(I had to email my fiend and have her do the um...well sex part cause I'm a good girl and my mind could not right that kind of thing out... So that writing belongs to my friend Jamie yeah, that's all.)
There was no stopping it, the thoughts I had about pushing that boy down a huge ass flight of stairs and seeing if anything else in him broke! I couldn't help it, the way his nasty lanky arms wrapped around her like she was his... Who was I lying to she was his. I took in a deep breath, 'breath Santana... Just breath... The boys not worth it.. She loves you... She does she just... Loves him to...' the last thought made me clench my fist. I hated that, I so badly hate that. But more then that I hated that I couldn't hate HER for choosing him over me, it wasn't my fault that Britt was so innocent, or maybe it was cause everyone knew that making Britt notice that something wasn't shinny in this life meant I'd end there's. I hated that no matter how many time I saw them together I blamed him, And it was only cause it was HIS fault, he'd made Britt feel sorry for taking his damn virginity it wasn't her fault the boy could only move his third leg, but he'd used her sweet friendly personality to his advantage, cause if sex really meant as much as he was now making it out to be, he wouldn't have givin it up to B so fucking quickly! "Hey Santana?" I turned around to see Sam, a smile spread across his suspiring small mouth.
"Trouty" I smirked.
"You know..." I cut him off I just didn't want to do this anymore.
"Look Sam, to be honest your a nice guy and I thought that hooking up with you would get my mind off things and a good waste of time but in reality it's not doing much for me I mean no sex, nothing but make out moments where you huge froggy lips over take my whole got damn mouth witch trust me is gross I just.. No so this... Whatever the hell it is. It's over and I'd say lets be friends but I don't really do the friendship thing." I shrugged."In less your Brittany and well look how that turned out." I added bitterly.
"Okay.. Um I was going to say.. You know you can break up with me." He smiled. I raised an eyebrow and he counted. "I know you like." he lowered his voice. "Brittany. And that's okay with me, I think you two are kind cute like... Poison Ivy and Harley where as your Ivy and she's Harley." I looked at him dumb founded.
"I don't know what..."
"I haven't told anyone and I won't I just want you to know that I'm here and I'm a friend even if you treat me like crap and make rude comments about my lips." He smiled. "And don't try to act like you don't know what I'm talking about I know you like her cause... Well I'm mean my aunts are gay... And yeah I said aunts... Were not aloud to talk to them cause my mom just pretends her sister doesn't exists but I still talk to her every know and then and her wife... And well, I'm mean I know your gay just like I knew about Kurt and well..." He raised an eye brow as Rachel passed and he smirked with a nodded in her direction. I couldn't hold back the laughed, that came out as a scoff. I licked and bit my bottom lip in a damn it Evens manner, looking down at my shoes. I sighed heavily. "I can help you?" He offered when I still didn't say anything.
"Can you..?" My voice failed me cracking a little. I felt like crying, and the fucked up part I had no idea just nodded.
"Yeah I mean... I don't think she really knows what she's doing she is Brittany she thinks turning the lights off is a sigh for sex."
"don't talk about her like that, she's not a slut and she's not stupid!" I barked. He moved back and put his hands up.
"Sorry, I Quinn told me the best way to get to you was insults." He spoke.
"It is but the best way to lose your life is insults like that one!" I spit. He nodded.
"I'm sorry, I don't really think Brittany is stupid in fact... She helps me with my math." He looked down looking guilty.
"Me too." I sighed missing the late night 'study' sessions with the blonde. "You miss her don't you." He seemed to be reading my thoughts. I just nodded feeling tears in the center of my eyes.
"Look Sammy boy I don't want to lean on your shoulder and cry out all my feelings it aint me... K I can't and.. And I wont... She chose him the damn jelly legged no body,cause he's poisoned her mind I know this cause I've been poising it since we where 2 the first thing I made her do was kill a gnome and things got bigger and worse from them on, But I've never made her love me and I'm not going to start, Britt stuck around cause... I really don't know why she did, but she did and I don't need help cause I'm not going to try anything." I spat quickly. "but you have to it's like hero code!" He pleaded.
