I'm Coming Home Chapter 1, a teen titans fanfic

Disclaimer: Of course I don't own the Teen Titans. I wish I did… but I don't. Nor do I own the song I'm coming home by P. Diddy.

Okay, this isn't my style... but I was attending a memorial for a fallen officer, and I heard this song. It was incredibly touching, and I just wanted to make a quick one-shot for this song.

R.I.P.

Sgt. Thomas Baitinger

Officer Jeffrey Yaslowitz

We all admire your courage in what you do and thank you for your service.

I'm coming home

Tell the world, I'm coming home

Let the rain, wash away, all the pain of yesterday

I know my kingdom awaits, and they've forgiven my mistakes

I'm coming home

Tell the world I'm coming...

I can't believe it. It's been so long... I mean, seeing this place. My home.

Looking at it now... well, it's kinda weird just walking back in. I mean, I did kinda vanish mysteriously. I did leave a note, but, everyone knows that notes don't tell the whole story.

Is everyone mad? Were they sad? Loosing the small, weak, joker isn't a huge thing to be sad about... but maybe I brought more! I was a good friend...

But leaving... that can revoke a friendship pretty quickly. Revoke. If I use words like that, I don't think anyone'll believe it's me. 'Course, the green skins a dead giveaway. But you never know.

Back where I belong, yeah, never felt so strong

I feel like there's nothing I can't try

And if your with me, put your hands high

The gravel under my feet must be fresh. That crunch is louder then I remember... of course, that might just be my bad memory. I have been away for what, like, 5 years.

Ha... looking at me now, you wouldn't really recognize me. If it weren't for the green skin once more. My hair's grown kinda long, since you can't shave in the jungle. My muscles are bigger, and a lot more defined. Like, they stick out now. My suit is shredded. It doesn't smell, even though I've worn it for like, 5 years. Rivers DO take away the bad smells.

I wonder how the team looks? Is Raven even more beautiful? Did she meet anyone?

Is Robin still a hard-ass? And did he propose to Starfire yet?

What about Cyborg? Did he and Bee hook up? I hope so.

I want them all to be happy. Not to have suffered in my absence.

If you ever lost a light before, this cries for you

And the dreams are for you

Man, I don't even wanna think if anyone got hurt.

I may not have been the best fighter, but I did keep a weathered eye on everyone. I saw everything that went on in fights. And if someone was about to get hurt, I jumped into action. I took most of the damage, and it added up. But it was worth it not seeing anyone else suffer.

Of course, if I ever failed... and I did witness someone getting hurt... I lost control.

Now that I wonder, I do think, was it because I didn't want my teammates getting hurt that I protected them? Or was it because if they did... I'd lose control of myself and go on a rampage?

Pain seemed to be the only thing that tamed the Beast, and whenever I received it, I felt his grip on my mind weaken.

It was like a drug; pain. My haven. My need. With it, I could be free of the Beast, albeit, only temporarily.

I hear the "Tears of a Clown"

I hate that song

It always feels like they're talking to me when it comes on

Another day, another dawn

Another Keisha, nice to meet ya, get the math, I'm gone

What am I supposed to do when the club lights come on?

That's why I left.

The damn Beast. It controlled too much of my life. Slowly, I was succumbing to its influence. No matter how much pain I took, slowly, it was becoming immune. Like a virus to antibiotics.

And within a small matter of time, it was dominating my actions. I was unintentionally gruffer. I was meaner, and angrier at dumb things. My fighting style changed. Instead of watching my own teammates, I watched only myself. My team was getting bruised more with every fight, and I was getting more viscous.

Finally, I snapped at Robin, and I was forced to leave after almost attacking Raven.

Her attitude had driven me up the wall, and when I snapped back at her, and we fought, I remembered.

"You need to remember what happened!"

"I told you, I don't remember- any of it! We had that argument, I went to my room, I was angry, and then nothing! Claws... a scream... nothing!"

"Claws and a scream isn't nothing."

