Preface
As I stood, ready for battle in less than a seconds notice, I thought over the hundreds of times I stood the exact way I was right now. The only detail that separated this single one from the hundreds of others was those surrounding me. Instead of fighting with those I have all those hundreds of times, I was across the field from them. We were on opposite sides, ready to battle each other.
I never thought my decision to leave would have led to this. I continued to look across the field to my opponents and old friends with pain and guilt.
But I held my ground. I still sneered at them; still felt the need to defend my new family.
Despite
all this I still held on to the last microscopic shred of hope I had
that this wouldn't really end in a fight.
But
as the first one of them attacked all that disappeared and I was just
left with cold fury as I jumped into the battle.