"Yeah well I'm no hero you yourself said Im a villain."
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I sat at the piano, no need to play, just sit there.
"What do you want Berry!" Santana walked in rolling her eyes. I'd sent her a text twenty minutes ago.
"took you long enough." I said standing up.
"Yeah well be glade I came... I thought I told you. We" she waved her hand in between us." are not friends."
"I know.. Its..Just... I can't stop thinking about her." I confessed knowing Santana had it bad for Brittany some how made us connected.
"Yeah well let it go, Q is with Finnessa and you have to deal." She hissed. "Is that it, you made me come all the way down to the damn auditorium to tell me your mind was full of, Quinn?" She asked pissed off.
"Well... I was wondering?"
"No Berry I won't sleep with you." she cut harshly and seriously.
"I was not going to ask... I was going to ask.." I stopped and looked at the sheet music. "Would you sing it with me?" She leaned over and read the songs lyrics. After a few moments she looked at me.
"you know there going to know if we sing this people are going to think were sing it to one and other!" She hissed again. A scowl in printed on her face.
"I want to tell." I said.
"NO!" she barked.
"Not about you Santana, you can make a comfy home in Narnia but I have to gay fathers and I want to be myself.. I'm not a shamed of myself or the feelings I have for Quinn."
"I'm not a shamed!" She all but yelled. "I'm just afraid... Of what they'd do." she said her eyes focusing on the ground.
"To you.." I pressed.
"to her.." She whispered. This was the second time I'd seen Santana actually cry, the first had been when I'd run into her in the bathroom again I was attempting to ride my stomach of its lunch and failed when Santana came rushing in, there were a few other girl in the rest room. 'Scatter!' was all she barked at them and they did not missing a beat, they left there things and ran all to scared to even speak of what they'd just seen. I exited the stall and she collapsed in to me. Her tears running down the front of my shirt. ' she chose him.' She sobbed softly. 'she didn't even fucking consider the life we could have.' she cried grabbing my shirt in her tight fists. I considered asking who she was talking about but I wasn't sure if she knew she was even crying into me maybe she thought I was Brittany. 'I love artie too... That's not what she was suppose to say Rachel she was suppose to say I love you too San and I want to be your girl' she was now breathing improperly. Taking in deep hard breaths in between sobs. 'I hate her... I hate him...' she looked up at me. ' I don't hate her I take it back... I can't her... I love her.. I love Brittany...' at this point she was so passed hysteria that I don't think she really knew what the hell she was letting slip as if all her walls had been beating down like the Berlin wall. Lucky this time it was only a few tears the she quickly wiped away. "Look, Berry we talked about this I don't care about your feelings for Quinn and just be cause were both closeted lesbians don't mean we have some sort of call me when you need me truce. So I'm not singing that damn song with you.
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"I can't believe I'm singing this damn song with you." I huffed as the glee club shuffled in and took there seats.
"Alright Rachel and Santana have a song they'd like to sing." Mr.. Shue smiled out at everyone. "Actually..." Rachel smiled. "I begged Santana to help me out she didn't really want to." She smiled and I rolled my eyes. Thanks make me sound like the jack ass. I signaled the band before Rachel could rant. Witch shut the girl up and she sang.
Rachel-You're so delicious, you're so soft
Santana- sweet on the tip of my tongue, you taste like... Sunlight... And strawberry bubble gum.
Rachel-you bite my lip
Santana-you spike my blood
Both-you make my heart... Beat... Faster
Santana-own me, you own you rattle my bones
Rachel-you turn me over and over 'till I can't control myself
Santana-make me a liar
Rachel-one big disaster
Both-you make my heart beat faster
Rachel-it's the way you... Swell, slow... Pushing right out your seams
Santana-it's the way you... Smile, baby... When you've got me on my knees
Santana-your all night noise
Rachel-your siren's howl
Both-you make my... Heart,... Beat,... Faster
Rachel-own me, you own
Santana-you rattle my bones
Rachel-you turn me over and over 'till I can't control myself
Santana-make me a liar
Rachel-one big disaster
Both-you make my heart beat faster
Santana-cause I jump back,
Rachel-crash, I crawl
Santana-I beg and steal, I follow... You yeah you own me
Both-and you make my heart beat faster faster... Faster faster.