"No, I wouldn't. I mean, we had a fight, but I would never -"

"She was in your teeth..."

Those two memories came rushing back. I remember that. That was the first time we argued and I changed into the Beast. That was the first time. The first time I'd almost hurt Raven.

This time, was even closer. It probably would've happened if I didn't make my decision.

To leave, so I didn't hurt Raven. Or anyone for that matter.

It's easy to be Puff, it's harder to be Sean

What if the twins ask why I ain't marry their mom

How do I respond?

What if my son stares with a face like my own

And says he wants to be like me when he's grown

What would life have been like if the Beast didn't own my life?

Would I have summoned the courage to ask out Raven? I mean, I've always thought she was pretty and all... but I never figured she was into me. It's just a known fact.

Would I have kids maybe? Or would we only be married... assuming she said yes.

Would we still be heroes? Or would we have retired? Or an accident happened, and one of us wasn't okay...

Man... that's hard stuff to take in...

I just can't think what I would do if I learned one of my friends died... what WOULD I do? Cry? Rage? WHAT?

Another night, the inevitable prolongs

Another day, another dawn

Just tell Taneka and Taresha I'll be better in the morn

Another lie that I carry on

I need to get back to the place I belong

That settles it. I gotta go back. Looking at the Tower is one thing.

Going inside is another.

Facing the Titans is something completely different.

But I need to. I need to see ALL my friends. I need to make sure they're okay. I've tamed the Beast. I'm better.

Now, I need to prove it to myself.

I need to go back.

I'm coming home

Tell the world, I'm coming home

Let the rain, wash away, all the pain of yesterday

I know my kingdom awaits, and they've forgiven my mistakes

I'm coming home

Tell the world, I'm coming home

Huh, it's raining. That's nice... not that I wanted this trip to be easy or nothing.

Now my hair's drooping, and... well, at least I smell a bit better. Surprisingly I don't smell like wet dog. But I can't focus on those minor little details. I gotta see my friends!

AH! Lightning!

That's never good! Guess I ain't flying there...

Maybe I should swim? Is it a good idea to swim in a lightning storm?

Ah, screw it all. I'm swimming, and I'm going home.

One way or another.

"A House is not a Home"

I hate that song

Is a house really a home when your loved ones are gone?

And -'s got the nerve to blame you for it

And you know you woulda took the bullet if you saw it

But you felt it and still feel it

This is not good...

Now it's in my mind... what if someone's dead? Dying? Oh man... suddenly, that runaway plan doesn't seem so good...

I feel really guilty...

WHOA! Almost got hit by that one.

Damn, these bolts are coming pretty close to me!

Gotta keep flying!

Of course, maybe I should swim...

Gah, it doesn't matter. I'm going home, and I will get there.

I just hope everyone's still there...

And money can't make up for it, or conceal it

But you deal with it and you keep ballin

Pour out some liquor, play ball, and we keep ballin

Baby, we've been living in sin cause we've been really in love

But we've been living as friends

When I get back, the first thing I'm going to do, is ask out Raven.

No, scratch that. First, I'm going to shave, shower, get a new uniform, THEN ask out Raven.

If she's not already taken...

If she is taken, then hey. It's my fault. I missed out on some golden chances. I had my chances, and I neglected them. But I will be her best friend again, even if she kills me. Because I'd rather die then see her die.

Does that even make sense? That sounded better in my head...

Tower's getting closer... and it seems just a little bit bigger too.

Is that my imagination too?

Or is it really bigger?

It wouldn't surprise me, with Cyborg lovin' to upgrade things. He was always upgrading his car.

Ha, I wonder if he still lives in it? Or did Bee take it's spot?

...

How much did I miss?

So you've been a guest, in your own home

It's time to make your house your home

Pick up the phone, come on

Maybe I should've called first...

Cause showing up, completely out of the blue is gonna be kinda awkward...

Then again, calling would've been too. Just imagine Starfire on the phone, getting a call from a missing friend, saying he's coming home. Yeah, like that wouldn't have freaked her out.

