"Agh...my head," I said blearily opening my eyes. I tried to take in my surroundings, but I couldn't make out my location. I had been running all night, so I could be anywhere. It really didn't make a difference. I just knew I had to get away, try to...well, to be honest, I don't even know any more.

Roughly two weeks ago.

"Raven, I'm sorry! I thought Cyborg was coming through that door! Honest." Beast boy almost pleaded with a furious and pink ink covered Raven as she furiously made her way to her room.

"Whatever, Beast Boy," she growled, trying to keep her anger in check. "Just leave me alone."

"Well let me help you clean up at least." He said placing a hand on her shoulder. She quickly and roughly shook free from his grasp.

"Don't! Don't touch me! It's always the same thing from you. One of your little pranks goes awry, you pretend to be sorry for a day or so, then go right back to behaving like a four-year old. When are you going to grow up and stop being such a pain in the ass?" She snapped.

"Raven..."

"Save it, I don't want to hear your apologies right now. Just get away from me before...before I do something YOU'LL regret." She then turned and stomped away, leaving a saddened young man in her wake.

"Man, you really messed up this time!" Cyborg whistled as he looked at the mangled control panel before him.

"It was an accident! I was just trying to see if I could get the big screen to play this movie so we could all watch it together."

"How did you go from that to completely thrashing the motherboard? Do you know how long this is going to take to-you know what? Never mind, man. Not like it'll make a difference anyway. You just do what you want and don't care about the rest, huh?"

"But I thought..."

"No, you didn't. Like always. Just get outta here and let me work."

Beast Boy's ears drooped and he slowly walked out of the room. He'd only wanted to enjoy a movie with his friends. He was just really bad with technology. He'd tried on several occasions to have Cyborg teach him, but he was always too busy or doubted that he even had what it took to learn. He was always being looked down on. They mistook his jovial nature for a person who didn't have a care in the world. That couldn't be further from the truth.

"Your reaction times still aren't good enough Beast Boy," Robin yelled into the microphone of the training room. "Run the simulation again and this time try doing it right."

Beast Boy was panting and wiping sweat from his brow. He was really giving it all he had, but Robin never saw that. He always tried to make them match in ability, which was difficult because he'd trained for years with Batman, while Beast Boy had only learned the basics to keep himself alive. His time in the Doom Patrol got him used to this treatment though. Never good enough, no matter how hard he tried. There was always some flaw.

"I'm doing my best, man. Can't I take a break?"

"You can when you've earned one. Now, move!"

Robin was another one of his Slade panics, so Beast Boy knew it was best to not argue with the martial artist. It wouldn't do any good anyway. He never listens...no one does.

Beast boy dragged himself to his feet and launched through the course once more.

After a few hours, he finally managed to accomplish whatever it is that Robin wanted from him, but just barely given the tone of his voice. He limped back to his room to nurse the injuries he'd received during the training.

He'd placed the last bandage on his bruised and cut green skin and slowly re-applied his costume. He took a good look at himself in the mirror. His gangly body was beginning to harden with muscle and his hair wasn't slicked back, falling over his eyes. He stared at himself for what seemed like hours, as always he was disgusted with what he saw. He wasn't as dumb as everyone thought he was. He knew he was the weakest one of the group. The extra trainings and yelling made sure of that. He tried to keep up his smile and enjoy time with his friends, but lately everyone seemed to be just barely tolerating him. Not even Cyborg laughed at his jokes anymore. There weren't anymore pizza nights or fun trips outside of Jump City. Things that they originally liked about Beast Boy were setting them off all the time now. Any time he said the word 'tofu', Cyborg would huff and roll his eyes. His attempts at easing the ever-present tension always fell flat and Beast Boy just didn't know what to do anymore. He'd always used his sense of humor and pranks to take his and everyone's minds off the constant peril and unbelievable stress they faced every day as heroes. It's a mechanism that's served him well in this life, even kept him alive more times than he can count. If they knew just how hard of a life he'd lived up until that point...it would be like getting to know a completely different Beast Boy.