Rachel-I can't get enough... Because its on like I guess this world is over to me.
Santana-only you own me, you own
Rachel-you rattle my bones
Santana-you turn me over and over 'till I can't control myself
Rachel-make me a liar
Santana-one big disaster
Both-you make my heart beat faster
Santana-only you own me, you own
Rachel-you rattle my bones
Santana-you turn me over and over 'till I can't control myself
Rachel-make me a liar
Santana-one big disaster
Both-you make my heart beat faster
Just as I assumed would happen everyone jaws hit the floor. Quinn eyes smiled the message of Rachel's idea of the song and the song getting to her loud and clear.
"was that about sex?" Puck smirked. I sighed and threw my head back.
"God help me?"I muttered.
"Okay!" Mr.. Shue pushed us towards our seats and quickly moved back to the center of attention. "Does anyone else have a song?" He asked unsure he wanted an answer.
"I do.." Kurt spoke. I shook my head not to day after that damn song. "I was thinking we should do musicals and to persuade you..." He beckon me to the front and Mr.. shue's face grew panicked. Brad hit the keys on the piano and his expression softened. I watched Rachel's eye brows her damn song didn't kick my ass out of Narnia this would.
"We have a dance!" Kurt smiled, he put his hands on my hips just as we'd practiced many many times before."In the brothels of Buenos the is a man... Who falls in love... With her." His eyes darted to Brittany to quick for anyone but me to notice. "First there is desire." He mimicked the damn movie flawlessly."Then... Passion! Then... Suspicion! Jealousy! Anger! Betrayal!" He let me go and grab Rachel from her seat I was very much thankful for the girl was better at the dance then I was no doubt imprinted in her memories like it was in his."Where love is for the highest bidder. There can be no trust!" As if the worlds were made to be said to the girl."Without trust there is no love! Jealousy." He smirked. "Yes, jealousy... Will drive you... Mad!"
Kurt-Roxanne...You Don't have to put on that red light...Walk The streets for money. You don't care if it's wrong or if it is ... You don't have to wear that dress tonight. Roxanne!...You Don't have to sell your body to the night!
Santana-His eyes upon your face... His hand upon your hand... His lips caress your skin...It's more than I can stand!
Kurt-Roxanne!
Santana-Why does my heart cry? (tears already streaming down her face)
Kurt-Roxanne
Santana-Feelings I can't fight...You're free to leave me, but just don't deceive me...And Please believe me when I say I love you! ( she wiped the tears as best she could before some one noticed.)
(Spoken)
Kurt-Yo que te quiero tanto, qu voy ha hacer.. Me dejaste, me dejaste..En un tango...En el alma se me fue...Se me fue el corazon..Ya no tengo ganas de vivir...Porque no te puedo convencer...Que no te vendas Roxanne...Roxanne!
Santana-Why does my heart cry?
Kurt-Roxanne you don't have to put on the red light
Santana-Feelings I can't fight
Kurt- you don't have to wear that dress to night... Roxanne... You don't have to put on that red light...Roxanne!
Both-Roxanne! Roxanne!
The club broke out with clapping. "Alright I'm sold! We do musicals this week!"
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"What was that?" Quinn's voice sent chills down my spine in the best way possible. "It was called a performance." I said proudly lifting my bag onto my shoulder and turning to face the breath taking blonde.
"hmmm.." She nodded biting her bottom lip. She looked up and lock eyes, unfolding her arms to grab my hand and pull me out of the room. We where in her car with in moments, and before I could say anything she'd started the car and music was filling the space between song Crazy For You by Adele was playing and I couldn't help but how perfect the song fit. I sang along with the lyrics.
