place
"Once upon a dream.
She remembered when she first realized she loved him. She had been only twenty, he a few years older. There had been a recent threat to the crown and Joseph had nearly died to protect her. It had all blossomed from there.
"Once there was a time
"Like no other time before
It had been touch and go for a while, never sure if they were comfortable with their feelings or if they would have been caught. Their love and friendship grew leaps and bounds in the years after.
"Hope was still and open door
"Once upon a dream
They were never discovered and they soon fell into the comfortable and loving relationship both were yarning for.
"And I was unafraid
"The dream was so exciting.
But now she had screwed it all up. Everything was over. She would die alone and without love.
"But now I see it fade
"And I am here alone
Clarisse collapsed on her bed and began to sob in earnest making her pillow damp along with her face. She hated herself at that moment. For what she didn't know, loving him so much, or for rejecting him, or not being the stoic Queen everyone thought she was.
"Once upon a dream
"You were heaven sent to me
Everything was over. Never could it go back to the was it was before. She was miserable and so afraid of what might come. She got up and went to stare bleakly out of the window, leaning her head against the glass.
"But it wasn't meant to be
"Now your just a dream
She wished she could take it all back, the whole day, her whole life. Oh what she would do differently. She wished she could forget everything. But she knew in her heart that she could never forget the only man she had ever loved.
"Could we begin again?
"Once upon a dream....
Clarisse sunk down to the floor, knees clutched to her chest, tears rolling down her face for what she could never have, letting the darkness that pawed at her sanity take over.
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Ah so sad. I had tears rolling down MY face as I wrote it. Joseph's version of that same night to come. Please let me know what you think.