Chapter 1
The smile spreads across the face as I finally get my children to sleep at the 2 hour mark past their bedtime. I sigh as the clock says 10:30 giving me no time to myself with the list of chores I have to do before I slumper for few hours before my 5 year old daughters pounce on me as the crack of dawn. Tiptoeing down the staircase I pick up the Barbie dolls as I go. Making it to the foyer I kick the babydolls into the living room. shoving the thousands of toys into the large white wooden toybox I fold their blankets setting them ontop. I slide the wood table and chairs to the wall allowing room to walk.
Sweeping the wood floors of the living room I scoot the glitter and dust into the dinning room assessing the next disaster. I take the pink and purple dish into the kitchen smacking the mac n' cheese and broclie into the trash. I hear his bike entering our metal gate, knowing hes home for the night. I begin to rinse the dishes as he walks in from the garage. He scowls at the mess shaking his head, "Hate coming home to a mess."
"Maybe you should be home more to help." I glare at him as I load the dishwasher.
"Maybe you should get off your ass when the girls go to sleep.
"Unfortuantly they waited up for you until 10:30." I sigh knowing this is going nowhere.
"Geeze." He opens the fridge in search of food, "Couldn't save me any dinner?"
"anything else I did wrong Nightwing?" I turn to him crossing my arms.
"Fuck off." He grabs a bottle of water walking into the living room throwing himself over the couch blaring the news to a loud sound.
My head aches as I think of this past year. Nightwing has been so angry and inconsiderate. Slade took Falcon under his wing and has been training the 9 year old for evil. What did he expect? After saving the boy from my father, he turned to evil, set out to destroy any hero. I sigh walking into the front room swiping the remote turning the tv down. "The girls are asleep." I sigh.
"Why cant I enjoy some tv?" he tenses up, wanting to fight. Its always a fight with him.
"Yes, but not so loud." I turn to walk into the kitchen as he turns it back up. Using my powers I unplug it, "Why do we always have to fight?"
"Why cant you just think of me?" he smirks
"What do you mean?" I scowl leaning against the door frame.
"You never ask how my day was, don't save me dinner, don't even offer to talk."
"I used to." I sigh, "But then you were coming home later and later, and I never got to talk to you. Everytime we talk it's a fight."
"Im just not happy anymore Rae" he gets up and begins pacing.
"Then don't stay." I look to the floor avoiding eye contact.
He sighs not knowing how to respond but I feel his anxiety build, he wants to leave. "I wont hold it against you. I just ask a favor."
"What?" he stands puzzled.
"Don't file for divorce." I tear up heading up the stairs. I close the door as I burst out crying. I slide down on the closed door sitting on the floor crying. What can I do to save my marriage when he can't stand to be around me without fighting? I love him, but somethings changed. Hes going back to being obsessed with Slade and leaving his family in the dust. I don't hear anything downstairs as I get off the floor heading into the shower. The shower consumes me and makes my nerves ease and I breathe with some sense of calmness.
Dressing in my plaid pajama bottoms and grey baggy shirt, I return to my empty room to cry alone in the bed we've shared for years. I look at my phone with a text from him, I still love you. I'll be back at 8am to pick the girls up. I smile as I read the simple text. Happy Birthday to me, I sigh knowing he forgot. Close to the worst, but nothing tops bringing your demon father to life. Drifting to sleep is easier than I thought, but I'm woken up at 6am with the two black haired girls. Known to the public as shadow and Shade, my daughters Amelia and Alexa giggle as I tickle them. "You wake mommy, and the tickle monster up!" I scream as I tickle them with their laughs.
"Mommy!" they scream with laughter.
"Where's daddy?" Alexa looks to his empty side of the bed.
"Daddy said he'll be back home at 8 to pick you girls up for a fun day." I smile as amelia curls up to cuddle on my side.
"Im hungry mama." Amelia wines.
"Let me pee and then we'll get some breakfast." I kiss their heads getting out of the warm bed stepping onto the cold February floor.
"Can we have eggs and tofu?" Amelia giggles following me.
"Sure." I smile as she stares in the mirror. Being a mother I have 0 privacy as I use the restroom.
I look at my beautiful girls. Alexa is just like her father, outgoing and brave. She'll be a leader someday. But Amelia is like me. She'd rather avoid fighting and read a book. Over the years their powers have formed nicely and remain under control with my supervision. They both work in the tower climbing and jumping, trying to do what Nightwing does. Although they've never been given the opportunity to face any enemies, I know they could handle themselves in an emergency.