"Found myself today singing out your name,you said I'm crazy,if I am I'm crazy for you." She looked over and smiled the sly fox smile at me."Sometimes sitting in the dark wishing you were me crazy, but it's you who makes me lose my every time I'm meant to be acting sensible..You drift into my head and turn me into a crumbling fool." She laughed as I add a little dance."Tell me to run and I'll race,if you want me to stop I'll freeze, and if you are me gonna leave, just hold me closer baby,and make me crazy for for you." The song continued but I didn't I looked over at the blonde... How was this okay... She was with Finn but ever since she told me to stay away from him when we were suppose to right original songs together, since the conversation at the piano that turn in to well this...the Two of us... Hell we'd been Brittany and Santana. No wonder I felt we'd had a connection with San I was head over for Quinn and she was huh.. Using me. I started to sing the last of the song."Pacing floors and opening doors, hoping you'll walk through and save me GIRL" I made sure to wink at her."Because I'm too crazy for for you." She laughed and the next song came on. When we got to her house she took no time dragging me up the stairs, into her room and quickly locking the door, she popped in a Cd and pushed me against the bed her lips crashing against mine.I couldn't help but think the All-American rejects CD she'd put in matched as it played Dirty little secret. Her lips left mine to kiss my jaw line, her hands roaming over my mid section. I didn't take long for her to push her hands under my shirt, and the warm sensation I felt made the kiss she pressed against my lips taste even sweeter. Her hands moved up my stomach pushing my shirt off, it only took seconds, she unhooked my bra and there I laid on her bed as she slid it off and placed kisses on my bare chest. I let a soft moan escape my lips, wanting for the first time ever for Quinn to just rush it and start fucking me. "Quinn." I gasped as she removed her own shirt. She leaned down and kissed me hard.
"Wait." She teased in that husky tone, pulling back and removing her own bra. She pushed me up to the head bored are lips not losing contact. She pulled back the blankets and sheets tossing them off the bed. I tugged at her waist pulling her into me. She moaned as her body crashed against mine hard. She moved her hands from the my chest to my waist undoing the small button on my skirt even though there was no need. I pulled at her pants undoing her button and zipper, She smiled down at me, and the music slowed to It Ends to night and she jumped off and moved to changed the song, it just wasn't going to help the mood. While she was on the other side of the room I removed my skirt the rest of the way and rid myself of all clothing, she did the same after hitting the skip and three times and living it on Dance inside she ran back over to the bed pulling one of the sheets with her. She smiled and kissed me softly this time lovingly. She laid on her back and I straddled her kiss in her neck softly. I head her giggle and flip me over and I wrapped my legs around her, she kissed my neck then my chest, then my abs, then just below my belly button. I moaned softly as she lowered herself further down. I closed my eyes but not for long as the wetness of her tongue sent amazing chills through my body. I could feel her moving inside of me rubbing my walls with her tongue. I felt moans in the back of my throat moans I had to stifle so the music could cover them. But my lung control failed me as I hit my peek. I let out a sound that could only be described as a moan mixed with a scream. She moved back up kissing me hard. I could taste myself on her lips and for once I really didn't give a damn. She smiled and so did I. But now it was my turn. I flipped the girl over and kissed her chest my hands roaming down wards. I stopped just above her opening and lightly traced my fingers over her smooth skin. She moaned softly. She looked at me begging with her eyes, she even reached down and put her hand on mine trying to push it down. I smiled and broke our kiss. "Rach...Rachel.." She begged almost needing it, needing me. I smiled.
"Wait." I teased, spitting her own words back at her.
"I'm sorry..." She begged. And I gave in. Pushing two fingers into the girl, moving in and out swiftly. The song I'm waiting came on and if by instinct my hand moved to the beat. Her body began to rock, and her breathing was broken by moans. I smiled loving that I was the one to do it that Finn couldn't do this for her no one could, no one but me. Her walls began to claps my fingers and her back arched as she let tried to attempt saying my name. "Ra...Rach...Ray...RACHEL!" She wheezed as I pulled out slowly I pulled out and she started to almost beg but I need this to last I couldn't I need it to... She need me... She actually need me. She kissed me longingly and I gave it up and topped the girl off. I smiled and shoveled my fingers back in real fast to watch and feel her cum. "AHHHHHH" She was louder then me not even trying to be quieter then the music!