And imagine if it were Rae...

Ho boy. That would be funny, scary, and relieving at the same time...

...

I miss them all. But I'm almost there...

I hope they didn't replace me. I did leave, and they probably needed someone to fill the gap, but I don't think that replacing me would've filled any gap.

Would it?

What if my replacement crushed on Raven too?

And now she was with him?

That would kinda destroy me...

But again, I lost my chance when I left. She was fair game, and it's my fault.

That... she... I just wanna see her... them. All my friends...

I'm coming home

Tell the world, I'm coming home

Let the rain, wash away, all the pain of yesterday

I know my kingdom awaits, and they've forgiven my mistakes

I'm coming home

Tell the world, I'm coming... home

Ah, time to land. This is gonna be hard. I haven't flew in so long, I feared I forgot how! 'Course, I almost was fretting that I forgot how to morph into something else completely! The only thing I morphed into, was the Beast. And that was to become one. Or try to.

It failed. Miserably.

And I realized, that I can't battle myself. I have to embrace myself. Accept it.

My primal side, isn't really my primal side. It's my instincts, my animalistic traits. Telling me how I should be. It's a combination of animals. Well, in terms of thoughts.

Ugh!

That was NOT the most graceful landing.

I think I got gravel up my nose too...

There, that's better...

Looking at this Tower, I can feel those bad memories being taken by the rain.

It's clearing my head, my thoughts, my body.

I'm just... I'm ME! No one else. Me.

"Ain't No Stopping Us Now", I love that song

Whenever it comes on, it makes me feel strong

I thought I told y'all that we won't stop

We be cruising through Harlem, Viso blocks

It's what made me, saved me, drove me crazy

Perking my ears and tilting my head, I think I can hear music...

I'm not sure what kind, but it seems kinda upbeat.

Not Raven, more Starfire-y. If that.

Maybe it's a party. With the rain clearin up, I can see through the clouds, and it looks to be a full moon.

Nice. Coming back from my werewolf haunt under a full-moon. Ironic...

I also gotta avoid the security lasers. I remember where they once were. Not sure if they're there anymore, but still. I don't wanna trigger any alarm by accident.

Sneaking forward, I get over the trip wires, and I'm in the clear. The cameras won't catch me until I'm at the door. And by then, I should be home free.

Drove me away, then embraced me

Forgave me for all my shortcomings

Welcome to my Homecoming

Yeah, it's been a long time coming

Lot of fights, lot of scars, lot of bottles

Lot of cars, lot of ups, lot of downs

I stopped in front of the door. It's cold quiet Titanium framing and coating just stares at me, telling me nothing. I want to react. I want to knock.

But there's that self doubt, that animal part that says "Run! Get away! Never look back!"

I want to run. I really do. My legs are already pumping the adrenaline for the 'Fight or Flight' response. But I don't want to go either.

I want to see my friends, even if they all hate me for leaving.

It's a necessity. If I die tomorrow, I need to know that they're all okay.

Weird eh? I sound like their parents...

The youngest one, sounding like a parent. That's nice...

But hey, whatever gives me comfort. And the satisfaction of knowing that they're okay.

Made it back, lost my dog

And here I stand, a better man

Thank you Lord

Wow.

I've never felt so scared. And all I'm doing, is facing my friends!

How sad...

But now's the moment. I'm a changed man. I'm back. I gotta do this...

Here goes...

Knock-knock.

Anyone home?

I'm coming home

Tell the world, I'm coming home

Let the rain, wash away, all the pain of yesterday

I know my kingdom awaits, and they've forgiven my mistakes

I'm coming home

"Hey y'all, I got it!" That voice...

I know that voice...

"Heya, what's..." He trailed off, and I looked him straight in the robotic eye.

I see everyone stop and turn towards the large doors, noticing that their teammate suddenly went silent.

Tell the world...

"B-Beast Boy?"

I'm coming home

"H-hey Cy... I-I'm home..."

AH!

How was that?

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