This takes place during New Moon, just before Bella wakes up and Edward apologizes to her for leaving, and all that stuff.

I'm not a fan of Twilight (yes, I've read the books) but this idea suddenly popped into my head and I had to write it down. So here it is.

Disclaimer: I do not own Twilight, sparkly vampires, or the song 'Gone' by TobyMac.

Edward POV

I watched Bella fall asleep on her bed, her face serene and peaceful. Her face was one that I had gone for far too long without seeing.

Well, technically, I shouldn't even be seeing it now, according to her father. But I couldn't just leave her. I've already lived over half a year without Bella.

Suddenly, a soft breeze from the window fanned her smell towards me.

Oh no. My long absence hasn't improved my control over my thirst, and she smelled so delicious…

Stop, I told myself, trying to regain control of myself.

I felt my pockets for something to distract myself, to take my mind off of how her sweet-smelling blood pulsed under her delicate, fragile skin…I quickly shook that thought out of my head.

My hands found an iPod in the pocket of my sweater. Eagerly, I pulled it out, turned it on, and stuck the earphones into my ears. I chose the first song on the list, not caring about what it was. As it was, though, the song was 'Gone' be TobyMac.

I stopped breathing and closed my eyes, concentrating on the lyrics.

I told the girl that you should treat her like a lady and

She told me all the things you did and it was shady, man

She said that what you say and what you do are different things

While you were telling me that you were checking out them blingy rings

My eyes flew open. It was like this song was…accusing me. I completely agreed with it, though. I've hurt her, lied to her, did practically everything I could to make her life miserable.

She said she's had enough

Well, it sounds to me like you're straight out of luck

And she said she's all through

And life's not blowin' her kisses thanks to you

It would be completely reasonable for her to hate me after all that I've done to her. If she decided to leave me for somebody else, I would understand…

I wanna know, wanna know what you were thinkin'

I can't imagine why it didn't even sink in

They say you never know what you got till it's gone

(Never know what you got till it's gone)

I wanna know, wanna know what you were thinkin'

I can't imagine why it didn't even sink in

They say you never know what you got till it's gone

(Never know what you got till it's gone)

I didn't know what I was thinking when I told Bella that I didn't love her, either. At that time, my reasons were totally reasonable, but nothing was worth the pain and misery that they had caused.

She said she's had enough

So, it sounds to me like your still out of love

And she said you weren't true

And life's not blowin' her kisses thanks to you

I sighed. It was my fault that she had suffered this. If only I could right that wrong…

She said it's gonna be alright

Cause God made a way through the pain and he opened her eyes

And she said you came crawling back

But after what you did to her she wouldn't have any of that

I had come crawling back, on my hands and knees and had put her—and my entire family—in mortal danger. I was a menace. I shouldn't exist. But she needed me; I could see that. And I needed her.

I wanna know, wanna know what you were thinkin'

I can't imagine why it didn't even sink in

They say you never know what you got till it's gone

(Never know what you got till it's gone)

I wanna know, wanna know what you were thinkin'

I can't imagine why it didn't even sink in

They say you never know what you got till it's gone

(Never know what you got till it's gone)

I wanna know, wanna know what you were thinkin'

I can't imagine why it didn't even sink in

They say you never know what you got till it's gone

(Never know what you got till it's gone)

I wanna know, wanna know what you were thinkin'

I can't imagine why it didn't even sink in

They say you never know what you got till it's gone

(Never know what you got till it's gone)

The song ended with the last notes hanging forlornly in the air. Bella stirred, and her warm brown eyes opened a bit, squinting up at me. I quickly turned off the iPod and stuck it back into my pocket, mentally rehearsing apologies and explanations that I would be telling her. Soon, I would right the wrongs I had committed. I'll somehow try to make things better, if only slightly.

But would Bella accept them?

I hoped with all of my heart that she would.

Okay, that was really bad, but oh well. I hope Edward wasn't too OOC.

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