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"San!" I turned from my car to see Brittany a smile perfectly placed on her face, it just made those blue eyes, a million times deeper. "Hey Britt-Britt." I smiled back, looking behind her for her damn human robot.
"Are you going home?" She asked cheerfully. I nodded. "oh..." Her voice dropped. I raised an eye brow in confusing. "I was hoping we could go and..." I stopped listening it really wasn't like me to stop paying attention with Brittany was speaking but...WE... She came over so WE could go somewhere! "And then maybe feed the ducks at the park cause we haven't gone in a while and I really want to go and I don't want to ask Artie because last time he went one of the ducks ran him into the pond." I smirked trying to hide the laugh but she caught it. "San.." It was one of those. Don't laugh moments but she was smiling to like she wanted to laugh.
"What.." I said innocently. "It's funny and you know it!" "So...?" She looked at the floor biting her bottom lip and rocked back and forth on her heels. I smiled.
"Can I say no to you B?" she stood silently as if trying to find the answer in her own thoughts. "Yes." I said helping her along. She smiled and jumped up and down!
"YAY!" she beamed. I laughed smiling and shacking my head. When we got in the car I completely forgot, I had no idea where the hell we were going. We sat there for a moment until Brittany started to laugh joyfully. "you don't know where we going do you?" She asked. I shook my head in defeat.
"Not a clue." I admitted. She giggled.
"you weren't listing San?" She asked shocked. I threw my head back and laughed.
" I was but I forgot I was suppose to and I stopped." I laughed. She smiled "I do that sometimes, mostly in Spanish class and then when I remember its always waaayyy to late!" She giggled. "SO?" "Were going to Rachel's" she laughed happily.
"WHAT!"
"you said yes!" "What the hell was I thinking!"
"she's going to have a pull party!" She smiled.
"I don't care if...Pull?" I raised an eye brow. She nodded. "Waite Britt did she say pool or pull?"
"What's the difference?"
"I'm almost afraid to know." I shot back she giggled. "Okay..."
"But first were going to your house and hanging out, then were going to feed the ducks right?" she asked to make sure I was okay with the plan. "right!"
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"So who did you invite?" Quinn's voice came from my bed room, we'd moved over to my house about an hour ago, to say the least we were forced to, her mother came home and we had to gather ourselves and our things quickly. Lucky my dads had gone on another convenient abroad vacation that I just wasn't willing to miss prom for. "Ray? Baby." She pushed open the bathroom door. "Ray?" Her voice was calm and loving I turned from the mirror and smiled.
"Sorry...I.." She walked over and leaned into me resting her forehead against mine.
"What's going on in here?" She tapped my head.
"Thoughts.." I sighed.
"Come on Ray... Tell me.." She smiled.
"don't..." I tried to hide the tears and turned wealky, walked towards the shower seeing as she was in the way of the door."Don't do this... I want it to damn much!" I cried turning around to face the blonde again. "I want you to damn much." She moved closer and reached out to take my hand. "You have me." She said with that DAMN smile.
"I don't... I don't." I shook my head trying to stop the tears. "he does... They do,your damn reputation!" She looked at me with those soft hazel eyes as if she was searching my eyes for something more, a deeper something then the words spilling out of my mouth. "I want to be with you Quinn in public! I don't want to be your shady hidden secret, I don't want to see Finn put his massive arms around you and kiss your lips, I want you to be mine, all mine!" I was sobbing at this point, and the blonde had moved across the room and wrapped me in her arms. "Rachel..." She sighed running her hand through my hair. "I want to too, but... We can't..."
"Why the hell not, are you a shamed of me Quinn?"
"No.."