The mission started out as simple. The H.I.V.E. Five were in the middle of a jewel heist in Downtown Jump and were putting up the usual fight. Beast Boy squared off with Gizmo and dodged not only his myriad of missiles but a few insults that hit a little too close to home. Suddenly, a sharp pain exploded in his side, it gave Gizmo the opportunity he needed to fire his lasers directly at Beast Boy's chest. With an anguished cry, Beast Boy fell out of his gorilla form and dropped to his knees, clutching his now bleeding chest.

"Beast Boy!" Starfire yelled and rushed to his position, accidentally letting her guard down and taking a direct hit from a sneak attack from Kyd Wykkyd. She was able to fight him off, but she was distracted long from her goal of checking on Beast Boy.

Gizmo flew over to Beast Boy and picked him up by his hair.

"Well, well. The weakest link has been broken." he sneered and kicked Beast Boy in the gut. Beast Boy couldn't take the pain anymore and the world went black.

When he awoke, he was in the Titan's infirmary. He tried to sit up, but an orange hand was placed gently on his torso to keep him lying down.

"Please Beast Boy. Do not strain yourself. You are still recovering."

"W-what happened with the F.I.V.E?" he asked. His throat was dry and felt like he had swallowed a sweater.

"We took them out, no thanks to you," Robin said as he entered the room.

"I'm s-"

"Don't give me that Beast Boy! What happened out there? Those losers are our easiest bunch to handle. I thought you were better than that."

"Sorry I can't be like the all-powerful Robin." he snapped, surprising himself and everyone else with his sarcasm.

"Of course not, that would actually mean you actually focusing on the task at hand and actually succeeding for once."

"That's big talk for someone without any powers." Beast Boy muttered.

"I may not have powers, but I didn't get my ass handed to me by some villain flunkies."

"I probably wouldn't have either if my 'fearless leader' hadn't been drilling me like I'm in the military with extra training."

"If you didn't need it, I would have to. You can't rely on your powers. I mean, they're not really useful anyway. So you can turn into animals, big whoop. That's more of a party trick that a real power."

"Oh, I'm sorry. Is my genetic mutation not good enough for you? Hm, perhaps I'll spend a few years being Batman's bitch, surely THAT'LL be great!"

"Guys! GUYS!" Cyborg yelled, trying to break the two up. "Now's not the time for this."

"Yes, friends. Let us rejoice that friend Beast Boy will be OK."

"Yeah, 'cause that's cause for celebration." Raven sneered. Beast Boy's face flashed pain, but he refused to let it show.

"Ok, ok. Good to know how you really feel. Look, I messed up, I'm sorry."

"I'll believe that when you stop messing up." Robin countered.

Beast Boy just sighed and lowered his head. "Fine, message received."

"Beast Boy..." Starfire tried to soothe him by putting her hand on his, but he snatched it away.

"It's ok, Star. I'm a big boy." he gave her a watery smile and turned his head so he didn't see his teammates storming out.

A few hours passed with Beast Boy staring up at the ceiling. 'I get hurt and then I get yelled at like it's MY fault. Never good enough, am I?'

He slowly sat up and stood. He looked out of his window and gazed at the city before him. So many people that he risked his life to protect every day and every day he's treated like a burden. 'What am I doing all of this for if people still hate me?' He turned back and looked around the room. 'This place...I thought I'd found a place to call home...people to be proud of me. I guess being wrong is what I do best.' He shook his head, and walked out of the room. He made it all the way to his room and looked around. He changed out of the pajamas they'd put on him and was about to put on one of his uniforms, when he paused. He stared at the purple and black jumpsuit as if it were made of something vile. This uniform was his symbol of being in the Doom Patrol, not even close to the best years of his life. This uniform was the symbol of Beast Boy, the lackey of the Teen Titans, the comic relief. For the first time in forever, Garfield Logan despised the uniform in front of him and all it represented. He wasn't a member of the Doom Patrol...he didn't want to be a Titan anymore...he didn't want any of this.

Beast Boy was almost 18...no longer a boy. He'd lost the innocence of being a child long ago. So long ago, he wasn't sure he'd ever really had it. That's one of the reasons he acted the way he did. Try to get back some of what he lost. But it seemed that was impossible. He'd never have caring parents or a loving family...for long anyway. He'd never had or have normal friends because he wasn't normal. He couldn't blend into a crowd with green skin and hair, he could become one of a million. He was trapped by his identity, robbed of the true happiness others took for granted, and for a while he made the best of it and tried to forge his own life. It's funny. He can change into any animal on the planet, yet people are still wanting him to change. He angrily grabbed all of his uniforms and threw them out of his window. Deep in his closet he pulled out pair of blue jeans and a hoodie that he'd worn only a few times. It would have to make due until he was able to make a new suit that would change with him whenever he shifted forms.

