Hi Everyone! Welcome Back. This is Jaspers Realization. My sequel to Thanks for staying by my side: Two sons story. I am totally team Edward as you can see from my first story and I also adore Jasper. This story is going to be unbelievable with, running away, attempted suicide, gender issues, and a family who eats humans. Yes you guessed right. Eats Jasper. So hang on for the ride and enjoy the story.

Before we start...I do not own Twilight. Just the ideas for this story.

Are you ready for a crazy story line? You'll be cravin for more...

Remember everyone... Jasper killed a human.

Chapter 1

"Edward?" asked Esme and she saw her teary son stare up at her. "I did not even know about vampires Esme. I never heard of them. My mother would not read me stories that might frighten me."

"As a little boy I dreamed about finishing school, driving a train for a job, getting married, and giving my parents grandchildren. My mom told me so many times Esme that she tried so hard to have a brother or sister for me. I also was not suppose to be the oldest, she had about 3 miscarriages what we call it now a day and 2 after I was born. I admit...I was lonely sometimes growing up, getting punished for being just a young boy with a vivid imagination, climbing on chairs and latters...pretending to be a soldier."

"You had a pretty good childhood sweetheart" said Esme softly.

"I have Esme but sometimes I wish I could have died when I was like really 75 in age. However,... Carlisle was always so good to me" Edward answered looking back through the house windowws. "I admit I over reacted. But he is no longer that, that, that, that, that, that mad Esme at me."

"You're always eavesdropping Edward" said Esme tickling her son.

"Thanks for being such a great mom" Edward said shyly and Esme nodded and patted her son on his thigh.

"I was around for a lot Edward" admitted Esme. "Like the time you sat on a bee, stepped on a nail, cut of all your hair..."

"Okay Esme, I think I got it" said Edward sounding embarrassed and knowing he would be red as a brick if possible.

"And the times I still have to lysol the toilets" said Esme giving her son a you know what I mean stare.

"Esme" begged Edward leaning against her shoulder and burying his face.

"I cannot see where he is" said Alice sitting in front of the computer, looking to see if she can see her brother somewhere in the state of Washington on the vampire scanner.

"No visions?" asked a concerned Emmett walking over to his sister and massaging her shoulders.

"NO, no" she said holding her head, he's blocking me out.

"How can this be?" said Carlisle looking very upset.

"He does not want to be found" said Edward answering his fathers question. This got Esme to clasp her handds to her face in shock.

"What do you mean Edward?" asked Carlisle

"He...we don't have much time everyone" said Edward confidently and Esme said "MY BABY, we have to reach him in time CARLISLE screamed Esme now histerical.

"We are going to split up" said Carlisle looking very stressed and nodding at Edward. "If you find him, calling everyone is a must, is that clear?... Good" said Carlisle seeing everyone nod.

"Where the HELL am I?" said Jasper in a ripped white undershirt, bloody torn jeans, and eyes piercing red/black. He was extremely hungry, scared, and confused. He was even delerioius and fell onto his knees.

He put his left hand over where his heart would be. "I just want to die" cried Jasper.

"I cannot go home, I can'" thought Jasper curling up into fetal position and sobbing. He was shaking uncontrollably.

"I am such a disappointment" cried Jasper. "Everyone will hate me. I will be punished so BADLY" sobbed Jasper in fear.

Jasper whimpered as he remembered his birth father yelling at him constantly and kicking him in his bottom. "I'm so scared" cried Jasper standing up shakily and walking ahead into the dark, shadowy forest.

"Wait till I get my hands on you Jasper" he heard in his head from his mother who would chase him around the kitchen and hit him with metal spoons.

Despite being born the youngest of three children Jasper never felt wanted and was always alone.

"Mama and Papa always wanted you to be a little girl Jasper" his two older brothers would taunt and pinch him. "Thats why Mama lets your hair get so long. She thinks you are her little girl."

"Just stopppppp" whined Jasper out loud and breathed in deeply. He almost walked of at least a 200-250 foot cliff.

Hope you want more of the story? Review and be kind. I bet you can guess what happens next. I am super excited to continue to share my story if enough people want me to!