"Is that No spelled Y-E-S?" "NO! Its just I've already put my mother through... A teen pregnancy, and a divorce and to throw the fact that I think I'm in love with a Jew girl... I just don't think she'll be all that excepting how can I expect her to stop drinking if I just keep giving her reasons to do it? If she doesn't drink cause I'm already a failure to this family, she'll drink cause I'm gay and even if she's okay with that she'll drink cause my girlfriend isn't of the same religion as us! She'll freak out Rachel and I can't do that to her it's not you! I love being with you, it makes me feel like I don't have to hide, like I don't have to try to be in control cause I'm already in control and even if I wasn't just being with you it makes so easy to not give a shit but I can't! I just can't be selfish! Not now cause then I'd be the same old Quinn that pushed you around and treated everyone like shit to get what I want, the Quinn that doesn't deserve you!" she was breathing heavily and her soft hazel eyes where now drowning in unshed tears. "you love me?" I know I should have gotten more out of it but how could I when she'd said those three little words. And now I couldn't breathe as my heart sank and my eyes started to swell with tears.
"I think so... I think, its love... I've never." She was stumbling on her words now.
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"Britt that makes absolutely no sense." I laughed from my bed.
"It dose to! There fins look just like little fans so if we tied fans to our feet we could totally swim like them and breathe under water!" She turned from the fish tank and smiled with her logic.
"Okay well I-I get the whole fin thing but? How would they help you breath underwater?" I asked looking over at her. She smiled thinking... But then her face dropped a little. "Wait unless... Since fans are used for air... That's how it would work right?" I asked hoping she could make some kind of logic out of it.
"Yeah!" She beamed happily and leaned over the edge of the bed her head resting on her elbows. "That dose make since... See San I told you." I nodded.
"Can't believe I doubted you B." She giggled a little. "I missed this!" she got up off the floor and laid down beside me. "You know?" I nodded.
"Yeah... I've missed it to..." I looked over at the blonde. She had her eyes closed tight just laying there. "I've missed you."
"I've missed you to Sanny." she looked over at me and smiled. "I've wanted to hang out for a while but your always busy or.." She stopped. I was never busy and I know she knew it, and she was always with him. She stopped she knew talk about him made my stomach turn. "or I'm busy, Anyway... What do you want to wear to rachels?" She beamed happily." I smiled think of the answer I would have given her before him. "San?" I shook the reply 'you' out of my head and smiled.
"Pick for me.." I said softly she beamed and jumped off my bed. "Okay!"
We pulled up to Rachel's house around 5:00pm "we're going to feed the ducks later right?" Brittany questioned looking at her phone.
"of course." I smiled over at her turning off the car.
"Even if it' super late?" She almost sounded like she was begging.
"Britt-Britt, well go even if its, 3:00am! Okay?" She nodded excitedly.
"OKAY!" She pushed open the door and all but ran to the house. I pushed open my door and followed her.
"Britt?" I walked over to the girl who'd know stopped half way to the Berry's' front door. " wait up." She smiled and stuck out her pinky. I know it was a simple act something that we'd done a million times, a million and one if I really even tried to count. But it was different this time... It meant so much to me. She smiled. I smiled back and took her pinky. And my whole fucking body lit on fire. "Santana! Brittany!" Rachel boomed opening the door. "Hi Rachel!" Brittany boomed back.
"Its good to see you to come in its just Finn and Quinn so far." She forced smiled. "come on." We followed her towards the back of the house. "Santanys here!" she beamed pushing open the glass sliding door and entering the back yard. Quinn smiled over at us.
"Santany?" Finn turned from the grill and looked over at us. "Oh hey Santana, Brittany! Where's this um Santany is she a friend?" Brittany giggled.
"I'm not even touching that one, nips, but I must say. Please, for the sake of all that is holy take a damn step back before you infect what ever the hell it is that your making with puffy nipple disease." I smirked. Brittany giggled more and so did Quinn and Rachel. It wasn't long before Puck and Loren showed up, Tike and Samcades, Kliane and of course that damn human jelly. He glared at me for this first few minutes but like me his attention was drawn else where when Brittany removed her shirt and shorts and took refuge in her swim suit. I grinded my teeth watching him eye her.