Everyone wanted a different Beast Boy...they were going to get their wish.

Garfield made his way downstairs for breakfast. He walked into the common room and everyone looked shocked. They'd never seen him in human form without his uniform.

"What's with the new look?" Cyborg asked. He was completely ignored. "Yo! BB! I know you can hear me." Complete silence.

"Oh so you're going to act like that?" he said. "Fine. When you want to stop acting like a baby, let me know."

Beast Boy finished preparing his breakfast in silence. He then took it and just as silently left the room.

"Well, that was...different." Raven said.

"Are you really surprised?" Starfire said. "Your words to friend Beast Boy were most unkind. Robin, I think you should go apologize."

"Apologize?! For what? Telling the truth? Let him get this hissy fit out of his system. He'll be back to bugging the crap out of us soon enough."

Starfire just shook her head slowly. "For your sake. I hope that you are right."

A couple of days later, the emergency sirens began to blare. The Titans gathered into the control room to assess the trouble...everyone except for Beast Boy.

Robin just let out a long sigh. "We don't have time to deal with Sir Bitchy, let's just get it done without him. Should be much easier."

Cyborg and Raven hesitantly agreed. They didn't understand what Beast Boy's problem was but they were getting just as sick of his attitude as Robin was. He hadn't said a word in the past few days and has barely made eye contact.

Starfire was set to adamantly refuse when she caught a glimpse of something shooting through the sky out of the window. Recognizing what it was, she relented and he Titans were off.

When they arrived at the scene, they saw the usual. People running in terror from Control Freak and some giant monster he'd gotten from a TV show. How that guy kept escaping, they'd never know. Just as they were about to leap into action, a green pterodactyl swooped in and began to peck at the monster. It was swiftly knocked out of the sky by one of the thing's tentacles. Beast Boy didn't stay down long he morphed into a giant tiger and ran up the beast's back, scratching and clawing the whole way.

"I think it's time to pause for the cause!" Control Freak yelled from his position atop the monster and aimed his remote at Beast Boy, freezing him in midair. Suddenly the remote was enveloped in black energy.

"Hi." Raven said as she destroyed the remote with her powers, freeing Beast Boy and making the monster vanish, sending Control Freak plummeting to the ground only to be caught by Starfire. He was then subdued and tied up for easy transport back to prison.

Beast Boy shifted back to his human form and began to walk away.

"So you thought you could handle this on your own?" Robin called to Beast Boy's retreating figure. "You should have known better."

Beast Boy paused, but didn't turn back and began to walk again when a black barrier form right in front of him.

"What's going on with you, man!? Cyborg yelled. "You're still recovering from that wound of yours. How many butt kickings do you have to take before you get the hint?"

Beast Boy slowly turned around and stared at his teammates. There was no anger, no sadness, no guilt. His face was blank. "I'm not your problem anymore." was all he said.

"What does THAT mean?" Robin yelled.

Beast Boy just threw his communicator at them and shifted into a falcon and flew away, leaving his clothes behind.

"W-what just happened?" Cyborg pondered. Starfire shot off into the sky after him.

"Friend Beast Boy!" she called. She caught up to him in an instant, of course. "Why are you doing this? If this is about the harsh words of Robin..."

Beast Boy just tried to fly in another direction, only to be stopped again. "...please." she said slowly approaching him. He suddenly dived to the ground and shifted into a cheetah and ran off into the distance. Seeing that he wasn't losing her, he changed into an ant, effectively getting her off of his trail.

Beast boy continued running, he didn't care where he was going, he just knew he had to get away. He blindly ran off into a heavily wooded area just outside of Jump City. He shifted into the form of an orangutan and swiftly made his way through the trees. It was at that point his adrenaline wore off and he felt the pain of his reopened wounds rush at him at full force. He suddenly dropped from the trees and shifted back to human. There he lied, nude and writhing in pain.

'How'd everything get like this? Why...' his thoughts faded as he slowly blacked out.