Mending a broken heart
Disclaimer:
Don't own them just borrowing.
Rating: CSI2
Spoilers:
Goodbye and Good Luck
Author's Note: Mini challenge to write a
story inspired by the lyrics of Breathe In by Lucie
Silvas. This
is a slightly rewritten version of a previous story of mine, I hope
you'll all forgive me!
Summary: What if Catherine saw Sara
kissing Gil goodbye in Goodbye and Good Luck?
Mending a broken heart
Catherine raced into her house and collapsed on her couch, her shattered heart aching for what she had just seen in the hallway.
Sara kissing Grissom.
She knew he had seen her, his eyes catching hers as Sara was walking away, the apologetic look he gave her just before she turned around and ran.
She felt her heart stop for a moment when her front door burst open. She looked up and saw him standing in the middle of the room soaking wet from the pouring rain outside. She didn't bother hiding the fact that she was crying as she stood to leave the room. She fully intended to walk past him up the stirs, but when he reached out for her she couldn't bring herself to pull away.
She struggled against him for a second but had to admit she yearned so much for his touch that she let him hold her.
"I feel like
I'm dragging you down a one-way street
I don't know which ways
up
All I ask of you is to stay on your feet
That should
be enough
If we stand around it could pass us by
We could
give up now, and never even try"
"Please, Catherine give me a chance to explain"
She let herself lean in for a minute. Relishing in feeling. She felt him tilt her head up to his. She was afraid to look at him; scared she'd never be able to pull away if she did. The sound of his heartbreaking sigh made her look at him. Surprise and shock registering in her eyes as she saw tears rolling down his cheeks. She reached for him to wipe the tears away but suddenly had to pull away, she felt like she had been burned. She had to get away before she'd forgive him for everything just to stay in his arms like this.
"To breathe in life and breathe out
Like
tomorrow is today
Breathe in life and breathe out
It's
not so long to wait
Breathe in life and breathe out
Wipe
the dust from your sweet smile
And breathe in life"
She felt the entire room zoom in on her as he tried to get close to her again. She kept stepping back as he slowly approached her. Eventually he had her up against the wall, but just as he was about to lean in she escaped his hold and ran to the front door grabbing her purse on from the table. She pulled it open and tumbled out into the darkness.
Her knees buckled under her and she almost collapsed. She took several deep breaths feeling like she was refilling her entire body with oxygen.
"I
just want something real I can hold onto
I believe it's
near
Life's too short to know the truth
Maybe it's
already here
We could throw ourselves into the fire
We
could give up now and never even try"
She reached her car and frantically searched for her car keys. She pulled them from her purse spilling most of the other content onto the ground. She fumbled to get the car started but her hands were shaking so much she had to give up. Instead she felt herself slump down on the steering wheel and began sobbing.
"We're
chasing something we've dreamed of
It's not always out of
reach
It's never far away from us
Cause I believe
that"
Suddenly her car door was yanked open and someone pulled her out and into his arms. She struggled against him but her strength was gone and anger replaced her force.
"Jesus, Gil, you scared me, let me down or else..." his lips found hers in a frantic movement.
She felt his tongue demand access to her mouth. She couldn't believe she was kissing him back, but nothing on earth could have stopped her at this moment. She moaned and felt herself go dizzy from the lack of air and the absurdity of the situation. But deep down she felt the shattered pieces of her heart slowly coming back together.
"To
breathe in life and breathe out
Like tomorrow is today
Breathe
in life and breathe out
It's not so long to wait
Breathe
in life and breathe out
Wipe the dust from your sweet
smile
And breathe in life"
- Lucie Silvas-