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"hey Santana?" I stepped beside the girl smiling.
"Berry?" she growled though clenched teeth.
"I assume for your not so calm demeanor that things are not well for you?"
"I assume from your over the top grin that you and Quindel got it on?" She smirked over at me.
"I don't know what your talking about." I blushed. She laughed, and I felt weird hearing in it. "You have a beautiful laugh Santana, I don't think I've ever heard it without being on the residing end." I said casually.
"Uh.. Thanks Berry."
"Yeah well, let have fun." I smiled.
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It was a few weeks later that things went bad in the best way possible. I was sitting in the auditorium when I got a text from Rachel.
SANTANA MUST COME TO HALL WAY! BRITTANY NEWS _ xRBBX
I shovled my phone into my pocket and shuffled down the hall, I only made it to one over the schools many trofiys cases when Brittany rounded the cornor and rushed into my arms. "San!" she sobbed softly burrying her face into my chest. "Brittany?" I pulled her out of the way of the crowd and over to the side od the hall. "He... I didn't even..." She sobbed.
"Britt? Stop, kay breath babe I need you to tell me... Can you do that? Huh... just speake softly and when your ready.." She sobbed a little more. The she spoke still crying but not as hard. "I was... was... taking in Artie and he kept saying things.." She stopped to hucup as she tried to stop crying. " things about you and I said he was wrong and-an-and he called...called me..stu." She didn't have to go any further I knew what he'd done. She pulled back and looked into my eyes, those baby blues drowning in tears, and breaking my god damn heart! "you know what B how bout you and mes we go and we feed them duckys at the park I heard they just got a little baby duckling in this mornin!" I smiled. She hucuped and nodded. "We can name if maybe little Brittany?" She smiled "Don't think that littles a weird first name?" She asked trying to stop the tears.
"Yeah well Brittany is a hell of a last name!" I said. Tapping the tip of her nose. "Come on well feed the ducks and then I've got a surpise for you.
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It didn't take long for the new of what happened to reach me and Quinn.
Did you hear? Q how could anyone say something so... mean to swewt little Brittany?
xRBBX
Well I mean I've said it before but to her? But stright to her face... I mean rude!
Q
Well of coures the thought as has crossed mind but I mean...
xRBBx
You wanna come over?
Q
Don't I always but I can't I'm on dress duty!
xRBBX
hmmm get something that shows off them legs!
Q
hmmm I'll think about it!
xRBBX
"Rachel you can't wear that." Kurt stared at me for a second then turned and looked Blaine. "Tell her she can't wear that." "I don't know Kurt she looks fantastic" Blaine smiled. "you look great." I smiled back and kurt rolled his eyes.
"It's not that she dosen't look amazing its that she looks amzing who the hell are you dressing for?"
"No one." I peeped.
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"go with God Satan... Santana." Kurt slipped and I shook my head, and went to put my normal fucking clothes on.
"you look beautiful Sanny." I turned to face the breath taking blonde.
"nothin compared to you..." I side licking me lips and grinning. She giggled and stepped towards me.
"It totally sucks that your going with Dave..." she said with a disgusted look.
"We talk about this Britt, I have to stay with him to keep Lady lips safe..." she nodded, I pulled her in towards me. "you know I love you."
"What you told Jacob?"
"I meant you, I'd say that were soul mates..." I watched her smiled and she giggled softly as I kissed her neck.
"San!" she laughed as I nibbled playfully on her neck.
"Santana, Brittany, come on hurry up we want to go eat!" Tina called from the fron of the store.
"Be there in a second!" I called up to her.
"San?" she looked at me with the same look she'd been giving for days.
"I promise B... we can't just come out and tell them just yet." I said looking into those crystil blues. I know she wants me to tell everyone loud and proud but we'd already talked about it, parents, close friends, glee... we'd tell them, slow and easy.
