Saturday
A year after Renesmee had been born and I had become a vampire. Everything since that day was perfect. Perfect husband, perfect daughter, perfect family, everything was just perfect. I looked out the window from the Cullen's kitchen. The sun had started to come up and a few rays of sun hit my face. Edward came in, "Wow, you look utterly beautiful." I hadn't heard him come in. I was so entranced with my thoughts.
I smiled shyly as I turned to face him, "You're just saying that because you have to." Edward just shook his head and kissed my forehead and left the kitchen.
I continued to stare off towards the sunrise. All I could think of lately was Jacob. What would have happened if I had chosen him and not Edward? I would have had the chance to live a "normal" life. Imperfection seemed perfect to me. Having to worry about regular problems and not just have everything the way I want them is what I was starting to think I should have chosen.
Everything was just too damn perfect. I detested it. I love Edward with all my heart and soul, but I crave the normalcy and raw passion Jacob had shown me once before. I closed my eyes. I could feel the warmness of the sun on my face. My hands gripped the kitchen sink, I shook my head as if to try and shake out the feelings I had inside me. I couldn't be having these thoughts. Jacob imprinted on Renesmee and he loves her and her only. I was being selfish and stupid. Maybe this will all go away I thought, it was just temporary.