THE CONSTANT
DISCLAIMER: I still don't like to admit this but I don't own any of these characters.
SUMMARY: Not much to summerise really, just Pauls thoughts on Natsumi….read on to find out…do!
There were times he often wondered why, as he gazed at the world,
Eyes half closed, almost not looking….almost
Black shades covered the windows of his soul,
His eyes still half closed….(Natsumi..)
The first one in , and the last one out
Still finding her way about, a slim small spectator ,
In the big world of blood and war and unquenching greed
And that's why he wondered…
He didn't know what kept her there, to be the silent shadow that she was
To serve and smile , or to talk awhile..
Didn't she know that teenage years were the best part of life?
To be enjoyed and cherished and collected into a little ball of memories,
so one could enjoy its warmth in the years to come….
She had a happy life elsewhere, that much he knew.
Too good in fact, to throw away and be a part of a dusty little shop on a lonely little road..
To cook and clean wasn't exactly a dream, yet there she was doing all she could
And that's why he often wondered…..
She was a reminder of his days gone by, a little touch of what he could have had
Had it all been different then, back that day..
She was his comfort in her own way, showing him the warmth of fatherhood
It was his reason, and it was good…
But,still was it enough to make her stay?
May be, it was the smile of friends, a kind word or just a nod
Or that she knew how to find appreciation in one's eyes…
Or perhaps it's the pity she feels at the girl her age, the love she feels for life,
That makes her want to put a sparkle in those purple eyes
Or maybe it's the music so sweet that makes her want to stay
Or those smiling blind eyes, where she lends a hand her way
Or a sisterly love she felt, when she looked at the spiky head,
or the mirth that bubbles deep within her at their little jabs and jokes
Or perhaps it runs deeper than that, maybe she's waiting for Him.
For him to turn around and finally see her standing there.
Waiting for him to see the true meaning of those smiles and little touches
And wait she would till his inner light would stop blinding him to outside truth
Whatever the reason, she was there, helping in ways she alone could
Not showing the path , just making the walk easy…
With a cake or two to fill a hungry stomach and a smile to fill a million hearts.
Whatever the reason she was there and would always be there….
That's why she was his…no..their constant.
I really don't know what made me write this…just that I often wondered what Paul would think of Natsumi…she really does happen to be a character without many background details….anyway hope you guys enjoyed that one…..do R&R.
PYRO THE DARK ANGEL: Thanks for the review…yours was the first! Glad to know you enjoyed the fic…. Hope you enjoy this one as well.
ELLENLOME: Thanks for your review…I'll keep them coming…this one was quick…hope I haven't disappointed you…enjoy! R&R.
ALICORN(A): Thanx for your review as well…yes I know I made grammatical errors..i'll check 'em better next time. Yes, I suppose Ban is OOC..but he's drunk. You have to agree that it's a wonderful excuse..(hehe…). Glad you like the story line….ya! I love the last line…I dunno when it struck , but it came so I put it down…do R&R.