"Shuester wants you onstage in five, Santana." Rachel tapped the me on the shoulder, Dave gave me a look that I think can pass as a smile in some twisted world where he was capable of something like that.
"Thanks." I handed him my pures and shoved my dink into his hand as well. "go through my shit and I'll cut you!" I wornd as I followed Rachel back stage. Puck smiled at me.
"good luck mama" I nodded.
You're so hypnotizing. Could you be the devil? Could you be an angel? Your touch magnetizing feels like I am floating, leaves my body glowing. They say be afaid you're not like the others, futuristic DNA! They don't understand you... You're from a whole other world.A different demention. You open my eyes and I'm ready to go, lead me into the light kiss me, ki-ki-kiss me...Infect me with your love and...Fill me with your poison...Take me, ta-ta-take me... Wanna be a victim. Ready for abduction. You're an alien. Your touch so far away its supernatural... Extraterrestrial. You're so super sonic, wanna feel your powers, stun me with your lasers. Your kiss is cosmic. Every move is magic. You're from a whole other world. A different dimension. You open my eyes and I'm ready to go, lead me into the me, ki-ki-kiss me. Infect me with your love and fill me with your poison. Take me, ta-ta-take me Wanna be victim. Ready a for abduction.. you're an alien..Your touch so far away. It's supernatural...Extraterrestrial...This is transcendental. On another level. You're my lucky star I wanna walk on your wavelength and be there when you vibrate, for you I'll risk it all..." I smiled at the blonde dancing with randonm people. "Kiss me, ki-ki-kiss me...Infect me with your love and fill me with your poison. Take me, ta-ta-take me. Wanna be a victim. Ready for abduction... You're an alien...Your touch so foreign... It's supernatural...Extraterrestrial. You're an alien...Your touch so foreign...It's supernatural Extraterrestrial. "
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I stood still for a moment, the look on her face already pleading for forgivness. "Ray.." she huffed sofly trying not to cry.I licked my lower lip as if some one had just throwin a slushie in my face. "Rachel... I-I didn't mean to..." I put my hand up to stop her. "you know..." I walked over to the sink. "most peole would be mad.." I looked at cheek in the mirror. "But I for one injoy the drama of a good slap." I said turning to face the still crying blonde. "It's okay Quinn you have the right to be upset and I didn't really have the right to follow you in here. did I?" she sighed and moved closer to me. "It's just that... Finn wanted to be here with you, and Jessie was here with you and all I could think about was how bad I wanted to be here with you and everyone just wonted to be here with you and do you know how bad that just truly pisses me off!" She asked running her hands through her hair. She was now only steps away from me. I shook my head.
"No but you know what?" She looked up. "I do know that your mad and more then a little pissed off, so I don't want to push you with the whole losing thing, but our friend is in there faceing torment cause of some..."
"Jack asses."
"Jack asses idea of a good prank, and we need to suport him." I said taking her hands in mine. "And I promise if you go back in there I'll make up losing to you." I smiled.
"promise?" I leand forward and captured her lips.
"Swear!"
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"Santana!" Brittany tired to clam me.
"I should have fucking won my god damn running partner won! I can't just have one thing one thing thats actually mine that starts as mine and ends as mine no got damn compitsion!"
"San that dosn't make sence everything about prom queen is a compation." I smiled.
"I know B."
"Cides we have to go back in there for Kurt." I nodded. "And I know you didn't get the crown but would you settle fot the constilation prise?" I smiled.
"I will settle for the consulation prise!" I said pulling her in for a kiss. I hadn't realized tell our lips met that this was the first one since... since I'd uttred those three small words to her. She leaned into the kisses and I felt this... god here comes the cliche but sensation. It was like the first time, but diffent cause this time, we were in love. And the feeling of never backing out of this kiss had come over me this longing to never relise the blonde from my arms, never let her lips break contact and I couldn't help but think. 'God I hope every kiss from now on is just like this one!'
I apoligize for any mistakes I tried to clean them up the best I could!