Heading downstairs I sigh as I hear his bike. Its 6:45am, why is he already here. The girls turn on cartoons as I head into the kitchen prepairing their breakfast. I look over to the broom against the wall, knowing I never finished sweeping last night. Nightwing walks in as I start the tea. I don't look at him or acknowledge him as my anxiety builds. He sits his helmet down on the counter. "are the girls up?' he sighs.
I nod yes pointing into the front room as I crack an egg. "Damn, I was wanting to talk to you alone." He sighs running his fingers through his hair.
"about what?" I put the bacon in the microwave.
"Us." He sighs sitting at the counter.
"Were basically separated." I sigh pouring the egg mix into the hot pan.
"about your favor." He begins. I turn looking him in the eyes.
"You filed." I cover my mouth.
"a few days ago." He looks to the counter.
"What did I ever do to make you so unhappy Nightwing." I stand holding myself as I sob with the burning eggs.
"Its me." he sighs looking down, "I don't know what I want."
"Im obviously not it." I sob as the girls run in.
"Mommy whats wrong?" Alexa and Amelia hug my waist. This sends my emotions into caos as my children worry about me. the windows in the kitchen bust as I sob.
"Calm down." Nightwing walks around the counter to hug me. I quickly step back with my energy drawled in my hand.
"Don't touch me." I cry. "Girls go get ready, daddy's taking you to breakfast." I sigh trying to stop the tears.
"But mama-" amelia worrys.
"Go, now." I order and they turn running up the stairs.
"This isn't fair Rae" he looks to the floor.
"Fair? Really because it was fair for my husband to chase day and night after slade and leave me to take care of our twins alone. Ive sacrificed so much so you could do what you want, and you file for divorce." I cry harder, "This mid life crisis your having is bullshit." I storm out as he follows.
"This isn't a mid life crisis Raven." He retorts. "Maybe we weren't meant to be together."
"Weve been married for 6 years, and now we aren't meant to be together?" I cry, "I love you so much and I don't want to lose you Nightwing! You texted last night saying you loved me but that was bullshit."
"I do love you Raven." He grabs my arm whirling me to face him. Were so close, close enough to kiss and yet all I do is back away.
"Funny way of showing it." I lean against the wall. "Its Saturday, bring the girls back tomorrow before 5 so I can get them ready for school."
"I'll come and pick them up every morning for school." He sighs, "Like I always try to do."
"When you're here." I retort as the girls run down the stairs.
"Mommy, I want to stay here with you!" Alexa begs.
"You girls are going to go stay with daddy in the tower tonight, ill see you tomorrow evening after you have a fun weekend." I smile trying to get them excited.
"Why aren't you coming mama?" Amelia softly speaks.
"Mommy needs some peace and quiet." I smile kissing their foreheads.
Nightwing nods as he heads to the garage with my beautiful black haired twins. They smile waving at me as they leave the drive. I go to the couch and plop down turning the tv on trying to clear my mind. I sigh as I watch the news. Im so upset that I cant even sit still. I look at the pictures of our family all over the house. How could he do this to us. I run up the stairs and change into yoga pants, a bright green sports bra and throw my hoodie on.
Grabbing my headphones and phone I take off to the tower where I know he wont be yet with taking the girls to breakfast. I walk into the training room and go to the control panel. I sit up the floor with my specialty. Plugging my music on I begin a terror in the room. with my emotions running wild, I blow up the boxes, knock the targets over with the flick of a wrist. My eyes are closed as I hang from the top of the gym swaying from my feet breathing softly focusing my energy on staying here as long as possible. But eventually I fall and I decide that's enough for the day. I clean up the room and take off down he hall to the elevator when I run smack dab into Nightwing.
"Raven?" he looks shocked to see my sweaty body in only a sports bra and spandex pants.
"Nightwing." I smile stepping around him flipping my long ponytail over my back as I walk to the elevator. Atleast I still turn him on.
I get back to the garage to meet Cyborg coming home from lunch. "Hey sis, whatcha doing?" he smiles.
"Came to train for a few hours while he has the girls." I lean against my car sipping on the bottle of water.
"So you guys are separated." He frowns avoiding eye contact.
"He filed for divorce before we officially separated." I sigh, "He doesn't want to be with me, and I cant talk him into staying."
"Have you told him about your pregnancy yet?"
"No."
They weren't supposed to have another baby, but look who has a bun in the oven?! Please review and follow!