"I don't remember" I murmured in response to the therapist. Tails said to go to one, So did everyone else. I didn't really know what to tell them. That I was beaten, that I was almost drowned, electrified, forced into a small space. I didn't like the thought of it.
"Sonic?" the therapist commented, I perked up. My eyes were unfocused, "you zoned out again." she responded. I did that... I didn't want to think about it anymore. I didn't want to talk about it. It was terrifying.
"Sonic, I want to do a exercise with you. I want to talk about the nightmares" she spoke, I didn't want to talk, I felt muted when being with them, the multiple voices were not helping. I tried drowning them out sometimes, just playing loud music or listening to my radio. Egghead wasn't causing trouble anymore.
"I don't get them" I lied. "Sonic that's a lie, you can speak here... this is completely private and you can trust me" she was gentle in talking.
"...I keep getting nightmares about getting drowned. Being breathless. And then I wake up" I muttered "I drown the voices with music." I added.
"Sonic, I think you are indeed troubled due to this, but I believe you need to try and do some of the meditation exercises that have been given to you" she explained.
The meditation exercises... they didn't really work. They just made me more uncomfortable. "I can't do them, they don't work, I get too unsettled" I spoke gentle.
She gave a small smile "hm... maybe running is a good outlet for you, but I believe that you need to relax your mind perhaps a hypnotherapist could help with this" she explained, Hypnotherapy. I shook my head immediately "No I don't need that, I think I just need to get over this" I muttered.
She smiled "but that's not going to be a easy thing Sonic." she explained putting her hand on mine. I flinched out of general reaction she did not mind.
"I can prescribe you anxiety and sleeping medications, but I think continuing sessions will help you relax abit more. You've suffered alot of pain." she explained softly "You should relax and not try and run into a fight alright. I recommend taking some times off heroing and being able to relax" she added.
I nodded slowly. I know I needed to relax. I got up slowly as it was about the time we finished anyways. I left slowly, for once taking in what needed to be taken in, before simply going into a run.
The night soon drifted as fast as I expect it to, Tails was asleep when I got back home. I didn't want to worry him, despite the high amount of times I did, I wished I was a better person at handling this...
But I knew it wasn't going to work any time soon, I got into bed quietly. Falling into a empty darkness of a drugged sleep.